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Ugh. I just HAD to jinx myself thinking tonight at work would be easy because Dan would be shift manager since he has the past month or so on Tuesdays. Until I walked in the store and saw dun dun dun! NIKOLAY. D:
I looked everywhere around the store when going to put my bag away but Dan wasn't there. Dammit. So of course tonight was awkward, especially since Margie had just announced her intentions of quitting and I got a look that seemed like he thought I would too. Puh lease. I don't have parents that are exactly thrilled about buying all my necessities. And besides, I kind of like working...and getting paid so I can [hopefully] save up to move out. Geez, how the hell would I be able to wait until after I graduate college to get a job? Psh, you must be joking.
Well no more work for the rest of the week. I'm glad.
So Stephen still hasn't called me. It's been three...er four for him...days since he left to PI. I kind of get the fact that it's 15 hours time difference, but he could at least leave a message on my phone! >[ Even IF my dad told me not to call him on my cell. :D
Hahah he had to pay 100 dollars extra on my cell bill this last month. xD Sorry. Funny though he didn't make TOO big of a deal about it other than to tell me to watch my texting and talking. But no, last year when KB and me were texting constantly, he freaked about a $20 more charge...which is bullshit anyways because she has verizon and we're "in" -.- I fucking hate Verizon. Best service my ass. I'm lucky to get one bar in my own damn room, but if I go downtown, I get three bars!
Gah whatever.
But yeah, I miss hearing from Stephen. It's so boring without all our inside jokes about Nikki and insurance and claire's radio. XD I'm not too worried about him finding a girl there because, well, let's just say I don't need to worry. x] But he may get a little relationship crazy over some when he gets back. And then I may get a little depressed...again. Why am I always a little depressed over him? First it's not being honest with him and telling I like him, then it's being jealous that he's not spending enough time with me, and then that I feel I'm moving too fast wanting to kiss him before he left, and now that he'll be back to the way he was before he left [maybe even worse] drooling over all the hotties. :[
Me and Margie seem to be growing apart, and she was one of my strongest friends. Me and Nina, though good friends, have never been really down to talk about anything, but some things. Roger and I don't talk much though I can tell him anything. And Stephen, well, he's gone for a month. I have other friends, but they're almost more acquaintances in the fact that we don't really ever talk much/at all. So we all know what this means...I'll actually have to start making friends again at college. Ugh. Or maybe I can actually start focusing on schoolwork without having a bunch of friends and their problems/drama to deal with.
As far as my own drama, I have journals I can vent at. XD

Mmkays.
I think that's enough bs for now.

[I]I waaaant you to want me
I neeeed you to need me
I'd looove you to love me
I'm beeeegging you to beg me[/I]
Gotta love Cheap Trick.


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And speaking of songs on my itunes, I sooo want to show Stephen the new Disturbia "thriller" video that Seiki showed me. D: He'd love/hate me for it, but he has no internets. ><
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Avi sites...why do I feel like my adventure is ending? Yea, you can blame the dumb electricity bills..I don't know what to do. I had said that I quit avi sites so many times...saying it another time, nobody would care. I feel invisible here in Menewsha. I WANT to like it, honestly, but I just...don't. I miss the old menewsha. I miss fishing. Where did all the old members go? Where are my friends? Who do I talk to? Why can I barely recognize anybody who is online? Why is everything so dull and boring, and signing on in Menewsha only makes me want to sign off quick?

I really don't know WHAT to do.:|

Also, now my mom tells me I might have to use my old pants to school. WHAT? Are we going poor? V_V I am so scared.

...Not since you did it.
Two feet above the ground...You always wanted to fly, I suppose you'll never touch the ground again.

The words I remember more than your "last" where the words "There's nothing left for me here..."
So, I wasn't enough?
We kissed, didn't we?
I stepped a mile out of my comfort zone for you...
For Christ's sake, I'm a lesbian...
And yet you still tied that noose and you still took that last step.

A mile over the edge, and still falling.

I miss you...I want to see you again.

I'm glad you're home, but...what do I do?
It hurts...all I've wanted to do since is eat a handful of muscle relaxents.

All this for a boy...
A [B]boy[/B] of all things.

I. Miss. You.

Nothing has happened lately around here. My siblings are as annoying as ever, and (as usual) I've found so many cool things on the Interwebs that I want to buy, but can't afford. Such is life.

I'm having a lovely time roleplaying, and I've gotten a bit attached to one of my characters, a vampire. He's sort of a generic cute-but-wierd vampire, but I think he's a bit different and I really like him. And. . . I can't believe I was just talking about one of my fictional roleplaying characters. Maybe I really should be a writer.

Hmm. . . What else can I talk about? Uh. . . I need to do some more pixel art, see if I can make anything cool enough to sell, which probably isn't too likely. Oh, and I've actually found some jewelry I might actually wear! The jewelry in mind is a ring that's all steampunk, with little gears that might actually move on it instead of precious stones. It's lovely. :heart: But I'm a geek and I have a different ideals than most people when it comes to things like 'loveliness' and 'cuteness.' How many other people have you ever heard of who squeal in adoration whenever they see a picture of Cthulhu? :p

Hey ^-^

This is Vanniya and I'm 25 years old. I live in Austria and love to make avatars. I am also on Gaia, Roliana and Zantarni.

I love everything that is cute ^-^

luvlee greetings
Vanniya