I would love to message everyone who has been so supportive to me, but I just can't seem to find the right words and there are so many people who have been kind to me.

I have been struggling the past couple years a lot. I have struggled with my family breaking apart and losing a good friend. I have struggled in losing my home, my sentimental items, and a very special cat who held a big part of me. Things are still rough but because of your kind words and love you have given my life a ray of hope. I'm struggling at creating a family for my son who will arrive in May. His father isn't always around and it makes it hard.

My friends have given me more strength than I could ever imagine. I have come to notice that your true friends appear in the darkest hours. I have come to see who my real friends are and I am so greatful to them. And through my troubles I have made new friends. Each person has left some form of impression on my life whether good or bad. But those who have left good ones will love on in my heart and by my side. They are the ones I will create my new life around. Out with the bad and in with the good.

So this is my way of saying thank you to everyone who has been supportive, kind, and patient with me. You are the ones that rock and the ones that I care about. And I hope that I can return what you have given me.

[COLOR="Red"]I use to have the coolest best friends ever. Olivia, Paul, and Keishia being the closest to me. I would/still would do anything and everything for them. We use to have Anime nights together. We would learn dances and perform skits. We had a blast. When things got rough for me at home one of them offered me a place in their home. I thought this would be fun. And it was. But after awhile it started to put a strain on our friendship. To try to save it i thought i should move back home. Slowly I began to make the transit, but something bizarre happened. We had a jar of money we kept in our room for our anime group. We each put money in it so that other members who could not afford to go to cons to use. Somewhere down the line some had went missing. No one knew what really happened to it. Naturally my friend accused me of stealing it. I don't blame her for jumping to that first, it was the most sensible thing. I mean we were sharing the room. I knew that i had not taken it nor did I think she did. I tried saying i didn't take it, but she would not believe me. I got soo upset about it that I exploded. I turned into a down right bitch and in the end I lost her as a friend. Not just her, but the whole group. We work together, but we don't say word to each other but secretly everytime I see her I want to say something. I just can never find the right words to say to her so i just hang my head down and go on about my day. Ever since our friendship has died I've felt so lonely. I feel as though a big part of me died. I miss her even to this day. I wish I could go back in time and make things right. I wish I could make them right now. I want to have my best friend back. I hope that someday she will see this and I really hope that one day she will forgive how rudely I treated her and restart what we once had. Dear Dear friend if you do read this I hope you can find it to forgive me. I truly do miss having you around and truly sorry for everything[/COLOR]

I spent this past weekend with my loving grandparents. They spoil me so much. They took me to the mall and bought me a new pair of jeans. Then they took me out to eat. Then on Sunday we went to church and they took me to a pancake house afterwards. All in all it was a good trip. The only bad thing was that Saturday my grandmother tripped and fell. She has been sick and having blood pressure problems so her body is weak. Luckily she did not break any bones and is going to be okay. Next time i go we are going to make some fudge. Oh and did i mention that she bought me some very expensive chocolates? I love my grandparents and can not wait to go back. I am 19 years old so it goes to show you are never too old to spend a weekend with your grandparents :)

On New Years Eve there was a huge uproar about a dog. We decided to take the dog home with us, even though we can not have pets in our apartment. Thankfully our Landlord decided that if we show proof of shots and keep her updated that we could keep the dog. So i went out and got me a job so i can help my parents pay the vet bill and now she is up to date on her shots and we now have a new/old addition to our family :D

So my grandmother had a party for new years and things went horribly wrong. One of our dogs bit my aunt and she kicked the dog in the face causing its eye to swell up. so my mom made me grab the dog and we left. Tension is still there