And I cant keep up with my chatbox and here.
Sigh.
This girl always manages to bring back sad memories. *curls up*
Have you ever got a best friend who betrayed you and then tried to kind of put fault on you and revive the friendship who knows how many times to end it the same way? >:

Several of them, actually.

I need help! *flail* We used to own a RP site together with her and another girl, and it was my best RP palce ever. SHe has now brought it back for third time and asking me to join AGAIN.
Butbut I dont know what to do. @[email protected] I used to love to RP with her, she was fun to be with, but she is manipualtive and attention asking and if I do, I will get drawn in and probably end up hurt again andand... I dont know what to do. ._.
Ugh.
My mind is saying a clear no, but in heart I fele like "I am smarter now, right? I wont let her hurt me or pull in her cunning webs! And RPing with her was fun..."
BUT IT SAID THAT LAST TIME, TOO. Only I am smarter now, even compared to that time.

Gah, she is trying tot alk me into it, talking about new couples and new characters and stuff~ X_X And the more she does it, the more put of by the idea I am, actually. She needs me only like the silly little Eri toy again. Nothing more.

Honey, it is not you who hurt her. It's her who hurt you again and again. So if you say no, and she is hurt, is that so bad? It is your choice, of course, but I think continuing with this "friendship" will only hurt you again. If even your heart says 'I won't let her pull me into her cunning webs", then you know something is wrong. Badly.
A friendship is not a friendship if you have to think and rethink your every action to make certain she cannot use it against you, to manipulate you, emotionally blackmail you or hurt you. It is not a friendship when you have to watch out for her every word and every action to make sure she is not trying to pull you into her webs. To make sure she is not manipulating you. Trying to continue with such a friendship is only harmful, or at least, it was so in my experiences.

I know. You are right. And she will try to do it anyways. She badmouthed me (wisely! Complaining how much I hurt her and didnt understand her and how much she is missing me and that I am cruel ditching her) in eyes of another of my friend, and it led to lots of argues...Which led me to qutting that RP site... You might remember how hurt I was about it.
She simply always treats me like a kid who is whining, has no problems, is depressing her and she always needs me there, in front of her eyes, always RPing and talking with her and listening about her hardships. Its... hard. She is creative and giving (to make me lower my guards) and yeah...
But I dont think I will do it. She makes me sad by just mentioning our past we had together. She makes me feel helpless. I hate to be rude, I hate to hurt someone, and she acts so hurt so easily it makes me shut up and go into corner and then she atatcks me for being depressed~
Its one endless cycle.
I always hope she has changed. I am so silly. I should know better by now.
Thank you for just... well, being here, right now. *hugs* I know I wouldnt have joiend right away, but saying this outloud, just erased my doubts about joining or not joining. Sure, she will pester my other friend again about me, but this is better.

If you ever need to rant about it, I'll always listen. And yes, I remember how sad you were about it.
-hugs-

I will tell her tomorrow, trough PM so I dont have outright yell in her face in cbox or something of the sorts. @[email protected] She probably wont accept simple no or saying that I am too busy for new site. *sighs and hugs Sellie*
Ghosts from past are great, but not when they trie to choke you with wrapping friendship chains around your neck.

*spins into the thread*

Hello, Kirin.

Oh, Sellie, can you tell me in what rank as psoter I am now, since I have got slightly over 17k posts, please? o:

'Pokes the thread' hey all XD

STAR! I havent seen you for forever! *hugs*

'TACKLE HUGGLES' Yeah i come, I go, I live, I die its how i am XD

Noo, no dying! *cling*

lol, well i have been a bit less then active here, I've started several other sites so i juggle. that and im addicted to Epic Duel. which i SHOULD be playing but a friend pounced me so now IM in an rp. i am NEVAH gonna get that stupid fox lol i can't even make up the money for it. that and life in general, and my dislike of posting a lot in a thread cause they tend to go ethir dead or WAAAAAY to fast.

I miss you a lot on here, Star. D: You promsied to not go in haitus for other sites here on Mene yet it seems you most certainly will. T^T

I haven't gone on Hiatus, I just can't seem to keep in one site, heck i've practically lost all theother sites i had when i first joined here. they ethir go to slow or go dumb -_-

You must stay here. ;^; So many of my friends have poofedfrom here and I miss them all, and you, too! *clings*
There will be Valentines event soon! You will be around for it, right?

as i don't do nothing on V day i probably will be here. I think. when is it cause i don't own a calender. and the only reason i gone poof from here is i got frustrated. no matter HOW hard I try i can't seem to earn up gold -_- that and i have become addicted to Epic Dual. and RP. well i've always been addicted to rp just that so many people i talk to here aren't on when im on lol.

Well, I could always help you with gold andandand its becuase you give it away. XD And maybe you can juggle three things at tiem, though? >:
And its okay that you are gone sometimes, just dont quite completely. ;^; As long as I know you are alright and having fun, even if its not here, I will settle down somehow.

lol, Honey Mene couldn't get ride of me if it WANTED to. i stop by at least once a day to check up on thign i just don't alwasy post.. maybe i should well sometimes i don't always post. >_> I've left notes I just don't think anyones seen them....
mostly here and a few other places pope in, and then go 'poof' back out. and i DO juggle lol. if i juggle anymore my brian'll go poof. well that and i've been slow lately. im just.. gah life's weighing me down again and when that happens i tend to get a little dipressed. depressed whatever lol.
and no YOU DON'T you promised NOT to and theres the Vday event you save your gold. you'll probably end up buying doubles of everythign and then selling and or giving htem away as prizes if you help me on some silly quest you won't have them so DON'T YOU DARE 'glares'

PS. Plus y ou talkign to me is helping me see 'points at high gold count'

I know how life can do that. >: but if you ever want to talk about it, I am here. There are always PMs and profile messages and all that. Sometimes drop me a status message like "I am alive" or "life killed me" maybe? So I know you are or you are not alright. >:
And I already have 5k saved for Valentines event and I have future charity gold I could give you. x3 And I never buy doubles of commons. XD I dont think I will like Valentine commons at all. >x3

Hahah, I am glad to be of such help! And your glare is not frightening at all~ 8DD

-_- aww shucks and here i thought my glare was ubber scary. my heart breaks that its not lol.
and and.. I wouldn't know what to get first anyways. I'll just go slow. and yeah Valintines stuff doesn't soudn to fun it'd be in reds and whites and pinks and well sides the reds and whites i don't LIKE pink ;_;
and i can try and remember and just sometiems i don't even get on the computer..well okay i do i just don't get onl ine i watch movies or tvs. i ahve found i like hulu 'shrugs'

I just love you too much to be afraid! 8D *hugs*
Pink is bleh. XD I hope there is some nice blacks. x3 I am afraid of all those heart stuffs though. >o<
Its okay about going slow and all and maybe not droping a note often, yeah. XD Just sometimes... alrighteh? x3 If I am too clingy, tell me, though. XD

Hey everybody. How is everybody this fine evening?

I am somewhat fine, Kirin. Alive, at least. Thanks for asking. And you?