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[FONT="Century Gothic"][SIZE="1"][COLOR="Black"]Warning: The following content may not be suited to those who do not like puppies, sunny days, bright colors, and love*. If this applies to you, then it would be highly suggested that you hightail it out of here before you become tainted by all the happy-go-lucky blurbs of happiness for they will consume your soul! If you had all planned on going to hell anyways, please continue preparing your handbasket and have a great day!
* This is not to exclude complaining, bitterness, name calling, fighting, rudeness, and distastefulness towards others and other things or whatever. Humbug ; }[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
| You know its funny. | You know its funny. [CENTER][FONT=Verdana][SIZE=2][COLOR=DeepSkyBlue]I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling right now. It seems that in the middle of all this happening what with the software change and all that, I find myself rekindling friendships with people who I've cut off from myself for so long because of my own resentment. As unsure of myself as I am in times like this when I feel awkward because of how things are working out, I want to draw back again away from all the uneasiness that I feel with just life in general - the stress, pains, repressed feelings - and bring myself back to a place where I feel safe from my own emotions.
I know, I don't mean to sound so emo right now, but its just how I feel.
I find myself missing things more now too. I haven't quite thought of my position on the staff since I was fired, but you know, I miss it. It doesn't help that a great deal of friendships that I'm not just rekindling stem from my experience being on the staff and working with the people I worked with. They were always so kind to me even when I wasn't to them and that was quite a lot it would seem. I never really.. tried to do any better? I don't know. But anyways, I miss my position. I miss being there to help out with everything that I possibly could on the site. And now I regret everything that I've done and I know that there's no coming back from it.
Its a funny thing, dealing with silly emotions. How long has it been that I've removed them from my very being not letting myself see what matters.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
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