[CENTER]Sometimes I feel like everyone is trying to be as mean to me as possible without being obvious.
Is that me just not being trustful?
Or is it really happening to me?

Sometimes I wonder what people think of me, even though they don't know the real me, even though they've hardly gotten to know me.

Do they dislike the way I talk?
Do they dislike what I say?
Do they dislike what I don't say?
Do they dislike talking to me?
Do they dislike that I like to discuss things?

Do they even like anything about me?

& How they react to me, it can sometimes hurt, even if they don't say anything mean, even if they say something nice.

It makes me feel like they only treat me in a mean way.
To everyone else, they're the nicest person in the world.
It feels unfair.

Is this really how life is supposed to be like?
Or am I just imagining things?[/CENTER]

[CENTER]I'm tired.
That's what I say as an excuse for many things.
Driving. Homework. School. Life.
I'm just too tired.
I don't know if it's actually true, but that's how I feel.
I don't think I even care though.

& This tiredness makes me hate.
It makes me hate humans.
Hate everything I love.
Hate everyone I care about..

All in, annoyed, asleep, beat, [B]bored[/B], broken-down, burned out, collapsing, consumed, dead on one's feet, [B]distressed[/B], dog-tired, done for, done in, drained, drooping, droopy, drowsy, [B]empty[/B], enervated, exasperated, fagged, faint, fatigued, [B]fed up[/B], finished, flagging, haggard, irked, [B]irritated[/B], jaded, narcoleptic, overtaxed, overworked, petered out, played out, pooped, prostrated, run-down, sick of, sleepy, spent, stale, [B]tuckered out[/B], wasted, worn, worn out.

Those are all acronyms of the word tired.
So am I really tired?

All I know is that I don't want to feel this way anymore.[/CENTER]

[CENTER][COLOR="Silver"]I really got into Menewsha a few day ago. I'm quite enjoying myself, though at the same time I'm bored. I guess there's something I'm still looking for.

Hopefully, I'll find it soon.

On these kind of sites, I think I usually like to buy and sell things the most, for some odd reason. I wonder if I should try to hold a conversation with someone, but I don't think I will ever be into that again.. Eh.. Kinda wish I was less of a coward.. And had interesting things to talk about... like in the past..[/COLOR]

[COLOR="White"]Can anyone help me???[/COLOR][/CENTER]