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[list][*]"She can juggle more than one guy at a time," and I have, "still clinging fast to her ideal of marriage; continuing to pursue those clean-cut Clark Kents whom she'll put through their sexual paces while keeping them in the dark about her murkier exploits. She may even keep a stud or two on a string whom she'll use purely as sex tools, 'liking em dumb' because it's easier to do."[*]"For Cancer, there is no guilt in indulging in even the raunchiest scenarios so long as they don't conflict with her gut. Only a Cancer female can describe, in mixed company, a night spent with a lover and a double-sided dildo without a sniff of shame or irony." :][*]"She is so completely involved in the act, and naturally attuning herself to the experience, never letting it consume her, she harnesses the transformative power of the proceedings, forever conjuring from it what she needs as emotional sustenance. There's power in that: Often literally riding the waves of such experience, she releases angst and feels optimistically refreshed in her future outlook...she eventually conjures up the exact kind of guy for whom she'd pack in her past experience and settle down."[*]"she'll eagerly take on the role of happy homemaker in the light of day- even when she's more nine-to-five than her fine fellow- while nailing the part of the happy hooker, much to her mate's delight, in the not-so-still of the night." Hehe.[*]"As well, the prospect of a threesome with her guy and another girl is rarely out of the question. She'd even participate in a foursome...Cancer woman is fairly contemptuous of men who do with men, while she herself can be the consummate bisexual." I am bisexual, and yes I do feel odd about gay men, however hypocritical it seems, though am not against it.[*]"Her breast envy/obsession certainly becomes a driving force in her sexual interest in girls. Cancer is aware that she's typically more sexually advanced than other females, and she thrives on the idea of seducing a straitlaced, more 'proper' type than herself in bed," reminds me of that fantasy I had with Hoho, "...Cancer wants to open a woman up, demonstrating her knowledge of how to pleasure another girl...the Crab will put her notoriously expert oral skills to use"[*]"She's most attracted to wholesome girls-next-door in whom she seeks to instill her own intensely feminine wiles. There is a sense of her offering a lover a taste of empowerment via their sexual activity."[*]"Reciprocation in the bedroom is a must to the Cancer female." :][*]"gay Cancer generally maintains a high opinion of herself and her accomplishments." Yes, I do.[*]"Lite is never something one might label the Cancerian sex life. The Crab, it seems, need never come up for air as she strives to profoundly pleasure her partner, the concept of a quickie being anathema to her." [*]"tends to draw the line on introducing a third party. Far more than her straight counterpart, gay Cancer is ultimately concerned with establishing a stable homelife. To her, monogamy is of utmost importance and sanctity on that score is a most effective aphrodisiac. Woe it is to a partner with even a potentially roving eye as the Crab employs her signature vice-like grip in sexual bonds, becoming more and more emotionally attached, not less, as time goes on."[/LIST]
Haha, I got caught up in quoting loads of things I either agree or disagree with according to my book says I am. It's mostly right for the most part.
Hell, if you want to know anything about your sign [it has male and female], just holler. I'll type up a bit, but there's quite a lot of information for me to type up the whole thing, I'd scan it.
There's also things on the side, including: Principle, Planetery Symbol, Sign Quadrant, Sign Glyph, Element + Quality, Polarity, Sign Number, Sign Age Association, Psychology, Archetype + Myth, Bible + Literature, Astrological House, Key Words associated with the sign, Famous Celebrities with the sign, Body Rulership, Straight turn ons, Gay turn ons, and couplings with your sign and another sign [woman or man].

It's really a very useful book, in my opinion, and despite its title, gives you more insight about yourself than just your sex life. I recommend you check into it.

