I feel compelled to donate more to Menewsha. I want my instant gratification of pretty pixel items and I know that the site will benefit from my donation.. but I am not made of money! I need to remind myself that donating is mostly a win-win situation but I need to save money. >_< It's a very slippery slope, indeed.

I would love to message everyone who has been so supportive to me, but I just can't seem to find the right words and there are so many people who have been kind to me.

I have been struggling the past couple years a lot. I have struggled with my family breaking apart and losing a good friend. I have struggled in losing my home, my sentimental items, and a very special cat who held a big part of me. Things are still rough but because of your kind words and love you have given my life a ray of hope. I'm struggling at creating a family for my son who will arrive in May. His father isn't always around and it makes it hard.

My friends have given me more strength than I could ever imagine. I have come to notice that your true friends appear in the darkest hours. I have come to see who my real friends are and I am so greatful to them. And through my troubles I have made new friends. Each person has left some form of impression on my life whether good or bad. But those who have left good ones will love on in my heart and by my side. They are the ones I will create my new life around. Out with the bad and in with the good.

So this is my way of saying thank you to everyone who has been supportive, kind, and patient with me. You are the ones that rock and the ones that I care about. And I hope that I can return what you have given me.

[CENTER][b][U][SIZE="5"]The Eternal Child[/SIZE][/U][/b][/CENTER]

[B]Name:[/B] Lalita Tien

[B]Name Meaning:[/B] Playful (as well as charming/desirable) ; spirit or fairy

[B]Nickname(s):[/B] Lia

[B]Gender:[/B] Female

[B]Age:[/B] She appears in her mid teens

[B]Race:[/B] Fay-born
*that is a human that is constructed or somehow born from fay magic or fay souls. This can occur due to fairy deliberately intervening or a changeling lasting long enough to have a child before it's magic makes it fade and appear to 'die. In lia's case she was still born and her mother's dying wish was for something to save the baby. Some passing fae in pity put pieces of various dead fay's souls into the dead infant to revive it into the strange little being that is Ms. Tien.

[B]Height:[/B] 5'3''

[B]Build: [/B] Willowy, Slender.

[B]Appearance:[/B] [url=http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g192/stariamoon/Character%20Anime%20Pictures/girl_zps69093cc8.png] She[/url] is a slight, slender little thing that stands only 5'3'' and appears to be around six teen. She has vivid blue eyes and hair as black as coal with a slightly purple sheen to it. She always wears an over sized hooded jacket over her clothes that makes her appear even smaller and very simple clothes in neutrals and light blues. She often wears gloves and claims her hands get cold is why. She also always wears a silver wedding band with small stones on her right hand, showing it is not hers or truly a symbol of marriage anymore... Other then this ring she wears no other jewelry.

[B]Scars/Tattoos/Birthmarks:[/B] Blue stylized butterfly wings on her back. She also has scars on her back, shoulders, and arms that make it appear she was in one hell of a fight.

[B]Piercings:[/B]None

[B]Alignment:[/B] Chaotic Good would probably best describe her.

[B]Occupation:[/B] Adventurer with unknown means of income, presumed that it is from her family.

[B]Personality:[/B] She can be flighty and appear rather attention deficit but appears very knowledgeable about random obscure things and intelligent when you can get her to keep still. Unless she's reading it's very rare to find her not moving, you see, whether she's practicing a spell or running around to do some new experiment. Whether this is due to an actually flighty nature or she just plain doesn't care is unclear. She can be rather selfish and aloof at times as well but more out of distraction then any real malice. The only time she seems to drop into any real seriousness is on cold rainy days.

[B]Likes:[/B] Love, Laughter, magic, experiments, history, fun, independence, painting, drawing.

[B]Dislikes:[/B] Cold, Rainy Days. Fighting.

[B]Angered By:[/B] People who try to control her, two faced people, Lies, Those who blame others falsely.

[B]Soothed By:[/B] New knowledge or other distraction.

[B]Words She lives By:[/B] “Just keep moving, never slow down!”

[B]Favored Weapons:[/B] Enchanted Cards.

