a big month

[COLOR="DarkOrchid"]Well its been ages since I've actually written in the blog and thought it was about time that I caught up with all the news. I've been depressed lately I have to go to court on Monday as six months ago I was arrested for shop lifting, stupid really but when I'm depressed I do stupid things. And that stage I did not know why I was doing these things but now being in treatment I am slowly learning more. So I'm anxious about the court date and what the judge will say in the end. I'll either get a conviction, good behavior bond, fine or community service. I'm hoping for a fine, my lawyer is understanding and believes with me that its more of a medical issue and that I'm not a criminal.

I'm so glad I have my therapist to go to as lately I've been feeling really alone, my family has been terrible towards me the last few months and I don't see anyone a part from Ash's family. I'm only 24 but I feel like an old spinster left on the shelf already. I've tried meeting people but they just don't seem to connect with me, or maybe I don't connect with them, whatever the reason I just end up doing stuff on my own or with my fiancee. He's great and its not as if he isn't enough its just I want friends. I miss having someone else to vent to and have fun with and just be myself around but its so hard meeting like minded people.

Last month we moved to our forever home, my mother went nuts, she doesn't know that its our forever home and thinks we're just renting. I had the phone disconnected the day we were moving cause I knew that it would not have taken long to move and have it connected again. Usually I have to wait weeks from hearing from anyone in the family anyways so I didn't think this would be a problem. Well they were worried for me because of the cyst I had removed on the 10th. Mum got nana to turn up and as I was unwell I was at the new place unpacking and Ash and his brother Ken was finishing up over at the old place. Nan was in tears saying she hadn't heard from me and I'd only called her the other week. She'd forgotten.

Then mum's friend Anya turned up, she thought Ash was suspicious as he didn't say we were moving straight away well jeez he didn't know her so he didn't have to tell her anything. Then my mum got scared and called the cops, they turned up and questioned everybody and I had to call the police station and sort things out, I told them what had happened and they said oh don't worry about it happens all the time and they were just glad I was ok. Well I didn't speak to mother for four weeks after that. I'm still annoyed about her too.

A part from that I had surgery on the 10th of this month and had a histeroscopy, a lapaoscopy and a D&C my periods are always heavy and painful and sometimes I even have two periods a month which is great (not) they found a cyst the size of a golf ball just past my cervex and it was causing pain so they removed that but they couldn't work out why my periods are so heavy and painful.

So I've been recovering from that and now I'm hoping after Monday I'm just able to sort something out so I can do something again. I want to start a drama workshop that's starting in July and my new hobby that I want to learn in crocheting.[/COLOR]