nvm...you are two hours aheadthe time you posted that and the time you said it was threw me off

OH. My bad. XD
I didn't mean to.

it's not your fault
it doesn't help that I am sleepy too

Hey everyone. Hope everyone is doing well, I know I am doing well.

Crow, if you feel that you have to, you can de-whitelist me just in case. I might not be as active on Menewsha as I should. Life is keeping me busy in a sense. I will remember to stop by here as often as possible though. ^_^;

I am doing well, actually!

Also,
Hello thread

Tana woke up from a nap...that was only supposed to be for a little bit...but ended up being about three hours

Hello, loves! c:

Nice avatar, La Bonne fille. ^_^; It looks awesome. !

Hi people!

Hello Tana, I hope all is well.

Tana has an esploded house

What has everyone thought of the Valentine's event? Yet again, I don't have enough currency for a single event item. I do have enough gold, but they're usually cheaper in the marketplace afterwards -_-;

It was pretty good

I didn't do much during the event. I had to get a friend to bail me out. Life is well though, just been busy. :3

Originally Posted by The_Crow

What has everyone thought of the Valentine's event? Yet again, I don't have enough currency for a single event item. I do have enough gold, but they're usually cheaper in the marketplace afterwards -_-;

I actually collected a few extras (it's not an entire set, but it'll get you started), figuring that someone who missed the event might want them.

I'd be more than happy to toss 'em your way, Crow.

Hello peoples! The event was fun and I actually got to do some stuff this time. I managed to get an event set for myself and someone was kind enough to donate a set for my charity. I hope Crow manages to get all the shinies. We got some really cool ones this time.

I wasn't around for much of the event, but at least my life is stable for now. I'll pm ya' when I get a chance, Boo. Right now I should be catching up on course work.

I managed to drain my gold to buy almost a whole set. The only thing I'm missing, Seridano: is the Cocao Plantation, or whateverithappenstobe. Anything else extra that anyone feels charitable in terms of donating I would really appreciate if it went towards the direction of Phobos and Deimos: ! I tried to participate in a couple of things but either I didn't win enough points to count or the trades/tallies etc are a bit slow. The leaderboards weren't caught up/accurate during the games themselves =/

I do wish I was around to enjoy it more but I've been battling an IRL depression something fierce. I also really don't appreciate the way people are reacting to it. I was in a chat room next to streaming doctor who and the stream went down. Someone else mentioned nightmares and I mentioned my nightmars and what the stem from. I did NOT ad hominem attack anyone nor swear but apparently my REAL LIFE issues were enough to make a moderator wipe clean the chat room -_-; Also yesterday I did not sleep at all the night before because a good friend of mine was telling me in detail their suicide plan and they ahd the means as well... this was not general ideation like I do... this was a concrete plan with a concrete time with real means to do it. I couldn't sleep. Plus I know aobut four or so others touched and hinderd by death unfairly right now and I was burdened and I started to explain this and she started raising her voice/yelling at me so I just dropped down to my knees and started crying, then she started yelling at me to get up and was being grouchy that my medication should be 'better managed'. There isn't some magic 'cure all' pill, by the way. Plus I have come a VERY long way in terms of how I handle my depression.

I've just felt very, VERY unappreciated in real life.

Right-o, I'll send over a Cocao Plantation. The others that I have, I shall keep and continue hunting for people who need them for the time being. I'd package them off all nice and neat to Phobos and Deimos, but I tend to send my things to Utopia's charity when I have extras (especially now that I'm helping out over there).

A good friend of mine was suicidal in high school, so I know that particular worry all to well. Tis never fun being elsewhere, knowing that a friend has the means to wipe themselves from existence, not knowing if they'll attempt to go through with it this time or not. Needless to say, back in the day, I spent quite a few nights at her place.

That being said, I don't see why they wiped the chat on you. Of course, everyone reacts differently to the problems of others. Perhaps whatever you said managed to trigger someone (or they were afraid that it would), or perhaps the person in charge was simply unable to handle a bit of unpleasantness. Some folks are like that. They have all the time in the world for their own problems and none for the rest of the worlds'. Anywho, if you ever need someone to talk to about IRL issues in the future (and you feel comfortable doing so), feel free to shoot me a PM.

**shows thread love** I am still around, and I love y'all. How are the new peoples and familiars?

*huggles Crow and company* Hello folks!

I will keep you and your friend in my prayers Crow. *huggles* I have been in your shoes (sort of) when my hubby was deep in the depths of bipolar depression (even with meds at that time). It is never easy listening to someone you care about describe how they are considering hurting themselves (or worse). All you can do is encourage your friend to seek help and keep a close watch on them if they refuse. *huggles* Just remember that you are loved and appreciated here on Mene and we all exist in real life too, despite the distance between us. ^_^

I have been quite shaken up by this betrayal. The few who have seen me in the outside world have seen that I haven't been wearing my trenchcoats/greatcoats/dusters... which means something is very wrong. Even when I'm checking myself into the hosptital I have those on me over half the time, still. It is usually when I am in so much pain I can barely do anything at all that I don't grab them. Also in my waking hours I have barely been on the computer at all compared to normal. A mere fraction, as if I was having to pay by the minite for internet time at an airport. During what little waking time I have had I've been finishing the meat of Dashner's The Maze Runner Trilogy. I read the first book ages ago, and now I have completed The Scorch Trials and I'm approximately halfway through The Death Cure. I have noticed that I am a bit hypersensitive to sympathetic character feelings in books to whatever I am feeling. In The Scorch Trials for example (this is barely a spoiler as I'm keeping it vague, as vague as it is in the beginning), there's something of a "betrayal" that happens between the characters of Thomas and Theresa who were, up to that point, close. At the beginning of the sample pages they leave it off with her screaming in his head (telepathically) that something is wrong and then she is 'gone' no matter how much he screams back for her. In the next chapter or two the title card by her door gives her name, subject number, and 'title': The Betrayer.

I know what its like to have to deal with people who self harm...never had a friend describe a suicide plan with me though...but perhapes they felt i would some how stop them or something. I dunno.
There was a guy in my highschool who shot himself though...that was hard to deal with

I hope you feel better soon Crow.

I tend to get emotionally attached to book characters too. For example, I loved the Harry Potter books up until the end of book five when Rowling went and spoiled them for me. I had my hubby read the sixth book first and then waited for the last one to come out which he read and then told me exactly who was going to die. After hearing the list of casualties in the last couple books I chose not to read them at all (still haven't, though I played the lego game lol). Fanfiction soothes my mind much better. ^_^' I'm actually reading HP fics right now. ^_^

Hey sorry I'm not around as much! I have a job now and it is haard to find time to spare period much less on Mene! I hope everything gets better for you Crow.

I'm sorry I haven't been around!!