[B]Always Carries:[/B] A ring that was her mothers, a group of taro cards despite professing lack of belief in them.

[B]Most prized possession:[/B] Her mothers wedding ring.

[B]Powers:[/B] Shapeshifting, control Ice and water, and using various spells as well as alchemy. She has enchanted various taro cards and cloth items to do various things with these skills.

[B]Talents/Skills:[/B] Spellcrafting, Alchemy, multi-lingual, gymnastics, ability to paint anything she sees with perfect accuracy.

[B]Strengths:[/B] Her ties to magic and her intelligence.

[B]Weaknesses: [/B] Iron hurts her just as it would a fae.

[B]Fears/Emotional Scars:[/B] Terrified of blood.

[B]Family:[/B] Her 'father'.

[B]History: [/B] Even being born was a life and death experience for her. Living in her small village would not be much of an improvement at first. In fact shortly after her birth a plague took many other young infants but her magic protected her as it was from tainted water. By the time she was five it had began to take adults as well. Blaming her, one cold and rainy day, a mob of villagers tried to kill her and her father. Her powers presented themselves, sending a shockwave of sharp ice daggers from her body. Many of the villagers died and she found her own father also seriously injured. She unconsciously used their connection and her own magic to try and keep him alive. He has slowly become more construct then human and may or may not be dead. Since then the two fled and she grew, becoming the strange person she is now and constantly searching. What she searches for even her father does not seem to know.

(In this blog I will list my roleplaying ideas. If you like any of them you are more than welcome to message me about a current one you wish to do with me.)

[U]"Light"[/U] Two lovers are in for some big trouble. You see for a long time magic has been known in this world of Athenian. The main character is Crystal, a beautiful women in pure white. Her job is to control the light as her mothers have done before her. But Crystal does not wish for this. In order to control the light she must go to the temple and live the rest of her years without distractions. But this means Crystal will never be able to see the one she loves ever again. She has a duty of controlling the light but she also loves this man very much.

[U]"Clash of Crimson, Teal, and Gold"[/U] For years a endless war has tainted the world in blood. Once the evil monarchy by the name of Ray Crimson took the throne he selfishly took all the land's wealth for himself. At first everyone was too scared of Crimson's great army of 50,000 men but as the years went on the hatred built up. The citizens began to rebel and a man under the name Herald Teal was the one that lead the first revolution. The result was thousands of people on both sides dead. Crimson then signed a treaty that day to swear he would never let this go out of control. But this promise didn't last. A sly woman enchanted Crimson into taking lands for her. She was the queen of his world and everyone nicknamed her Gold Snake because she was pretty but full of lies. Gold got thousands of men to fall for her just so she could use them for her dirty work. Once again the citizens have been upset, but Teal disappeared ten years back. Who will lead them into battle now?

[U]"Coursetta"[/U] A family feud has been going on for years but it’s been getting dangerous. Some family members have been kidnapped for ransom, and some have even been killed. Both families hold a class of their own. The Rolinsons are a high class family who are spoiled with riches and luxuries the peasants can only dream of. The other family is the Marths family that consists of peasants living off what they can afford. The two families started fighting because the Rolinsons cheated the Marths in business all the time, but the Rolinsons said they were just jealous because they were rich.

[U]"Fluids"[/U] Is the Cannibalism Girl. Kasey was a normal girl going to a private school for girls. But she is someone who loves raw meat, which is considered unclean. One day Kasey comes to find out her caretakers were burned alive in a fire. This of course traumatized her when she discovered their corpses. As she goes down she gets curious about the taste of new meats yet to be discovered.

[U]"Bounty"[/U] It's about Seth the bounty hunter. His life style is living off of game from hunting or the money he earns from bounties. But lately he has been following a big bounty of a very dangerous girl. Without knowing it he is really following after his childhood friend and part of him still loves her. That's a summary of it all so far, in the least.

