[COLOR="Indigo"]ranting
'cos I've posted on the advice board on the website I trust most. and I post too much on the life issues board here, and I don't really want advice, I just want to rant, and my blog tends to get over run by spam from this girl who I annoyed by breaking up with her friend =\

Starts off
My best friend Amy, no longer my best friend, but still friends, we're just drifting apart.
She's going off to Uni next year, whilst I'm staying here to do an art foundation course.
She's got a boyfriend with a motorbike, now she wants one and she's in with all his biker mates now, so she's really just fizzled off...

Next, my friend Steph moved to Canada 'cos she can't stand to live with her mum anymore, which is fair enough, her mum is rather insane.
but she stopped coming to lessons for about 2 months and then just jetted off to Canada without a goodbye, so I really miss her, she was the only person I felt actually understood me.

The day after Steph left, my friend Rhianydd's annoyed with me 'cos I snapped after she was giving Dan sweets through-out the lessons right infront of me. I know I shouldn't have snapped, but I was really upset about Steph and my mum had gone to hospital the day before aswell.

Today, I didn't get any icecream out for anyone, not even myself, Dad has a go at me, then has a go at mum which now means that mum isn't talking to me because I made dad yell at her.

I don't have many friends, I'm so shy It's stupid.
People have a go at me, saying I should be more outgoing, but I just can't be, and they don't seem to get that.

Now I have no one I can talk to, let alone anyone to hang out with me or talk to.

I'm the Freak of school so I can't make new friends that well.

Just... I feel so alone now, and I hate it

on the plus side, I don't have to buy any christmas presents this year... but that's not a plus... I like getting people gifts...[/COLOR]

[FONT="Comic Sans MS"][SIZE="2"][COLOR="DarkRed"]Um... Hello again. I believe I've timewarped again... This week has gone by like a blur... Seth proposed to me, and finals are coming up... Double majors are hitting me hard. I have so many avatars to shoot for ._.; Maybe when I have more time... I've been completely braindead, anyway. :drool:[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]

So it's been a while since my last blog update... *peers over at the calender* only a week... not that bad actually. I thought it had been longer.

So Thanksgiving is coming up, and I'm heading to Colorado for vacation. I'm going to leave notes for all I rp with, but I won't have steady internet access from the 25th of November until sometime on the 30th. I'm gonna try and leave some super mega awesome ultra super posts the night before so people aren't left waiting for my replies. At least for too long.

There are so many things schoolwise I need to get done: A story I have to complete by saturday, oh god saturday; a book read, analyzed and presentation ready by tuesday; essay written by tuesday; and possibly more but those are all right on the top of my brain.

Still having issues with my mom and younger siblings, so I'm really happy to escape for a couple of days. I know Thanksgiving is supposed to be a family thing, get together and be thankful for their presence and such... but I don't think i can handle 5 straight days with nothing to distract me from their manipulative ways.

Laters!

[FONT="Century Gothic"][SIZE="2"][COLOR="Indigo"][CENTER]hey there everyone
long time, no see ehhe

had a hiatus, partially my fault ehhe
still expecting a warning soon or not i'm not sure.

but i had to get away from the net, it was getting to hectic and was taking over my life, making pixels is fun and i still enjoy making them but at the expense of losing my social life eh.

while i was away, i had some fun, kinda and still looking for work, but i missed chatting on the net and making pixels, i love art, it's what makes me well ME!!!

i just hope my friends remember me T^T


write soon





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