Wow.
So I figured out that there's a blog limit which I passed more than twice.
"The text that you have entered is too long (20498 characters). Please shorten it to 10000 characters long."
Nice. x]
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[list][*]"Meanwhile, even the imperious boyfriend she couples with will forgive any volatility he may suffer at her hands; that is while she's using them, as well as other parts of her anatomy, to pleasure him. He will, for a while, delude himself into thinking that his putting up with emotional tantrums only leads to Cancer's making up in bed for the commotion she causes. In truth, Cancer woman does have a voracious sexual appetite that is no cinch to satisfy. Even when she's on the giving end, which is her usual, and indeed her favored, place to be- blowing her mate or doing all the major maneuvering, even in a submissive position- her lover should realize that he's being engulfed for her pleasure, not his...Cancer woman is a most willing recipient of anything being dished out. Indeed, it may seem as if no job is too big for the Crab girl. For when it comes to sex, she doesn't take her 'I feel" motto lightly. Cancer wants to experience erotic sensation as acutely as possible, requiring a deep rogering of a reasonable duration, though she'll expect it to be done with enthusiasm and gusto...rather the rhythm should be long and deep. Similarly, going down on a guy is never a chore it can be for many woman; in fact, one would think the Cancer girl had an unhingeable jaw, as she really hunkers down on her hunk, moaning all the while in ecstatic delight. And praise be to Isis, she really does swallow her lover whole." x] Well...[*]"She'll fawn and fondle her partner, always having to touch or kiss or cling in some coy manner. Indeed, it is often a put-on as it runs counter to what her true nature would dictate; such desparate shows, she thinks, will strengthen her bond. In time, all that constant doting will begin to take its toll...Even hitting the sheets, which have always been the salve and the glue that keeps her and a lover together, doesn't quite do the rick anymore." o.o Sorry? [*]"Cancer woman is predisposed to sexual addiction as she might use 'the act' to anesthetize her feelings, often causing her to seek out more elaborate and edgier erotic scenarios to achieve that click of oblivion she seeks. Along the way, urging a lover to go 'faster, deeper, harder' may eventually see him heading for the door in search of a less psychological sexual relationship." XD That's nice.[*]"It's all math to the Cancer, as she metaphorically solves her problems two-by-two, throwing herself into the mating game, without the slightest guilt at doing so, and not exclusively for the quick, dirty reason that it feels good; the fact is, no other act is more natural to the Cancer in that it provides a profound release an a channel for her dammed emotions. Remember, she is the very embodiment of gut feelings, so what might be considered emotionally overwhelming to the rest of us is generally absorbed by Cancer, unfazed. A creature of the deep, the Crab is uniquely equipped, of all women, to safely negotiate sexual waters that most might alternately consider profound or abysmal, complete with a cymbal-crashing nod to being a crustaceous bottom feeder."[*]"Accusations that Cancer looks to lovers and lovemaking for emotional rescue are typically true, but what most people don't realize is that she doesn't do so in vain."[*]"born into damage, often both real and metaphoric, spending her book of days drifting toward repair" interesting...[*]"Cancer pours her guts out via experience. Sex, specifically, will be no placid affair, indeed it can be torrid, torrential." :][*]"And every day brings new hope and promise despite her signature moping and whining. She may wallow in the deepest of sentimental and indeed sexual mires, often ending up labeled as a mess as a result, but every melancholy state will be a means of mourning and attaining deliverance from enduring sadness. Cancer doesn't skirt over 'issues;' rather she employs her sign's motto and feels their full import- she embraces her feelings, finds closure and moves on."[*]"Cancer provides herself, and indeed a partner, an abundance of erotic experience to choose from. Ironically, she is at once the most experimental and the pickiest of female signs- that is, there's nothing she won't try once, thrice, or more times in this process of defining, for all time, what suits her sexual self. Kudos to the fellow who finds himself in the throes of Cancer rummaging the depths of carnal knowledge- he might easily assume he's hit the motherload. Which, of course, he has."[*]"She approaches every act as a new beginning, and even if with a mate for a million years, she'd still seek to stir something fresh into the mix. Any one of the eyebrow raising activities mentioned in this book might find their way onto Cancer woman's sexual menu at one point or another."[*]"She is no victim, even when consenting to activities of the most submissive kind, those many might well consider sexually degrading...she not only leans, but learns on her lovers. With every sexual interlude, the Crab gleans a little bit more about herself, growing via these experiences into solid pearl of womanly wisdom in the form of which she can offer her hand some day, when that prince will inevitebly come." Well, that's hopeful.[*]"not merely wishing for but manifesting her dreams"[*]"Blurring the lines between professional and personal involvements, specifically with men who'll make up the bulk of her supporters. (Indeed Cancer may often be killing two birds with one stone, advancing her carnal wisdom while furthering her own career aims with the same individual.) Mutual back-washing is de rigueur, as Cancer, in signature style, pulls out all the stops to get what she wants." :O I have not...and don't think I will. [*]"And when it comes to her own fulfillment, Cancer takes an all-others-be-damned attitude, particularly sandbagging fellow women. She may have few female friends as it is, and she certainly won't make many in the workplace, perpetuating that wicked stepsister disconnect with her own sex. What girlfriends she does have will be unapologetic types like herself" xD Yeah, most people I work with are women, and I don't have many friends but I don't care because it's work.[/list][/COLOR][/B]