[U]"Abstainya: The World of Dreams"[/U] This is based on the idea of a world that holds the dreams each person in the world. Lately Earth has become chaos and consumed in greed. The battle of the throne in which the next world leader remains empty since there is all out war for the pride of ruling everything. But in a time of evil there is always a hero. Abstainya is a mere legend to most but a wise man once spoke of a vision in which Abstainya was revealed. The vision was that a chosen hero would be sent into Abstainya and that within this world of dreams lies the key in which all dreams possible. If the hero found this key he or she would be able to wish the world back to it's old peaceful state.


[U]"Akito"[/U] Akito seems like your average teenager, but he truly isn't at all. Long ago Akito was the prince of all demons. But this is a time he can no longer remember. You see when Akito was just a boy an army of demon slayers did a surprise attack. For many years these slayers and the demon have been in constant war. Due to this it is not surprising that they would attack Lucifer, Akito's own father. Akito was sent to Earth with the last of his mother's dying will. Though not soon after the slayers found Akito. Though he escaped them he took in major damage and now no longer recalls who he is. For years he has lived at an orphanage without any luck on finding a clue to his past. To this day he is unaware of the demon slayers tracking him down.

[U]"LinXLen"[/U] Lin is a stubborn girl who has little faith in men, at all. Even when she was little she disliked them because of their constant bullying and careless actions. She found men repulsive and bad mannered ever since her father left without a word. Lin used to live with her mother but she decided to go out on her own after she began highschool. The bad thing though, is Lin got into a giant mix up. By cursed fate Lin was put in an all boys school. But in order to be able to live on her own and keep her job she must do this. So Lin makes a plan and she attends the all boys school as a boy going by the name "Len". But this is only the beginning of Lin's troubles. Her job is working a night job in a butler cosplay were she also has to play a male role. In a sense her hate is very ironic because of the way her life is going.

[U]"Scarlett"[/U] Scarlett is a lot more of a tragic story. It starts when she is a mere child at the age of 8. Back in the Medieval era there was a lot of fighting and even girls learned to be warriors. From the time Scarlett was 8 she began daily warrior training along side her younger brother named Seth. As the eldest in the house she looked over her younger brother carefully. Yet when Scarlett was 14 Seth was attacked by wolves when he went to hunt alone and later died of rabies. Ashamed for her failure of not being able to protect Seth, Scarlett left her home town to go out on her own. Scarlett became a traveler at that time and she travels on at the age of 18 now.

[U]"Vrai et Faux (True and False)"[/U] For many years people have question what is true and false about evil and good. One day a king wanted to find out the answer so badly he created a death maze call Vrai et Faux. This death maze was designed to define right and wrong, evil and good, along with true and false. The game is simple really. As you walk through the maze it will ask a question and list three directions in which you can go beside each choice. Only one of them is the truth. You must find the truth in order to move on. If you pick false you will step into the ultimate death trap. No one has ever escaped them. The game begins with 20 players and there are a total of 60 true and false questions. As far as everyone knows, no one has ever come out alive. Will you survive?

[U]"Witch Girl"[/U] A plague has cursed the lands across Europe. People look left and right, tagging women as witches who caused this bad luck. Many of these girls end up dying because they are blamed for being a witch. Hearing the news of girls being pegged as witches, Shiru quickly makes her way to the kingdom were her brother is. But when she gets there she finds out the prince had run away and now some people are blaming her.

[U]"Forget Me Never"[/U] There once was a helpless girl named Lotus, who from the beginning of her birth, was extremely weak. She was predicted to die within a year after her birth. But the girl lived past one year and grew to be a beautiful teenager. Unfortunately her weakness limited what she could do so the girl was always inside. Even the smallest of things could harm the girl. She didn't grow up totally alone though. The girl had trouble seeing and the year she went blind a boy came across her window. Slowly the two became friends and even grew close. But the day Lotus regained sight, the boy never returned.


(To see these characters, just click this link: [url]http://www.menewsha.com/forum/blogs/azurax/9502-characters.html[/url] )

[CENTER][b][U][SIZE="5"]The Runaway Princess[/SIZE][/U][/b][/CENTER]

[B]Name:[/B] Ziya Itzallen

[B]Name Meaning:[/B] Splender/Light/glow (of) Shadow

[B]Nickname(s):[/B] Zi'Zi
*just by her brother.

