The trick is not to look back

[COLOR="Magenta"][SIZE="2"]I've been thinking an awful lot about how I used to be these days. And the more I think about it, the more I don't want to think about it.
You know what I mean?

I've been doing this daycare job for a few days now. Don't get me wrong I love it to death! Seeing those cutie kids all the time, and being apart of their life.
But I imagine what it would've been like if a certain someone haddn't interveined in my life. How grateful to God that he did, how much I praise God that he did.

Back then, I had very long hair, the I never kept. I am...well endowed and I have been since middle school. Boys made fun of me for it so I wore huge jackets to try and hide it.
I never kept my skin so I looked....well, I didn't look good lets put it that way. lol.
And always...I always felt a deep pain that never went away. It made me lose touch with God for a long time. Making my world a dark place that I thought I knew. Thought it was a dark place devoid of love and understanding.
Until one day in class. I sat alone in the gym, and suddenly, he came up and said hello.
"Hey, what's up?"
"....Nothing."
"Why arn't you out there with everyone?"
".....because I don't want to."
"Well-"
And from then on me made me laugh so hard I was crying. He stayed with me every day, he cheered me up and delt with my whinning and complaining.
And eventually, I cut my hair off and started to fix it. I became more comfertable in long sleeve shirts, I kept my face better.
It was like a light shown through the darkness and led me out of the tunnel. God was waiting, and helped me out through this wonderful boy. Also my sister. ^^



I remember back then and I look at past jouernal entries and such. It scares me how depressed I was back then. It makes me thank God for what I have now, and how much I know people love me now.

Well, that's my 2 cents for today, see you next time![/SIZE][/COLOR]