I hate everybody again. Alas.

I finding myself hating everything. I've read too many books to let myself become nothing, but I can't help it at this point.
I hate everyone on menewsha. I hate that it's a community that I'm not part of and will never be part of. Fuck you guys.
Fuck everyone.
I need a fag, but I can't even buy a pack.
I hate smoking and I never smoke except for these times. Everything is too big for me.
Ever just like, laid in the middle of a shit load of tress really uncomfortably? it's not as great as it sounds. There's no answers found in the sky. There's something and there isn't and it's killing me.

Argh, I need a puppy or something.