Please stop telling me I'm strong. I don't feel it, in fact this has to be one of the worst experiences of my life. I just want to constantly cry and I wonder how my life has gotten this way.

Please stop telling me to just hold on, I know that is what i need to do, telling me this again just reminds me again of the situation at hand. I need I need to tough through it, I know that if I can make it, I can do my dream. But right now it just seems hopeless and your reminder of it just kicks me again.

Please stop telling me it will be over soon. While in grand scheme of things it may not be, but having to live every day like this is something different. Not knowing where I am going to sleep, not knowing where i am going once buses stop running is a giant stresser and depresser, it makes me want to walk into on coming traffic on a freeway. It won't be over soon enough.

I rather hate being homeless, but i can deal. But the thing I hate the most right now is being lied to by a friend. Someone who I helped when he was down, someone I helped take care of with nothing expected in return, someone whose cat I took in for almost a year and with no monetary help from them, someone who I let crash at my house for almost 2 weeks with all the apartment stuff, someone who told me they were repaying that favor by letting me crash with them for sometime, instead you pull the rug from under me and redact what you said very last minute. And now, I am pulling an all nighter, just to get a few hours sleep on a couch at school. I hope you never ask me for a favor again, you can rot.

[SIZE="4"][COLOR="Purple"][FONT="Vivaldi"]God summer break is ending and my school break is just beginning! ARGH!!! Only about a week til school starts and then I'll only be on maybe twice everyday if I can... T-T God this sucks...

So my boyfriend is leaving me till about the 9th of this month, and mind you this sucks because he'll be gone while I deal with fools here at home and sulkily await his return.

I'm finally a a Junior in High School this rocks! But also sucks since this is my last year here officially and next year I move to North Carolina, not that I have a problem with the state, I'm leaving my best friend of 14 yrs, so that's what really sucks, not to mention my siblings and my beloved boyfriend...

I actually want to go back to school and start drivers ed and stuff, finally turn 16 so I can officially work... Jerseys Child Labor laws suck too!!! Well that's all for now... So goodbye my friends see you during December, or maybe the weekends when I have home work, and no Track Meets.[/FONT][/COLOR][/SIZE]

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[CENTER][FONT="Century Gothic"][COLOR="Darkorchid"]So, I've come back to Menewsha. I don't think anyone is going to remember me or even recognize me, but it doesn't matter. I'm back to make new friends, get back into this website and enjoy myself. I joined back in March of 2007, left in 2009.

I've done a lot in a couple of years. I got out of a very long term relationship in a rather crappy way, but hey! At least he didn't dump me the day before he shipped off like was his original plan...but I met the sweetest guy and we've been together for over a year now.

I graduated college with a degree in Sociology and a minor in Anthropology/Sociology combination. (Our school has such a small department that when I enrolled there was no straight Anthropology minor, there is now!)

For awhile I worked three jobs, but only two were paying. I had to work to carry my weight in terms of $$$ but still had to do an internship or I was never going to get into my career and field. Last Friday the 13th the director at my internship offered me a paid position, so I got to quit one of my jobs and my first real day was last Monday! Next week I start a regular schedule.

So currently I work as a page at our public library, hence all the books I read, all the time. And I work a resource room at our towns transitional housing unit for women. I call it that because its not totally a homeless shelter. Some women come to us under crisis as recommended by our advocate agencies or other social services and law enforcement. They are with us for a little while and then are moved on to the appropriate places and we also have some women who are with us that live there as their home. The rest of them are allowed two years and in that time I will help them find jobs, fill out forms, get their GED if need be, learn basic computer skills, budgeting skills and we've started nutrition and budget eating.

I'll also start fundraising and the like soon, our library is lacking and being literally next door to our public library (yes my other job!) you'd think it'd be easy to get resource but books like GED prep are ALWAYS checked out. (Or lost, people like to steal those).

Well, that's me. I don't know if anyone will read this or care, or bother to strike up conversation but I posted it. I'm back. :yumeh1:
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[FONT="Courier New"][COLOR="DarkRed"][CENTER]Ahahaha but I'm back now.

So next week we're going on vacation.
To Florida.
...
Which means I'm gonna have to be cut from the tennis team. And I won't be there when we learn the 3rd drill for marching band.
Which I WILL eventually figure out... but still.

Anyways, I got my schedule for this upcoming year.
I did not get into chorus. D:
Nor did I get into web design D: D:
However, I'm in band. :D
Which is good, considering I have it everyday :D:D

Besides, it's just one year, right? And just because I don't take web design this year doesn't mean my college application is totally ruined...
*ahem*

Eh. I'll get over it.

Besides, I have lunch with most my friends :D:D:D

I guess next year won't be so bad.[/CENTER][/COLOR][/FONT]