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A pet peeve of mine:

When people "do you a favor" that actually ends up screwing you over. This mostly refers to transportation.
I can't drive yet, so obviously when I need to get somewhere I take the bus. And occasionally, someone will offer to give me a ride instead. It's a nice thing to do, right?
WRONG.

Because then, the individual realizes I'm not in a rush and decides to take an hour and a half actually getting me from point A to B. I may as well have just taken the bus, it would have been faster. Thanks for wasting my time having me wait around.

The moral of the story is if you can't provide said ride in a timely manner, please don't offer. I want to leave NOW, which is why I'm LEAVING, kthx.
Unfortunately, this sometimes backfires when people don't understand that a five minute car ride can be an hour long bus ride. Thus, they leave right away and I'm there forty five minutes early. :[

(By the way, February 2010 is when I can take my driver's test and get my proper license. In case you were wondering.)

Somebody it will be the thing everyone knows is
How do say, what they want
Maybe they will propose without rings and use roses
I want there to be, something to see
And I want you to believe in me
I thought I made it clear when I said
I love it when you live inside my head
And now I think I know what I want from you
Please listen cause every word is true
There is nothing more I want then to be in your arms
Because when I'm with you, I can't be harmed
I can just reflect the truth, but instead I soak it in
But that light you lit, shall never again be dim
If it seems I am lost, please forgive me
It's just this isn't the way I normally see
But this time I think I'm loving this feeling
Cause being with you keeps my heart healing
And there won't be any more reasons to hide
I think I have finally made up my mind
From now on I'm going to have to learn to deal
As I wait for the time I will lose my feel
I want you to be the only one I should love
No longer will I allow myself to taken by my past emotions

So, I'm lost in my own state of very annoying confusion, and maybe just possibly I'll be able to shoot myself in the head. No, I'd never do that, but please hear me out. Man, I am insane.

Just how insane? Well, I created this skit...

[COLOR="Red"]Fred dude: Damn, I knew just a minute ago I had my chicken. Where the hell is my chicken?[/COLOR]

Bob dude: Fred, you never had a chicken?

[COLOR="red"]Fred dude: What's chicken?[/COLOR]

Bob dude: You are kidding me right? You just asked me where your chicken was?

[COLOR="red"]Fred dude: Yes! Where the hell is my freaking chicken?[/COLOR]
[B]
Speaker dude: Bob dude runs into the kitchen and runs back out with a candy bar.[/B]

[COLOR="red"]Fred dude: Hey! That's my chicken![/COLOR]

Bob dude: Yep, I found your chicken.

[COLOR="red"]Fred dude: Gimme my chicken![/COLOR]

Bob dude: You want it? Come get it!

[COLOR="red"]
Fred dude: Okay![/COLOR]

[B]Speaker dude: Fred dude walks up to Bob dude. Bob dude eats the chocolate bar right in front of Fred dude just as he approached him.[/B]

Bob dude: Yummy!

[B]Speaker dude: Bob dude falls over and dies.[/B]

[COLOR="red"]Fred dude: Yummy to your tummy equals dummy for your mummy.[/COLOR]

When I lose myself, I think of this one special person. He's not a piece of my heart anymore, but I held him close for an awful long time. I'm extremely close to somebody near him, but ever since I hurt him, I felt myself fading away from him faster and faster with each day.

Now, I know the chances of him reading this are great, and there will be other people who will see this who I wish wouldn't, but I need to vent my feelings... so here they go.

I'm greatly in love with the man I'm with, but there had been a long period of time that I had felt horrible for hurting the man before him.

The man before him never knew, but I had been looking for an excuse to leave him for awhile, I just never had the heart to do it. However, when the time came when he said "we should just be friends" I realized how much I truly needed his words of love.

I was stuck healing, which I knew I would have to do, but once I made my decision, things changed. He had found somebody else, and for some reason, I knew it was going to happen. Of course, I acted happy, but then I fired back a day later.

Why? Because I was jealous, I didn't want to admit it, but yes... I was... I was with somebody who I never felt uncomfortable with, and I was acting like a drama queen because my ex had moved on.

Of course, I acted like a royal bitch, and I was afraid I lost him. Well everything was fine, but I learned something. He... he has horrible relationship skills. He takes things too far too fast, and I get pissed off about that.

And another thing... he doesn't realize that the "love" he is showing is truly only obsession. There is a difference, and I can see it with him.

You see, once he was removed from my heart, I realized that he became a whole lot colder towards me. I mean, he said we could be FRIENDS, and yet he was acting like a complete asshole. He doesn't know it, but he was. He told me to grow up and be more mature, but he needs to as well. He has the wrong views of love, and even friendship.

Another thing that's bugging me... his current girlfriend was once one of my good friends. Actually, I had a tiny crush on her once... but the thing is... my friendship with him is strained, and because of that I am afraid he will make her hate me. Of course he'll complain to her. Dammit, he's a fucking baby most of the time, but I don't see why my friendship with her has to be in jeopardy because he can't keep his mouth shut.

So yeah, here closes the end of my rant. To those I have mentioned, I'm sorry if you are angry at me, but I truthfully don't care. I'm done hiding my feelings, and I no longer care what you think of me.

Good day everybody