Eh. Personal stuff.

If you don't like blood and stuff, please don't read. Even if you do, it's advised you don't read. This involves stuff about a female's menstrual "cycle" if you could actually call it that. Flink just needs to whine about it.

So. Flink started her "monthly" in January and has been bleeding off and on since then. She was previously on birth control, but went off of it after she lost her insurance which by some miracle actually paid a small fraction of it. So now she can't afford it.

Well, she really didn't need it for awhile, so she didn't think anything of it. Then this January things went to hell. The bleeding started again, then later the weakness/tiredness, she's constantly in a PMS-like state, it's just so annoying.

Well, Flink finally got up the nerve to call the health department, she didn't go before because she was certain they'd turn her away. How right she was! People kept insisting, "But it's cheap, and they'll give you free birth control!" Sure, if you need it =just= for birth control. But if you need it for something more? Nope. Have to go to a doctor. Pay for it, all of this official stuff.

Flink was in tears when the lady said she couldn't give her any help since obviously from her old doctor's information, Flink needed the birth control for more than just preventing pregnancy. THEN she had the audacity to try and "counsel" Flink.

"Why are you crying? Is something wrong?"

[B][COLOR="Red"]OF COURSE SOMETHING WAS WRONG! FLINK HAD BEEN BLEEDING FOR THREE MONTHS.[/COLOR][/B] And then she couldn't get birth control because she needed it for more than just an excuse to screw around. [COLOR="Red"](No offense to those on birth control for the purpose of preventing birth. Flink does not hate you. Just that you get birth control free, while she has to pay like $75 a little container for it. >.>)[/COLOR]

The sad part is that woman knew so much MORE about PCOS, what Flink has, than all of the other doctors she's seen! Most of them didn't even know what Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome was. Their answer was simply, "It's 'cause you're fat." They didn't think about -why- Flink is fat.

Flink was a stick until puberty, thank you very much! Her family took her to doctors because they thought she was too skinny! Puberty hits and in a year she is a fat ass. ONE FUCKING YEAR. Not two, not three. BUT ONE. And Flink didn't even change her eating habits. She never ate much, she was really hyper and active. But still the pounds kept coming and coming. Flink tried dieting, exercising, everything. Still she gained weight.

So Flink became depressed, got to see a therapist. Said therapist put Flink on Paxil. The paxil increased the weight gain and they refused to put Flink on something else. Said it was just Flink's eating habits, her own doing. Finally her actual therapist said it was enough and switched her medications, which Flink's been on since then. It hasn't affected her weight. But the damage had been done.

Flink was a fat ass and could not lose the weight. Oh she's tried so hard. So very hard. But it won't go away. It always comes back. Then there's the bleeding, the cramping, the bitchiness, all of the fun things that come with a normal period, but so prolonged. Flink's going to try and get an appointment tomorrow. But she's so sure the doctor will be like all of the others.

"What's Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome? You shouldn't make up excuses. Just lose some weight. It'll fix itself."

Yes, of course it will. That will fix the cysts all over Flink's ovaries, the insulin resistance, the horrible periods, the fact that she bought a pack of pads two weeks ago and has, ALONE, used all but five of them by today. Of course it'll change it all. But how does Flink do it? Hrm? Why don't they figure that one out if they're so fucking brilliant. They're doctors. They went through years of schooling that costs loads of money. Surely they can figure out how Flink can do it, since it's so obviously the only answer.

Flink of course plans to save herself the heartache and ask the doctor she called tomorrow is she/he has heard of PCOS. And maybe ask him/her for the cheapest birth control they have since she seriously can't afford the one she was on last time. Her family would have gone broke just buying birth control every month. Especially since the doctors insisted on her only getting one month at a time, so she had to go every single month and get it refilled.

Flink feels a tiny bit better now. Woo. Even though she's bawling her eyes out. Yay for mood swings.