Arachibutyrophobia, is the fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of mouth...

@ Livi - Ah, poet's rants can't come out unfortunately... I keep those guarded close...

@ Ling - That's also a common fear for people with retainers from braces... not surprising... made my brother avoid peanut butter for a while.

@ Ofi - What is that?

Poet: I kinda have a broken filter whenever I am pregnant - and then give what time of the year it is - and I just lose it all together. D:

i have that fear too livi.

Time of year? What do you mean? *blinks* And broken filter?

Mine became an issue after my twin's death almost 6 years ago.

Poet: The anniversary of my twin's death is on the 18th - so November is a tough month for me - and I tend to not be able to hold myself back from saying things when I am pregnant. That filter that stops you from saying some things.... I kinda don't have one right now.

No worries... I am not anywhere near as innocent as I seem...

Poet, invitro fertilization.
is a process by which an egg is fertilised by sperm outside the body: in vitro. IVF is a major treatment for infertility when other methods of assisted reproductive technology have failed.


Livi, we're here for you if you need us... i had a twin in the womb, it didn't make it either. But I'm not seriously affected by it because it was never born... o___o

Poet: I am having to try to hold myself back now. Y'all don't wanna know everything, but my poor husband and the boys get the brunt of it. xD And my parents from time to time. xD

Ofelia: Thanks dear.

Why would you get a test tube baby? I'm sure someday someone would give you one ^^
Someone who loves you. Is Ofi infertile or something?

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@ Livi - Try me xP so long as you don't break the ToS this thread is meant for us to express our problems after all and get help is it not? Not all disabilities are medical related.

Oh, it's just learning how to deal with living without the boy who was born as my other half and that feeling like even after six years, there are some days that the pain, almost as bad as the day that it happened - is still there and all that I want to do is to just curl up in a ball and just cry. Because I miss him so much. But I am trying to work through it, but even with that - I still struggle with it. Every day.

Ofie has tried to get pregnant with her calgary boyfriend at the time, it did not work.
And it wasn't him...

Ofelia: Have you gone to a doctor to have tests done?

I was meant to last summer and i got the uterus ultrasound done and they were supposed to go inside with another ultrasound but then i started my lady business and they couldn't do that and then i just kept putting off rescheduling >_<

Well poet tried too... sometimes it takes longer with certain people... and sometimes maybe it's the body's way of refusing a person.

@ Livi - *hugs* If you ever want to rant about it, really... I'm open. That sounds horrible to deal with... I lost my "other half"... but that was only a legal other half... so the pain may be different, but I know that feeling of someone being ripped away

Ofelia: I hope that they can help you, if you do get around to it.

Livi thank you darling <3
Right now I'm stuck watching all the people I know get pregnant and have their babies.

Don't worry Ofi... there's always a way...

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Hey at least poet will never get pregnant :3

I know ^_^

Poet wishes poet could though... and deal with the pain instead of Larele if we tried

Ofelia:

Poet: I have days where I do feel like just ranting because it really isn't fair, because it hurts - and I am not complete as much as others try to tell me that I am, I just am not. Living with my other half, for almost 21 years to have him just taken away - I felt it when it happened, I knew that he was gone, and I just collapsed. I had to have my parents and friends clean up our apartment, I couldn't find it in myself to go back there. And when I did I just broke down sobbing. Sure my days aren't as bad now, but I do have days where it is just crazy hard for me to get our of bed, because the pain is just there - it's not going away, as much as I want it to go away, it is always there. I have some friends look at me like I am totally insane - the baby I am carrying now is biologically related to the man who was in a relationship with my brother when he was still alive. And I have people tell me that this isn't healthy, that I am clinging to his past, but in a way, I just felt the need to do this. Maybe this'll help the past not hurt as much.
It also took me many many months to actually start living again - I was a living zombie - just going through the motions of life without really living. Because I knew I could not give up, but I Was just in such mental anguish that I felt lost. Like a boat that had lost it's anchor and was lost at sea.
And that is just touching the tip of the iceberg.

Ofie has serious motherly instincts.

Ofelia: Oh me too! And they just got worse when I got pregnant. Or at least, that's what my little sister told me.

Poet would happily take that pain from someone if poet could... poet has a very high pain tolerance so poet would be able to endure it while their friends got to be pain free.

I guess it's good that you don't give up. To live for him. If nothing else yknow? To allow him a chance to experience the world through you in a way ^^
It's wonderful that you're bearing a child for someone else. It's really thoughtful and kind... I'm sure he was very proud of you. That is a big sacrifice for someone, to endure all of what pregnancy gives

@ Ofi - Anyone who's seen you around Larele knows that...

*giggles* Shush poe!