[B]Gender:[/B] Female

[B]Age:[/B] Appears 18

[B]Race:[/B] Void or Eclipse Fairy.
*A race of fairies said to be born from the eclipse often used to settle disputes between light fay and dark fay. They seem to appear like normal fay on this plain of existence but their true form is unknown to most.

[B]Height:[/B] 5'7
*she can appear whatever size she wants but generally chooses this.

[B]Build: [/B] Athletic with subtle but definite womanly curves.

[B]Appearance:[/B] [url=http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g192/stariamoon/Character%20Anime%20Pictures/fairy-1.png]The form she chooses[/url] has vivid green eyes and untamed dark purple hair that fails to hide her long pointed ears. Her skin is pale with a sprinkle of freckles across her nose. She always wears her hair mainly down with the upper portion pulled into two messy buns which she likes to decorate with flowers and butterfly pins. She tends to dress part pirate, part lolita, and part stripper in shades of blue with black. She is of average height and athletic build with subtle but definite womanly curves, or at least tends to prefer to appear that way for reasons of her own. She tends to keep her wings, which are made of blue and silver light, hidden and moves with a strange mix of energy and grace. She has an intricate crescent moon mark in black and silver over her left breast that marks her as Eclipse Fay royalty, the one thing about her shape she can not change.

[B]Scars/Tattoos/Birthmarks:[/B] An intricate crescent moon mark in silver over her left breast

[B]Piercings:[/B] Ears multiple times.

[B]Alignment:[/B] Good

[B]Occupation:[/B] Wanderer, singer, performer and magician.

[B]Personality:[/B] She is cheerful, kind, loving, outgoing and easily amused. She is easily distracted and appears a little add at times, which often hides her intelligence. She will often day dream, imagining large stories about those around her. She never pries into the past of others, saying her stories or better so why bother?

[B]Likes:[/B] Freedom, Imagination, Creativity, laughter, singing, entertaining others, making people happy.

[B]Dislikes:[/B] Responsibility, Mundane things, Repetition, Cruelty, falsehood, lies, drama.

[B]Angered By:[/B] Being Controlled or trapped.

[B]Soothed By:[/B] Genuine Flattery, laughter, singing.

[B]Words She lives By:[/B] “Laugh even when you want to cry, because tears aren't worth the energy!”

[B]Favored Weapons:[/B] Her halberd which is a long silver pole with an intricate crescent moon shaped blade at the top. It is able to take the form of a silver ring which she keeps it in most of the time.

[B]Always Carries:[/B] Her mystery pack, that is a tattered old black backpack that seems to hold whatever she calls out or wants at the time. A gold coin from the magician who taught her human's 'magic' tricks. A pair of moon and star earrings she can communicate with her brother using.

[B]Most prized possession:[/B] Her coin. Her earrings, a gift from her brother.

[B]Powers:[/B] Flight with wings, shape-shift, fast healing, improved speed, strength, and reflexes. Reflect or absorb energy using 'the void' or the 'space between spaces'. She can also release recently absorbed energy. Immunity to most mental or magical powers as well as poisons. 'See' Energy Immortality, dimensional travel(only during an eclipse).

[B]Talents/Skills:[/B] Slight of hand, gymnastics, acrobatics, wielding pole-arms and swords.

[B]Strengths:[/B] Her optimism and inner strength.

[B]Weaknesses: [/B] Iron (like most fay).

[B]Fears/Emotional Scars:[/B] Small Spaces.

[B]Family:[/B] The royal family of the Eclipse Fay, the only one of which she actually communicates with or likes at all is her younger brother.

[B]History: [/B] She lived a very happy life, groomed to become the next queen on the first eclipse after her eighteenth birthday. She was gifted with the ability to tell if other Eclipse were lying but accordingly can not lie herself. Because of this ability she saw the Eclipse court had become lax, lazy, and full of falsehood and politics no better then the fairy courts they supposedly watched over. Disgusted she decided her twin brother who also had the ability would make a better ruler, being he was more responsible anyway and liked the strategy of the intrigue, and ran away the next eclipse from the dimension in which her people live to ours.