[FONT="Palatino Linotype"][COLOR="DarkRed"]Okay, I'll admit, I don't understand many things. And I will also admit that I don't see things the same way others do. But...

So my friend--you're all familiar with Rae--likes this guy (Cody). But she already had a boyfriend (Kyle) and didn't want to break up with him because she didn't want to make him feel bad or anything. (Personally, if I liked Cody enough to make him my boyfriend, I would've dumped Kyle. But people do things differently than I would have). So Cody decided to wait for her until she got out of that relationship.
But... in my point of view, he didn't wait for her at all.
You see, my dear blog readers, when he was 'waiting' he decided to start dating this other girl. And in my mind, when Rae told me this, I was all: "Well, if he likes you enough to make you his girlfriend, he shouldn't be dating that girl anyways! If he liked you enough, he would've waited for you--single. But in this case, he DOESN'T like you. He's toying with you. Playing on your feelings."
And then it turns out Cody's girlfriend goes to Egypt and dies in a sandstorm. (I'm being quite heartless here, but people die everyday--he'll get over it)
And to make matters worse, Cody had promised his girlfriend that if she died, he would date her two best friends.
-_-
That boy does NOT understand love.
I mean... neither do I, but I think I have a better concept of it.
I understand promises... but why promise to date someone you don't like?
Luckily, I managed to convince Rae that Cody would only hurt her. And that he wasn't worth her time. Or anyone's, but nobody else asked me, so...

And Cody reminds me of my friend Dave. Dave is a lot like Cody.
Because Dave used to date Rae (and no, I do not hate him for breaking up with her--I don't let myself get affected by such facts). And he said all these things (lies) about Rae being the love of his life, how he'd love her forever no matter what, et cetera, et cetera.
And a few weeks after their first kiss, they break up.
Then Dave goes on to my friend Vic (are you familiar with her? No... I don't think I mention her as often...) and he's like: "I broke up with her because I love you." (And Rae knew this. Their break up wasn't that bad. She understood.)
But Vic can't date until she's 16 (two more years) so Dave decided to wait until then (see anything in common?).
But does he really 'wait'? No. He goes on to date another girl. Vic always told me how Dave always told her that she was his soulmate, that he can't imagine living life without her by his side, that he can't imagine a future without her, that he will always love her--
And she actually believes him? After all that he's done to other girls? And he's dating a girl he doesn't even like?
Somehow, it just seems like he's cheating on her. Both of them. Toying with the feelings of poor girlfriend of his (who, I might add, is ALSO my friend).
Before the school year ended, though, Vic announced that Dave should just stop and go find some other girl who believed his every words.

Ah... happy endings xD
Dave's a conceited brat anyways.[/COLOR][/FONT]

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[FONT="Century Gothic"][B]In her last life she lived in a world where those who sinned and were not forgiven disappeared and were cursed in their next life. If they were forgiven, the one who forgave them decided what their punishment would be (which could be no punishment at all).

Her loved ones in her past sinned against her. She forgave them and chose to punish them by having herself disappear and be cursed in her next life because of their sin.

She was born in a new world as a succubus. Her parents raised her until she was 93 (nine in human years). Just before that, her village was suffering from plagues and attacks and blamed her for these acts because of the obvious curse mark on her stomach. Her mother protected her and told them all (even her lover, Arai's father) that she had no control over such things and that her curse mark had no connection. But in the end, Arai was forced into exile. Her mother gave her a single cross earring as a parting gift.

Soon afterward, a vampiress, named Ceridwen, came upon her while she was in a sorry state. Ceridwen took a liking to her and they soon became traveling companions. They traveled all over the mainland till they found an island off the south west coast, called Island of Lost Hopes, where they decided to settle. There, they founded a village, which they named Enigma Village.[/B][/FONT]

Over the past year I've noticed a lot of changes within myself. Perhaps one of the bigger changes has been how I've been reevaluating some of my relationships.

When I reached the end of my undergraduate studies (which included a fair amount of field experience, or actual "real life work" in the final two semesters) I realized something. I would spend the entire day essentially being in a counseling role, then I would come home and a handful of my friends would be having issues and want an open ear to listen. Incessantly. And often over the same issues, over and over again. Cue the passage of time, and I found myself severely burned down. Not burned out, just down. The negativity had begun to eat me alive.

My "work" had inched into my life to the point I couldn't escape being in a counseling role. I don't dislike the role, but I do dislike not being able to properly unwind and relax when I'm on "my" time. It's taken me a very long time not to feel selfish over this, too. Work is work and personal time should remain as such.

I've slowly been letting go of some relationships, even those I've had for nearly ten years now. When I was a teenager I found that I got a lot of positive reinforcement out of my relationships by being "the empathetic listener". I always felt useful.

However, I no longer need that reinforcement, but rather now I expect my relationships to be mutual. If I support you, I expect you to support me. And for the love of everything, don't have a freakin' crisis every other minute. We are all human and we all face difficulties. That's life. But being the constant downer isn't okay, and it's rare for a personality like that not to unintentionally push everyone else away.

I am feeling pretty secure where I am in life overall. This type of cleanse has been very healthy for me. The friends I keep closest are those I can both laugh and fall apart with when I need it. It's a great thing.

[FONT="Palatino Linotype"][SIZE="2"][COLOR="DarkSlateGray"]So...Here is my blog. One of the points about writing a blog is for other people to read it. I dont think anyone is going to read mine. So, is there really a point for me to write this? Prolly not...but Im going to anyways. So far, the rping is very fun. The people are nice, and I am enjoying being a part of this website. Blah blah blah. Maybe I will write more later or something. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]

[COLOR="DarkRed"][B][CENTER]So I scar... but I don't bruise? lmao

I got hit by a tennis ball today during tennis practice. xD
And the tennis ball raced at my eye.
And then it bounced back onto the court.
And it didn't really hurt.

I mean, it did...
But it sort of went away.

And there's no bruise or anything...

It reminds me of that time waaaaay back in sixth grade when we were playing soccer and I was about to kick the ball the same time my friend did and he ended up kicking my shin (REALLY HARD) and I ended up kicking the ball.

I thought my shin actually cracked... but nothing happened. No bruise, no discoloring...

It was weird.[/CENTER][/B][/COLOR]