[COLOR="Red"][CENTER]Everything in my life seems so fake. From the fact that my friends won't notice me except when they have no one to talk to, to the fact that my parent don't seem to care about me at all. Most of the time I question my existence in this world. Am I just a mistake? Am I not suppise to be here? Why can't I be normal and have normal friends and family who cares about you? All of those questions have been a mystery since the day I have born. Maybe I shouldn't be here at all. If I could just leave for a while, maybe I can find my answers to all the questions I have... or maybe not. Everything is a mystery and not everyone get happy endings. No matter how much I want to have a happy ending in my life for just a while, I could never get that once upon a time. It's useless to hope for a thing you can never have and that hope is starting to shatter as days pass and I become invisible again. [/CENTER][/COLOR]

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[COLOR="DarkOrchid"][CENTER]Well my parents got into another fight. Not surprising at all. Being an only child sux. Cuz you can't very talk to anyone that will understand it. It's not something that's very horrible, just want to express your feelings to someone that understands. My parents got into arguments time to time but this time is different. My dad is drunk. :-x He drank half of the bottle of wine. He stinks. And he can't even walk straight. Last time when he got very drunk cuz it was a party or something, he yelled at me for no reason and told me that the reason he sent me to pre school and let me stayed there for the week is because he don't want me at home. (I was in China back then, and they have school for little kids where parents drop them off and they get to stay there until friday where the parents pick them up again.. Like regular school but you get to sleep there. O.o) And I was only like 3 or 5 years old. I cried back then cuz I know he don't want me there. I still feel sad now. But I am not close to my dad anymore since I hardly get to see him. Maybe that's a good news. :)[/CENTER][/COLOR]

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[COLOR="SeaGreen"][FONT="Lucida Sans Unicode"]Today is depressing..:cry: I just found out that my gaia account got deleted and won't let me log on. And it's all because that I am stupid enough to give my pws out when I thought they r really from gaia staff. (I am such an idiot.) But at least I accomplish something.. that I actually can sell stuff that can worth 800K lol. :squee: [/FONT][/COLOR]

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