It's not enough to say I miss you.

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="DarkRed"]I love how your life can be going so smoothly for a long period of time, and then BAM, it crumbles down on you within a matter of a few days.

Ohh, you thought I was serious! I don't love it. I hate it.

I thought everything was great between us. And then he's like "I know I can't do a long distance relationship babe. We should just end it now, because it'll just get harder the longer we're together."

Stupid college.

Stupid me.

Stupid life!

I don't want to sound like the typical pathetic ex-girlfriend, but I miss him so much. I get butterflies when he texts me to check in.

I tried to move on. I did. Chaz is great, and funny, and I have fun with him. But it just feels wrong! I mean, I'm comfortable with him, his arms around me, etc.

But it's doesn't give me that content, everything's well and nothing can hurt me feeling, that being with Matt gave me.

I hate my life.

But I would so love it if he'd come back into it.[/COLOR][/SIZE]