Linkin Park: "Leave Out All the Rest"

[QUOTE]I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed[/QUOTE]

I feel like so many things are falling apart. I feel like I'm falling apart. I just feel like I've lost control of myself and my life. This isn't the first time and I doubt that it is the last.

Part of it has to do with my lack of spine, I guess. I've never been strong against my friends in certain aspects. Saying no to things like alcohol is easy compared to things that may actually get people mad or hurt.

That's really always been my problem. Ever since I was in elementary school, I've always gone along with my friends. I guess my dependence on having friends makes me follow... Hell, even in choosing a college came down to friends. How pathetic is that?

I feel like I keep disappointing myself left and right... I just don't know what to do anymore.