This is the story of a girl.

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I was having a really great day today. I went to see two movies with famfams. First to see Indiana again, and I still like it. xD It's just awesome. Then we had lunch at Pat & Oscars and went to see Narnia. It was meh, okay I guess. I preferred Indy though, even the second time. Maybe because I wasn't much of a Narnia fan and Prince Caspian vaguely reminds me of Fabio in a way. xD I knew Susan and him would have a bit of chemistry from the start. I mean all the subtle glances throughout the entire movie. I don't know how close it is to the book since I haven't read it though. Oh, and speaking of books and movies, anyone else hear about Rob Knox [supposed to be in the new HP movie] being stabbed? Wow. First my dad told me it was Daniel Radcliffe and I was shocked, but I guess it wasn't him. xD
Anyways, Caspian-Fabio guy. Hahaha he looks much cuter in the movie than in real life [where he somewhat reminds me of Michael Jackson]. But his accent was okay. But yeah, all those looks they gave each other kind of made me miss being with someone. I've been single for quite some time and I miss being courted, the little things at the start of a relationship. Where you want to be with a person as much as possible and call them just to hear their voice. When you have everything to discuss and when there's so much chemistry and passion. I've prided myself on being strong and independent, and using men only for the pleasure they can give me and discarding them. Never to become too attached, but it would be nice to fall in love again, as long as it tries not to ruin my life this time.
Whatever. It's probably for my benefit not to be with anyone right now, though I notice when I'm lonely when people try to push romance in my face or when my life is settled down a bit and I'm not so stressed out. I guess I just need to be busy.
I thought about maybe reading a love novel, not to be confused with a steamy romance novel, but I figure it'd do more harm than good. With me, it's best to ignore the situation and forget about it.
I dunno though. Is it so wrong to miss being loved and cherished? To miss being hugged from behind? To smile nonstop because of happiness being with someone? A part of me wishes for it, and a part of me thinks it much too corny. It's almost like I have a split personality sometimes. An innocent child lurks in me waiting for that knight riding on a white horse, longing to be that couple holding hands and smooching outside the movie theatre, while another side of me scoffs at even entertaining the idea. That side of me is the strong and independent side, not known for being emotional or caring, and using men for my own sexual desires before tossing them to the side when I'm finished.
Ha. I guess it's no wonder I'm with nobody then right now. It's not that my standards are high, I'm usually satisfied with the average Joe. Beer, sex, and football. xD But I usually never act available. I'm hardly ever into being the aggressive one and starting a relationship. If a man likes me, he can come up to me and tell me. But there aren't too many men like that. As far as physically, and I know no matter what a guy will say that they do care about looks, I'm not too much to look at. I find myself pretty, but I don't expect anyone else to think so. I don't think people think I'm ugly though. I mean, I'm not skinny at all, and really should go on a diet once I have time this summer, but I hate HATE talking about such actions without doing them so I'll stop now.
God I ramble so much. This must be the most useless blog I've ever written. I hope nobody actually reads this crap. If you have gotten this far, go back now. There's nothing worth reading here, honestly.

Okay, best to stop now before too much comes out.
Laters.

Oh, and I have to work tomorrow 2-7, and tuesday 4-9. Ugh. Joy.
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