i really like that poem estrella... who wrote it?

That's a really lovely poem. I think everyone has days that they would rather just stay half asleep and not worry about anything but that's the prettiest way I've ever seen it phrased.

And speaking of sleep: Goodnight! ^_^ *huggles*

The author's name is Sonya Sones

*bounces on some pillows*

I like the poem.

It's very touching. As someone who loves someone who is mentally ill, I can honestly relate to it on some of our worse days. But I like to focus on the good days whenever possible and even the good parts of a day can be enough to brighten things up when things get difficult. ^_^

I don't want to seem as though I'm prying but who's mentally ill, Boo?
You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.

I think you should try and read the whole book.
It's really, very good. It's not even really a BOOK because it takes like twenty minutes to read.
But it's so touching for however long it is.

Hey Bbr. ;D

My husband is bipolar and it can get fairly severe. We cope okay most of the time but there have been some really scary spells.

That's a scary disorder. D:

Is he on the medication?

It can be scary but I love him so I deal. His mania manifests as anger and he frequently has mixed episodes (meaning he can be depressed and manic at the same time) which is a high risk for suicide. I've never been scared of him, just sometimes for him. He was on meds but they started making him feel really sick and we were having trouble getting them so he quit taking them. He's been off them for a few months. We need to get him back in with people who can help him but that requires having a permanent address and other important things that we are currently lacking. We should have most everything straightened out by next month though, so we'll hopefully get him sorted out then as well. In the meantime faith and distraction are our primary coping mechanisms. ^_^ Some days are better than others but we are managing. The light at the end of the tunnel is finally starting to show up and that helps some.

I hope it works out Boo. I personally don't wish any mental illness on anyone.
I think it's hard to even be friends with someone who is bipolar.
It's hard when they treat you perfectly human one day and then the next they suddenly treat you like the scum of the earth.
I don't know if that's ever happened to you but I've experienced it.
But this person never apologized, really, just sort of "I have bipolar disorder" and left it at that. :\

There are quite a few people in my family with mental illness (mainly depression), including myself.
I can be snappy and moody, and a downright bitch, I can be the most awkward and irritating person ever, but I'm always really apologetic for it afterwards. I mean... I'll apologise more than I should, then people get annoyed. And then I apologise for annoying them :B

I hate to butt in or anything but I just have to say Saravi Boo you are one strong person. One very strong person. My sister has a personality disorder and is severly depressed because of it and that's really hard to cope with. But I couldn't imagine what you deal with on a day to day basis. It's really inspirational. “Oasis”

Kultura - I'm pretty moody. I actually think I might have PMDD. :sweat:

Hello CrimsonShadow. (:
If you didn't disappear already.

Hi Estrella! I like your chairty a lot! It's put together so well.

Thanks!

It wasn't that well done before. :shock:
I just redid the whole front page. xD For the second time.

*bounces in*

Hey Damon. ;D

How are you Miss Estrella?

@Estrella- Lol really?^^ Well everything needs an update at some point xD

Originally Posted by Estrella

I hope it works out Boo. I personally don't wish any mental illness on anyone.
I think it's hard to even be friends with someone who is bipolar.
It's hard when they treat you perfectly human one day and then the next they suddenly treat you like the scum of the earth.
I don't know if that's ever happened to you but I've experienced it.
But this person never apologized, really, just sort of "I have bipolar disorder" and left it at that. :\

He can be snappish but he almost always apologizes, once he realizes he's been being a poophead, if he directed it at someone. lol. ^_^ And frequently he vents at inanimate objects like the television and such so no apologies required there. Our marriage isn't in any danger from his mental illness. I'd say 80% of the time he makes me incredibly happy (even in the midst of his mood swings), 10% of the time I worry he'll hurt himself if I leave him alone, 8% of the time he's apathetic to the point of frustrating me, 2% of the time he's so angry I can't do anything except stand back, try to be supportive, and wait for him to calm down, and 100% of the time I love him more than my own life. ^_^ He's the only one for me and we balance each other out.

Originally Posted by Kultura

There are quite a few people in my family with mental illness (mainly depression), including myself.
I can be snappy and moody, and a downright bitch, I can be the most awkward and irritating person ever, but I'm always really apologetic for it afterwards. I mean... I'll apologise more than I should, then people get annoyed. And then I apologise for annoying them :B

*huggles* I know how that is. I got really depressed in college after a friend's 16 month old daughter died right in front of me. You feel bad afterward but control over what comes out of your mouth seems so useless when you can't even bring yourself to give a flip about whether you've eaten or bathed recently. I don't know what I would have done without my best friend dragging me out of bed periodically. I probably would have laid there until I starved. O_o'

Originally Posted by CrimsonShadow

I hate to butt in or anything but I just have to say Saravi Boo you are one strong person. One very strong person. My sister has a personality disorder and is severly depressed because of it and that's really hard to cope with. But I couldn't imagine what you deal with on a day to day basis. It's really inspirational.

^_^ You aren't butting in, it's an open discussion. I gotta say though, I'm really not that strong. I can't take the credit. I used to be a complete basketcase. I just eventually came to the conclusion that I was going about things all wrong. I was trying to fix everything and there are some things that are simply out of my control. It took me a couple of years of being beaten over the head with the concept but I finally turned my worries over to someone who might have a chance of doing something with them. My mental state improved drastically from that point and it got much easier to cope with my husband's mood swings. I have a lot of faith that God will work things out and that there is a reason for everything, even when I can't figure one out. ^_^

Admittedly, I still have bad days occasionally but I went from taking anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds while having panic attacks once or twice a month to having maybe one panic attack a year and being completely unmedicated for the last five years. I'm currently arranging to be tested for Asperger's Syndrome because I have a lot of the symptoms and side disorders associated with it. At my age I doubt they can do much for it (if I have it) but it would be nice to have a name for what has been off about me for as long as I can remember.

I don't know if it would work with your sister but, I've found that the best thing to do for my husband when he gets really depressed is point out the things that are good in our life (at times recently this has been harder than usual O_o' ). Even if he doesn't seem to want to listen or care at the time, it gives him something to think about, other than all the negative emotions and thoughts his brain is churning out. It also helps me stay focused on not getting depressed along with him. ^_^

If you don't mind me asking, what disorder does your sister have?

O_O' Sorry for the text wall. Mental health is something I'm quite passionate about and I can get a bit long winded on the subject.

this is me sleep posting..... zzzzzzzz.... <--- that is me sleeping :yes:

i haven't been in here all day/night cause i was busy :(
but i shall be back when there is life here!

Hello everyone!
-dances with Saravi's signature Gir-

Love your avi Linnea.

@CrimsonShadow - You came at a good time!

@Boo - No need to apologize. I think it's good thing to talk about.

But I don't have much more to say than that. :sweat: I hope someday to find someone who takes the good with the bad, though, and I'm happy that you accept your husband and are so supportive. I hope he's the same.

Hey dragoness. :O

hi everyone!

Estrella is feeling really irritated by the people I have on my Facebook account. x__X;