This is always a hard thing to go through. My friend killed himself about 2 years ago now and it is a terrible thing to have to go through. It is heartbreaking to feel that you couldn't be there for that person when they might have needed you. The sad thing is sometimes there is nothing that you can actually do to help.

NEVER think it was or is your fault. Guilt is a horrible emotion. I have felt guilty for the past two years, thinking about the things that I could have done to prevent my friend from feeling that he couldn't do anything else, that suicide was his last hope. It's hard to silence those feelings but in this case, you are definitely not at fault!

Just be there for your boyfriend. You have been together for a fair time, so just show him that you love him and that you care. He will talk to you when he is ready, and just be there for him when he is.

I hope you are doing okay yourself, because this is a pretty big thing to be a part of *hugs* I hope this advice and hugs help!

And I hope doomfishy is okay too *lots of hugs*