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{Needs to remember site name}

I cannot get my forget-me-not faerie wings to appear. So I gave up on the pink blue combo and went for pink purple.

[color=green]I do love my friends. Truly. But sometimes they just rub me the wrong way.

Recently, my one friend posted oodles of pictures of me and my friends at our Senior celebration of sorts. Now, a few of them were blatantly unflattering, and I asked for her to delete them. Keep in mind that they were exclusively of me, and no one else. She refused, at first, until I kept pushing for it. Finally, she deleted the one. The other stayed on the basis of her looking good. :(

I feel very insecure when there are bad pictures of me online, and a bit helpless. My self-esteem isn't the greatest. Why should I enjoy seeing my face looking horrendous? If it were me posting unflattering pictures, and they asked me to take some down, I would, in a heart beat.

It isn't just the refusal to appease a simple request, either. Sometimes, when I'm busy while they're planning some great outing, I just say, "Sorry guys, I'm really busy today. Can't go." Then one key person has to drill me on why I'm not going, where am I going instead, why can't I do everything after I've gone out with them. It's rather annoying. I'm busy, I can't go. Accept it?

I understand that we're being separated with college. But it's not the end of everything, and we don't need to be attached at the hip because of it. I'm actually sort of looking forward to meeting new people and being temporarily separated from everyone. I love them, but seeing them every day for the past three or even four years has given me enough memories to live on while they're away.

The second part of this blog revolves around cameras. Everyone owns one. You can't go anyplace without someone whipping out their little camera to document the moment for all eternity. Everyone pose, myspace picture time! "I can't wait until I upload these and tag everyone on Facebook."
Find a new pastime! :gonk: It drives me bonkers when we can't have one little get together without fifty bazillion photos being taken and posted on whatever online community of your choice the next day. I'm not photogenic, and I can remember the outing fine without photo documentation.

Rant? :sweat: I think so. [/color]

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It's nearly six in the morning which means it's about time for me to go to sleep. Looks like dad's just waking up too, he's a bit late. I think I'm going to get migsta up early again so he can get back on schedule right, if I can't. Because when he goes to middle school in the fall, he'll have to get up at 6-6:30ish for school instead of his usual 7:20 and head down a block to his old school by 8:00.

I'm terrible at spending money. I went out and bought panties [all mine keep disappearing o.0;;], a garter belt, and new corset from Fredrick's, and then some cute school girl type white thigh highs with bows on the back, an argyle vest/white tee combo, and almost bought an awesome dress...but for 58 dollars [which would have been a third of my purchase], I could wait until it went on sale. The corsets were on sale for 40 bucks. Can't beat that when I'm used to paying 60-70. I spent a bit over 100, but I've got a check to deposit with 174 so I'm good. ^^;

Avatar shopping is so much easier, I swear. At least there's limits as to the number of items. Fashion, on the other hand, is infinite as to its possibilities. Which reminds me, I'm going to check ebay for a good pair of pants. Jeans for 50 bucks in a size smaller? Nothx.

Laters. <3
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[FONT="Century Gothic"][SIZE="2"][COLOR="Navy"]I swear that my computer hates me. I still got a good couple of weeks before I can get a replacement for my 360 and today my computer decides that now is the time for it to act up!

If my computer blows up tomorrow I would like freak out! Seriously, I think I might need to be sedated. I am so stressed, and I know I need to relax, but I can't and that is just making me more stressed than I already am! My back is one giant knot and my neck is aching.

When it rains it pours. Thank the gods that my cousin isn't staying with us, or I would walk the three blocks to the hospital and admit myself to the psych ward.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]