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my computer dont work really....it go off all the
time im glad that it works now...sfdksnf....TT^TT
terrible...so ya what could i say...nothing more
happend at that moment...nya...my english is
bad...do not try to read this s***....nya whatever....
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[FONT="Book Antiqua"][COLOR="Crimson"]Day in and day out, I tend to do the same things every day. No point in going out when it is hot and you have no clue where to go since you don't know the way around or anything and maybe get lost while going for a walk. I so wish I had a job... Maybe I wouldn't feel too bored and deal with being bugged so much... I have been in this place for almost a year and since all my friends live in the area I use to live in... it isn't like I can get up and go walk to their houses to go see them, because I don't even drive or anything. I may be 19 but I am still scared to drive. *Sighs and stretches* I kind of just can't wait for my sister to get a new place so that I can go and move in at her place. Then I can get a break from my parents. I love my parents but they can just be so annoying... My stress has been high and stuff and earlier on Saturday... lines were crossed and I guess I just got more frustrated and tried not to leave my room much, even when they left but leaving my moms friends daughter and kids I think here... And here I thought I could have the house to myself for several hours.... It makes things harder when your own fiance` is all the way in another state and you don't get to cuddle. I don't think video games will even help with my mood. The later it gets, the more tired I feel although I don't feel like I can actually sleep right now.

Yes, I tend to rant and rave but I don't always do it... I just keep it all inside and let it build, making things harder on myself.

I want to draw but nothing inspires me just yet and I want to be able to sell art too *may need to do a few freebies maybe. Has to think on it a little* XD I have only been on Menewsha for a few weeks but I have been doing pretty well so far. For now I guess it is back to playing Tetris and Chopper Challenge... [/COLOR][/FONT]

I turn 21 in 19 days, and what's irritating is that every time I mention it, my friends either say "Where are we going?" or "What are we doing?" or they automatically assume that I'm gonna get smashed on my birthday. Obviously my friends don't know me that well. I don't drink and I'm not supposed to. I'm on medication that I absolutely cannot come off of and alcohol negates the effects of my meds, which is bad.

Some first blog...:sweat:

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="Green"][CENTER][B]A few hours after I posted my last blog, Arie texted me. Which was really comforting and nice. He was still at his show so the texts were slow but I didn't mind -- I was studying for finals. He didn't get home until really late and didn't go to bed until even later, so I didn't expect anything from him early in the morning. Although I did somewhat expect him to text me sometime in the afternoon. He never did. And it's 9pm now... I've yet to hear from him. I'm really starting to consider that this is completely unintentional. Him texting me each morning was a habit and it's changing because he's not up early anymore, as he's out of school. So it just could be carrying over. I did the same with Scotty. I'd send him an IM each morning and he'd get it later when he signed on -- then I stopped doing it without realizing. I really think that's what Arie's doing. Hopefully, at least. He never seems annoyed or upset with me when we do talk, it's completely normal. -sigh- We'll see.

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[CENTER][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]I don't understand how certain artists can just be so freaking talented. Like Rihanna, a nobody from Barbados who just BLOWS UP on the music scene in no time. It's not fair that she has such talent and I'm stuck just being ugly and untalented. It makes me sad : (

But I'm loving her song, Distrubia. I've been listening to it non-stop practically since it first came out. I can't wait for the remastered album of Good Girl Gone Bad to come out so that I can buy it.

I'm sorry I haven't been on to talk to you guys. This week has been insane! So busy >> I still haven't completed my outfit for this week's PM challenge, though I'm thinking that it's probably my time to go. I can't be optimistic for some reason.

Reread Twilight and New Moon these past couple of days, along with the first chapter of Breaking Dawn (August 2nd baby!). I'm starting Eclipse tonight.

And I have a doggy birthday party to go to in about two hours. I'm excited! Like I mentioned before, I'm beating some bitches down on that Wii! Whoo!

Keep hoping that I get that job at Kohl's okay? I really want it xD

Later <3
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