[CENTER][FONT="Century Gothic"]Twenty-Two feels the same as being Twenty-One, but now I am no longer my favorite number P;

You know, this was my most pleasant birthday.. ever. Every single birthday I've had, turned into disasters, each one of them end with me crying. This is the first one that I celebrated in which I did not shed a single tear.

;] Thank you so much my dear dear Valik for making the start of my Twenty-Second year, perfect.[/FONT][/CENTER]

[CENTER][FONT="Century Gothic"]P; Yeah, not gonna happen with the apartment I mentioned in my last blog entry.
I'm not even going to go into details. It turned out to be a great waste of time and energy.
Less than two weeks to find a place to move to.
I'm more than a bit stressed, and now my period is late.[/FONT][/CENTER]

[COLOR="YellowGreen"][FONT="Century Gothic"]Before I get into my rant about sleep...

So, we've found a place that is renting [even before our move out date]. It's [or let's say, the model] apartment is really really really nice, the office staff seems nice, the area is quiet, and in an 'ideal' part of town. The rent is $544 a month [no utilities include, but fully furnished -appliance wise- and has a full size washer and dryer in unit] [We'll also have a wood burning fireplace], and it's 730 square feet, that's 200 + more square feet than the apartment we are in now, and less than $100 more than we are paying now.

Sounds perfect, right?

;| Reading the online reviews, makes the place sound like complete hell. 23 reviews, majority bad, and all [mostly] consistent.

I mean, the bad parking we can deal with, noise.. we can deal, but leaky fridges, running toilets, [and maintenance taking forever and a day to fix anything], the nightly 'patrol' never seen, cars broken into [can happen anywhere, but um, the patrol actually being existent would be nice, ya know?], and the shitty shitty pot hole ridden parking lot? Um, I have reservations about that, oh and not too mention the horror stories we've heard about the leasing company, oy don't get me started about that.

I think we'll end up doing a six month lease, if it's as bad as everyone says, we'll use the six months to find a better place [even if that means paying more].

So, I am happy that I no longer have to worry about finding somewhere to live [for now], I'm still worried about the actual place.

Okay, on to my sleep rant.

For the life of me, I could not get to sleep last [this] night. I would lay down, and toss and turn, wide awake.

so I'd come into the living room, and get online. 10-15 minutes later, I'd be pass out tired. I'd go lay down, and immediately, I'd be wide awake again. I would lay down for 30 minutes or so, to see if I'd fall asleep, and I ended up doing what I always do when I don't fall asleep quickly...

I think about irrational [yet plausible] fears.

My death, Valik's death, nothing but worry, 'what would happen if this happened, or this?' 'I don't want to die.' 'I don't want to live forever, I just don't want to end up rotting, the actual act of dieing I don't mind.. it's what happens after, I can romanticize it all I want [my body returning to the earth, feeding the soil, growing the grass, that feeds animals, etc], but yeah.. my skin will fall from my bones as bugs eat away at me, doesn't sound like a picnic.' and my head conversation would go on and on.

No more Bailey's and Coffee for me when in the middle of the night.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR="YellowGreen"][FONT="Century Gothic"]Okay, so we are home [been home for about a week or so], not much to report.. I mean nothing good.
Like I said in the last blog page, we are moving, and need to be out by the 28th of this month, problem is.. every place we've looked for an apartment, has nothing available until mid - JUNE.
Egad. Today [I am staying awake right now to make sure we get out on time] we are going to look at more places.
I mean if worse comes to worse [and I am really hoping it doesn't], we'll put everything in storage and stay at a hotel until something opens up, but that's expensive, not too mention, Bugs are all up in storage places, and my phobia is not liking that.
Sadly, we can not even prolong our stay at this apartment, since someone now has dibs on it. Fark.

I hate being grown up.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR="YellowGreen"][FONT="Century Gothic"]And the first entry in this blog begins.

So, the work trip is nearly over, only a week [if that] left. Sadly, that won't end my busyness.
We are terminating our lease May 28th, and we still haven't gone apartment 'shopping' [since we've been out of the state], So, once we do get home, we have to look at places, pack, move, unpack, and then right after moving, we have to go out on another work trip [including going to a convention for computer geeks]. Grawr.

I can't wait for respite.

:sarcasm:[/FONT][/COLOR]