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Reading back at my last blog entry...I sound like a complete idiot. xD
That's what I get for lack of sleep.

I'm not totally happy right now, but I wouldn't describe my mood as sad either.

"It's a day filled with fragments of dreams and disconnected memories. You may have repetittive deja vu experiences that you cannot easily explain to anyone else. [U]Don't try to share your inner experiences now. [/U]Just do what you must to meet your obligations while reveling in the fantasies of your unexpressed feelings. You can always talk tomorrow."

Hahah I guess I shouldn't try to explain myself today, or so my horoscope says. Yes, I'm big on zodiac because it's usually right...at least for me. Even Sextrology, a book about your zodiac sign compared to your sex life, past life, etc.
I'm the most emotional of the signs, but I'm not the kind to always express them. I act on gut instincts. I can swing from party girl to sorrowful soul, masterfully so my book says. [LIST][*]"In early relationships, she expects to be saved by men" which was very true. Now it's sad to say that I just use them. :/[*]"With other woman, she tends to play mother hen"[*]"typically...grows up in a female-dominated household where her mother is the unequivocal master and her father is a rather vague, if amiable, figure." Incorrect. My mother is a stupid pig. If any female dominates this house, it's me.[*]"She is a walking-talking-harbinger of hope that must necessarily smile through her tears just as the sun shines unseen behind the clouds of torrential rain or in the dark of night"[*]"her power lies in actively purging her emotions"[*]"Contrary to popular astrological belief, the Crab female is not the nurturer of the zodiac...she is of little help in trying to 'fix' things for others" THANK YOU! I don't know what to do...ever. [*]"Complaining is a waste of emotional energy that's meant to be channeled into one and only one emotional action: having hope."[*]"She feels things are going to happen, and by trusting these inklings, they do." Yes, for some odd reason, I can sometimes be a bit intuitive. [*]"In short, Cancer goes with her gut."[*]"Cancer may be so grateful to the first prince who comes along that she gives her full self to him, unquestioningly, making a god of him." o.0 Still unsure about that...[*]"Cancer can come across as conniving, vainglorious, phony, and manipulative, not to mention totally simpatico to fellow females." :/ Sorry.[*]"Being the demure darling to men, no matter how disingenuous, is a popular track for Cancer to take. She makes a man feel like the big, strong protector." Really?[*]"Indeed, Cancer often looks like one who is just about to cry- it is her default expression, all pouty mouth and welling eyes"[*]"She looks the part: Despite her country of origin, Cancer is generally as wholesome and all-American as apple pie. Added to which, she styles herself in colorful, curvaceously cut, rather middle-of-the-road fashions"[*]"as a sort of wifey taste, wherby, she appears enternelly marriageable and, more than any woman, ready to settle into any suburb in the offing." XD Can we say right on target or what?[*]"Indeed, calling Cancer a flirt doesn't even begin to describe her overt gestures toward the opposite sex, if she feels inclined to deliver them. When sexually inspired, Cancer throws herself at the object of her lust, leaving no question as to her interest...the female Crab is no creature of subtlety." XD I don't THROW myself, thank you very much. I know exactly how to much to hold back.[*]"There is something exaggerated in her looks. Her complexion is bright, her physicality bubbly and boundless, her eyes beaming and her smile naturally pasted on like that of some beauty-pageant contestant...Cancer is a contradiction in terms- a congenial hometown girl who'd just as soon grab a guy's package as stand there smiling at him." xD I'm not going to comment, but I won't immediately deny it.[*]"Cancer seems born to make a love connection. Whether or not she's in a relationship, the Crab requires, even demands, regular sex. Still, because of her generally conservative sometimes coporate style of dress, there is rarely anything truly "sleazy" about her." :] Thank you.[*]"either way she tends to suffer from a serious case of boob envy. If she is chesty, this will tend to be her most overtly feminine feature" Yes. I do use my boobs to my advantage.