Jibun Kakumei

It's been a while since I've actually mustered enough will to come back to Menewsha full time; indeed, I'm still likely not going to be back in full. When my boyfriend and I started dating, and I got my new job, life got to be too much to handle the site and real life. About two weeks ago however, my grandmother died and I was fired from my job.

These two things were quite a blow to me; though I wasn't as close to her as I would like, that part of the family has been going through some big issues lately and it was really hard. My grandma was such a generous person, and to see her children fighting in such a manner is an insult to her. I am glad I won't ever see my uncles or aunts again because I am completely disgusted about how they treated my father.

Being fired was a slap in the face as well. That day I called the temp agency I was with, and they said my boss was pleased with my work ethic. Next thing I know, the owner of the company comes up to me with a livejournal post of mine. (I had made fun of the products) He fired me on the spot when I admitted the post to be my own.

I know I should have known better; I should have made the post private, I shouldn't have posted names, etc. For one small part of idiocy on my part, it cost me my job. It upsets me because it doesn't matter how much of myself I put in the job, I seem to mess things up.

However, I had a recent pick me up. I went to California to see [url=http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Miyavi]Miyavi[/url] in concert (twice). I went with several of my friends, and it was AMAZING. I managed to get in the front row of the second concert; he was so beautiful. He loved us and we loved him. While we were in Cali, we also went to Disneyland. I was so happy to be carefree and enjoy my youth once more. I rode the Matterhorn, Splash Mountain, and even the Dumbo ride. I had a great time and it really turned me around.

The only thing that I missed was my boyfriend. Sadly, he couldn't go. (he doesn't like Miyavi anyway) I never usually get homesick, but I missed him dearly. Ever since we started dating, I haven't been away from him for more than a day. It was so nice to see him once I came home, it filled me with such joy.

He's wonderful, and I still feel like it's all a dream. So with everything bad in my life that's going on, I'm glad to have him and Miyavi.