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I found him in a club.

I lost him when he left.

He was there often, a memory, and untouchable soul

He left me wandering in feelings, a pool that would never fade

I believe I felt something, like, a felt a jolt of pain

I messed around with others, I dated those that I shouldn't have

Maybe one day I would be noticed, but never a flinch nor a sign

I continued my horrid ways barely seeing him

One day I started talking to him longer then I have before

I found a courage within me to hug him but at first I was scared

He did not know why, but of course I knew …

Why shouldn't I? He is one of those who seem mysterious yet human

I felt safe, I knew what it felt like to feel safe

Though I did not want to admit it, I liked that feeling

A security no one ever reached, those who have tried failed …

Why did he pass? When he shows no feelings of any sort like that towards me?

He was his own person, he was like this too many

A few knew him, knowing enough to bring his true self out a little

I wish I knew that person but I only know of him as someone who doesn't step up to the plate

I found nothing for a while, getting lost after that amount of time, he never stayed after

I dated someone once more, he was a good friend and I messed it up

I find myself feeling these feelings, I avoided them for so long, why couldn't they stay away ..

Why couldn't I cry in my sleep, why does his voice long to be heard?

I have never missed anyone like this .. It scares me .. Why ..

I want to be free of this but then again I want this sadness to remain because I deserve no one ..

No one from No where ..

What scares me the most is I love talking to him

Though I feel annoying to him, I really do ..

To help him see that friends are right around the corner ..

That's the best thing .. I can give him …

To save me from the hurt

Is to show he is loved.

That is the best gift he could ever give me.[/SIZE][/COLOR][/I][/FONT][/CENTER]

hay
hay
hay
menewshaaa~
:drool:

I got disinterested in gaia for a bit~
so i'll do sum bloggin.

TODAY,
omg boring show.
:talk2hand:

today i did some classwork so i can finish in six weeks.
whoaaaa only six more weeks until summa.
summa tiiime wat a bootiful tout~~

I almost fell asleep whilst doin some geometry.
:B
& then i read some history shizz about some japanese men.
after i finally finished i went to do dinner with my paaa~
8DD
we ate and then i won a free desert.
o 3o <3
thank you chickfila cow n_____n
then we made our regular stop to the bookstore and coffee shop. omgyummm.
then i came home and finished some commisions.
:stare:
with my new pastel pencils.
yaywoo~
then i read some more stuff and then i got online and talked to my bff rain.

Now im watching the golden girls.
C:
lovelovelove.

I kinda want some more chickenfila chicken.
waterofthemouth.

:insane:<3

now i want to be sleepy.
WHY~ ;-;

[CENTER][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]You've got to work. WORK IT GIRL. [/COLOR][/SIZE][B][SIZE=4][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]covergirl[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue][B]![/B]

[/COLOR][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]America's Next Top Model is fierce tonight. The shoots are really intricate and big and just.. wow. Panel hasn't shown the photos yet, but you know its going to be fierce whenever its a modern rock star renaissance shoot theme.

My tummy hurts a bit tonight. I haven't eaten anything bad (we had chicken noodle soup for dinner so you would think that would be good for me right?) or anything. But I just have the worst stomach pain. Arg.

Judging now! Will edit after the show : )

It turns out that it was time for Katarzyna to go, as she was eliminated this week, and I must say I'm almost glad to see her go. I've loved her from the beginning; she's nice, takes good photos, and she was good at modeling. But she was also bland. It was her time to go and I quite agree with the judges' decisions to send her home.

However, I don't feel that Whitney should have been given the safety pass yet again. She's been falling steadily and its a shame because she's such a beautiful girl. I don't know how much more of her I can stand if she's not going to be improving.

My favorite is still Fatima. I've been pushing for her since the very beginning of this cycle. She's just so beautiful and unique; her drive to succeed is truly impressive and I feel that she would be the best person this season to win. I want her to succeed just as much as she does. And I would hope that she will continue on with the good job that she has been doing thus far!

Dominique needs to go. I just don't like her.

And Anya, well.. she's got to learn how to speak better. Her accent is truly horrible and I don't buy the whole baby/innocent voice. Its so annoying.

Two more episodes left; who will be the winner?
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Are Chinese Confucianism and Western Capitalism Compatible?

The Dialogue on Freedom: A Personal Assessment

Joe the King: Examining the Psychology of a Delinquent Adolescent

Anxiety Disorders: Social Anxiety and Selective Mutism in Children 15 and Under

The Art of Narration Within the Song of Roland[/INDENT]



Alright Menewsha, I ask you: [B]Which essay should I write first?[/B][/FONT]

[color=dimgray][size=1][CENTER][B]Blocked Site[/B]

The site [url]http://aks-kitty.deviantart.com/[/url] is blocked. It has been classified in the category/ies DET Allowed HSC (High School Certificate) and TAFE Studies
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...can someone please tell me what that actually means? 'cause I've got no idea.
At all.
It's amazing how many sites are blocked at my school. Menewsha once was, but for some reason it isn't any more.
But it's really quite funny that you can search 'hot girlxgirl porn' and get sites that work, but doing a research project on WW2? Hellz no.
You get your internet access blocked for a week for viewing hate related material.

I had some really nice problems doing some work on the gas chamber.

But what ever.
I'm thinking about doing an art auction again. Don't know what for (both in art given away, and in how to have the AB for).
I know I have exams soon, but I'm utterly sick of school so want something else to do.[/size][/color]