[*]"Cancer tends to be very much the blonde, if not literally, than in personality. Actually, she will be lighter-haired just as she is lighter-skinned" Funny story, I was born blonde and my hair changed naturally to a mousy brown and now I'm dying it darker, though it loves to fade and go lighter. And I'm damn pale. :[[*]"She wears her hair loose and long...not generally big on makeup, Cancer instead opts for a natural-beauty look. Except when it comes to her lips and eyes, which she paints and mascaras." Very true.[*]"Starved for male affection, Cancer clings to the first eligible boy who takes romantic notice of her- a girl with a serious steady relationship while still in high school" and we almost got married.[*]"the pool of guys are rather traditionally-minded, athletic, all-American male versions of herself. Even at sixteen, she's already thinking marriage." I'm traditional thinking, so it's only right I have a mate that way. Athletic, I don't care, and all-American I don't care as long as you like American football. :] Truth in part, I always have been thinking marriage, but not seriously until I was sixteen and my then boyfriend proposed...if you can call it that. xD[*]"she often gravitates toward unemotional, insensitive, or even unattainable types, believing such qualities are linked to conventional masculinity." Wow. xD I like to say just the average Joe. I'm not one for going for a guy who cries more than I do. o.0; [*]"seeks to social climb- not necessarily to great heights, but just high enough to rise above what she, at least, perceives as the drudgery of her lowly station, arriving at that comfortable middle class." I'm not a social climber, but I do perceive myself as a bit higher socially than my family. They looked at me weird when I told they asked why I was eating before going out to a social dinner and I said I don't eat at social events. How do they not understand that? o.o You don't eat on dates [at least much] and not at other [nice, dress up worthy] social events. [*]"She is utterly needful of expressing her loving emotion to a man. She doesn't simply aim to please...she is desperate to do so, pulling out all stops to shower affection to the male who gut-wrenchingly inspires her love. Cancer doesn't have casual crushes. She swoons, cries, and pines for love and the want of its being returned." That makes me sound like I'm a doormat. And I'm not...and neither do I do so much for a man.[*]"needs contact far more than she needs the protection of her so-called virtue. Sex, she believes, is a means to emotional repair." No, not really, it's more just a way for some form of temporary pleasure before I'm back to the drudgery of life.[*]"she isn't the damsel in distress she perceives herself to be; rather our moony Cinderella must take responsibility for her own survival. The hero she requires is more the sacrificial sort."
"Cancer woman doesn't require a man who'll come to her emotional rescue, but one who'll sacrifice himself to the watery rush of her emotions, willing to be swallowed into her delightful vortex." Compare to Osiris and Isis. Unfortunately for him,
"Isis does require a bit of ritual castration: The male can't impose any patriarchal dominance, but rather must take a second-sex role in the relationship, subject to Cancer's authoritative whim."
Getting complicated yet?[*]"Trouble is, these aren't the guys Cancer goes for early in life. Instead, she often confuses a man's steady outright inability to love, a horrid stoicism, with the loving anchor she truly needs. She is perpetually being drawn to such loveless creeps, domineering guys whose tyranny she misreads as loving attention."[/list][/COLOR][/B]

[CENTER][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]American Eagle doesn't have jeans in my size at all. Not in new jeans or clearance jeans. It's horrible : (
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[CENTER][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue][SIZE=2]I'm babysitting for a friend of my mom, and her kids seem really nice. I don't really have to do anything except be here with them because the two older kids take care of the younger ones. I'm really just here for the security so that they're not alone.

I need to get some new clothes. American Eagle, here I come. I actually have to talk my dad into getting me some new clothes or something. Now that I have my new job (we'll find out tomorrow if I have it tomorrow or not) I think that I can get him to get me some new jeans at least. I'm down to two pairs of jeans now that are wearable in public.

Donna says that she's blogging, quoting things from her book. Can't wait haha!
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