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[COLOR="Magenta"]last day of school now it time to part hope everybody had fun at school:roll:not we all know that school is not fun[/COLOR]

[CENTER][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]I think at this point, its best to really just give up on trying to please my dad. I've done absolutely nothing wrong, but stayed up a little late tonight and he's mad at me for it. I don't have to be up early for anything in the morning, so what should I care? Even if I were working by now (orientation on Thursday) I'd be working in the afternoon/evening because I want it to correspond with my schedule for school in the fall so I don't want to work mornings and then have to switch that to afternoons later on. It would just be a pain.

Oh well. I'll let him be upset for now, and then I'll deal with him later.
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[CENTER][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]I'm supposed to go to breakfast with Lou in the morning around 10, so you'd think that with it being 2:30 in the morning, I would be sleeping. Haha. So not happening right now. It'll probably be another hour and a half before I get to bed and in any case, I have far too much going on right now to need sleep anyways. It's not really my thing (self-proclaimed semi-insomniac remember).

I must remember to get more music by U2. I realize that I never really gave them much of a chance and I've never really appreciated their music, but it's really not that bad. Not entirely my taste or anything, but I can get used to it.
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[FONT="Century Gothic"][SIZE="2"][COLOR="Navy"]Today I took my first step towards getting employment, granted it was a baby step, but still a step in the right direction.

For those who don't know I have suffered from depression since I was about 13 - 14 and I really have a lot of trouble with stressful situations. Hence why I lock myself in my room for the better part of the day, everyday.

I am elated that I have taken a step towards getting a job, even though it was a tiny step. Hell and larger and I probably would have an anxiety induced breakdown. I am so proud of myself, but I am really terrified.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]