These memories of the past that I should have forgotten about still linger here... Bringing me pain and sorrow... The girl I held so close and who slipped away out of reach... Why can I not forget? It has been two years since I've heard from her and four years since I have seen her... She is my sister but not by blood... Maybe that is why? I battle with my other selves in order to figure out the answer...

She's my sister but not by blood... The day we met we bonded instantly... The bond we have can never ever be broken... It pains me to think about it... But... Perhaps I truly do not want to forget and that is why I can not? I wish to find the answer so I can hold it close...

No one said you were perfect...
No one said you were meaningless...
All that matters is that you are you and no one else...
No one said life was easy...
No one said it was hard...
All that matters is that you live your life how you want to...
No one said that it easy to be different...
No one said it was easy to fit in...
All that matters is that you find some friends...
Just wait till you find that someone who never wants to let you go...
Life might get easier once you find out who you are inside...

It's been a while since I've blogged anything. Just haven't been up to it. The fourth kinda sucked for me.

We went over to Dan's where, I suddenly felt left out, Owner got drunk and as much as I love to write I hate what spews forth.

We left and Owner started feeling the effects of being drunk. His dad made him some grilled cheese sandwiches that helped immensely. Owner laid down for a while and finally around 11 or so he got up so that we could set off his "Lighting Rods" and my sparklers.

He felt ripped off with his choice of fire works as there was only a bang and a few sparks in the very beginning and then the whole thing went out. Owner said he had more fun with my sparklers than the ones he picked out.

Then the next day on the 5th I got my blood drawn. That hurt like a bitch.

On the 6th we got my results and my blood pregnancy test were negative. Of course, so I was able to get my shot.

Being sore from having blood drawn and then shot in the belly hurt. I was pretty much a blob lying around.

Yesterday Owner said that he's gonna have to start saving up money for my plane ticket back to California, thus everything he had pretty much planned he wanted to to before I went back is now nil.

Honestly I don't mind that we wont be able to anything. I'm happy just being here with him. And if anything I'd prefer a new back pack then going to some amusement park.

So with summer drawing to a close and fall soon to take its place I'll be going back to college for another semester and hopefully I'll be able to post anything.

I'm still struggling with the fact that I hate whatever I write. If anyone has any tips to deal with hating my work, that would be great.

With that in mind I will end it here.

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[B]Age:[/B] 20
[B]Race:[/B] Human
[B]Appearance:[/B] No Pic Yet

[B]Bio:[/B] Marian is the product of an affair the King of Kale had with a castle Maid. Although the King had a kind heart towards most people, he never had any affection for his illegitimate child. Afraid the news of Marian existence and his forbidden affair would shatter the fragile peace that he had been able to bring back to the land after the Great War. The King kept this young child out of the spotlight and hidden away within the castle walls.

Since Marian was the closet thing to the heir, the old King had. She was schooled, from a young age, on how to run the small Kingdom of Kale. When the young ‘Princess’ was 10 year of age the Queen, who had acted like a second mother, had a child of her own. Marian final had a Half Sibling to play with and the King had a rightful heir to the thorn. All Marian’s had work was for nothing. On her Sibling 10th birthday Marian found herself through out of the castle and lone on the street.

With no food or money for shelter, Marian started to steal to keep herself alive. In the dark and shabby alleyway of the Royal City, the once ‘royal’ girl found companionship in the most unlikely people. Robbers and Killer showed her the ways of the rope of the city. Places to steal from, what to steal, how to fight and defend one’s self and above all else how not to get caught.

[B]Personality:[/B] Marian had a bold way about living her life. Nothing is out of her reach and she will stop at nothing until she gets what she wants. With fast movements and silent steps Marian Hull steal what she needs when she needs it. Never letting a opportunity to steal some gold pass her buy. She steals from Nobleman and Peasant alike. True to her heart, Marian follows her feelings and show compassion towards other humans. Although the feelings she possesses also lead her down a dark path. Battle heats her blood to A Boil and the Pride she feels will not let her run. A switch flips in her mind, The Clam and Polite ‘Princess’ becomes a cold-blooded killer her enemies with out mercy. This bloodlust Marian possesses has lead to many scuffles with the Royal Knights of Kale and has even landed her name on a Wanted list of criminals.

[B]Age:[/B] 25 (At time of Death)
[B]Race:[/B] Vampire
[B]Appearance:[/B] No Pic Yet

[B]Bio:[/B] Not much is know about Drake’s life before he joined the Vampire coven. Rumors that the young vampire turn his back on his own kind for the love of a human slayer, ran rampant throughout the halls of the main castle of the coven. Those rumors have never been personal discounted by Drake, so many coven vampires do believe them.

No matter what his past was like Drake climbed through he ranks of the coven and become the tactical adviser for the Coven’s Army. With that position, Drake was allowed to get very close to the raining Vampire King. With the help of his old friend Scott, Drake isolated and killed the King, blaming the murder on Human Slayers. The Death of the King left a large power gap and in the confusion of the moment Drake (with the help of Scott) crowned himself the new King of Vampires. Drake’s Position as King was not secure yet; He found enemies in everyone around him, even Scott.
A rumor hinted that Scott’s would soon betray him and Drake took it upon himself to kill his best friend before he had a chance to strike. That act would stick with Drake fore the rest of his life.

[B]Personality:[/B] In public Drake shows no mercy to his enemies and manipulates those around from for his own benefit. As the leader of the Coven he can not afford to show weakness in any way. Within the Coven respect his gained through fear and ruthless actions. There are no uses for Human emotions when you are a child of the night. But old habits die-hard and in Private Drake shows the whole range of human emotions. Caring, grief and Kindness are just a few of the emotions reflecting in his face as he watches TV. Since the death of Scott, Drake became more secretive about his activities at night. No one is allowed to join him on his feeding hunts and if someone is found following the King. Their punishment is swift and harsh.