I just have to stop, stop thinking about someone I shouldn't be thinking about.
I just have to tell myself he isn't worth it, not worth the pain of thinking about him.

Well mainly I have someone who I love and want to spend my live with and he loves me more then anything. But then I met someone else who I started having feelings for and then I found out he is merried. So just one more reason added to the list of why I should stop thinking about him. But how can you just stop?

[CENTER][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]I'm watching the Blue Collar Comedy Tour right now because my brother was watching it and he left just a minute ago to go to the movies with a friend who I don't really trust, but that's not the point. Anyways, I was just walking through the living room on my way to the kitchen to refill my water bottle, and the Bill Engvall portion of it comes on and that's my favorite part of the entire thing.

I'm still a little nervous about using my laptop because I don't want it to break down on me again.

My mom is already getting started on working on Halloween decorations; Halloween is in October. It's June. I think she may be going a little overboard with her whole scheme for this year's decorations, but she's not really one to have much of an eye for design. I'm going to be working on the decorations for next year because she finally agreed to let me go about doing it on my own rather than just helping her organize everything in the yard. I have a good idea for what I want to do, but I don't want to start doing anything just yet for it. It's too early. Besides, I have to prepare for England next summer. I really need a job to start saving for that.

Speaking of which, here's how Louise and I are going to do it as of right now. Our plans aren't permanent by any means, but we're hoping to have at least a good outline for what we're going to be doing for when we go. Louise is going to go back before me for one week to visit her family, and then I'll follow for the second week of her trip where she'll show me around England from a citizen's point of view rather than just a dumb tourist. And she even told me that not a lot of American's are that good as tourists so that I have to be really ready for how things work there. Anyways, back to the plan. I'm going to be taking a plane out there in her second week, and rather than staying with her family which I think would be rude, I'm going to stay in a hotel that she tells me to stay in somewhere in London for a week. I know it's going to be expensive, but I'm going to go in halves with my dad to pay for the whole trip so it won't be all that bad.

We're going to go all over London the first two days, then she's going to take me somewhere else that she really likes the second two. On the fifth day, I think we're supposed to be going to Paris for a day (she really doesn't like this idea, but I really want to go!) and then we'll be back then. The final day I don't know what we'll do. We'll figure something out though.

I'm really excited. And well... yeah.

I'm off to read again. I'm going to finish Eclipse tonight and start on The Host.[/COLOR][/SIZE] [/CENTER]

Yeah, that's right, I've temporarily closed the adoption center and it will remain that way for two weeks. And once again people seem surprised that I have done so... Which only justifies my reasons.

You see it's my 21st birthday on Wednesday and as always Jayms is coming up to see me, so I've booked the time off work. Well I book all of Jayms' visits off of work, but I still tend to pop in to check up on things. It goes slow when I pair people up, but I don't usually close it, so why am I now?

Simple.

And I'm sure a fair few adopters can relate to this as well.

How many people do I pair up a month? Around 50. Do you know how many actually talk to their adopters after I've paired them up? around 10 a month. And do you know how many of those actually thank me? less than one a month.

Do you know how many adopters don't bother to tell me when they're going to be away? Around five. And they're also the ones who reply back to me when they contact their newbie. Everyone else I don't know. I have no idea if they still want to adopt, until their newbie starts crying on the thread about not hearing from their adopter.

A lot of Adopters have expressed a wish to leave the thread because of the ungrateful newbies, and you guys should understand that reason very well. Because you see, while I give you a few newbies a month, I get it from pretty much every one that applies. And I get it from some of the adopters too. So I am going to take a well earned break from it.

I think I deserve it.

But that's not where it stops. A lot of people who call me their friend no longer stop by to talk to me. So I don't even feel wanted off of the thread. At least in the thread there are a coupleof regulars who stop and chat with me, and angel spirit girl will do too whenever she sees me out of the thread. But There's not many people who do anymore.

I think a couple of weeks away from this site will do me the world of good. Even if no one really misses me, I should miss Mene enough afterwards to be active again.

Now I know some of you see that I have a helper on this thread and are wondering why she doesn't run it while I'm gone. The simple answer....
She's left Menewsha.

Probably not for good, but she's not expected to return any time soon because of family commitments and emotional issues. And I'd never ask her to come here and do this for me. But I still love her and she will probably be my helper again when and if she comes back, and I'm not about to give up on her. And that is why she is still listed as my helper but not actually helping at the moment.

See you in two weeks...ish.

;)so, yesterday was my 1st day here, and i have admit....its better than gaia. the outfits, hairstuff eyes....etc. simple and sweet^^
hopefully i can make some new friends, and a luver <3:squee:

SO IF ANYONE READS THIS PLZ BE MY FRIEND!!!:squee:

Panda Slippers-Bought
Panda PJ Bottoms-300g
Panda PJ Singlet-250g
Royal Cape-Bought
Panda Ear Muffs
Whalecow on my head-1000g
Panda Plushie-350g

50% off..?