I lost my father when I was 11. The best thing that anyone did for me was just being by my side. I didn't need people to say the right thing or treat my special. I just wanted to know that there were people close to me that I could turn to if I did need something.

Don't beat yourself up over it. There are always millions of "what ifs" with death, especially suicide. There is no way to know that it was your fault. There's no way to know that it was your boyfriend's fault. In all honesty, I don't think it's anyone's fault but his mom's. Regardless of her reasons, it was her choice. I don't mean to sound rude or insensitive by saying that. The simple fact is that something came up in her life that she didn't feel strong enough to handle, so she decided to end it. Don't blame yourself for that.