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Oooh, we jumped 5 pages! <3
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Sorry.
People get chatty while they're here. |
Ahaha, I am happy you all do. <33 This thread must have some love! ^^
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That's funny because I think of the same song when I see her name. |
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Dang it, stomach cramps. @[email protected];; But now they are gone, and I am happy again! 8D I have done a lot of things today, like cleaning the house and putting all stuff in the proper place and made a long phonecall and also caught up with Subscriptions and Charities at least twice, and plan on doing it still. I only have homework to do and then I will have done all I wants~ Mmm, really nice feeling. ^^ |
Boo, I have class.
See you guys in two hours. =( |
That's good Rain, glad you're getting stuff done. |
Hi and bye, Reaper! o:
Yeah, I am glad about it, too, since I have felt like I am stuck on the doing nothing note. XD; What are you planning to do or accomplish today, Deilen? |
I need to not be lazy and write out my two hundred fifty word personal statement, for my college applications. Need to sign into Common Application as well and start filling stuff out, see what more I need. Hope I don't have to write another essay to be honest. I need to apply completely by the end of the week. Then, next week I'll go to the school and get my previous Literature professor to write a recommendation for me. Have to contact my high school to send out transcripts to the schools I'm applying to. Technically I have until April to get all this done, as a trasnfer student, but the sooner I know the better. I need to leave in May and take some courses off my Residency curriculum, in the summer at Quinnipiac, that will put me on track to get done in time I think. Well, and give me a chance to get the feel of the city of Hamden and the campus before classes begin in the fall. Hopefully I find work while I'm up there, gosh that would help. I have a lot more to pray about, hehe. |
x_X;;; Oh my, thats a lot of work to do!
But its great you have it all planned out and everything. I would probably leave it undone till the last moment and then feel like killing my selfg in anger because I was so stupid and lazy. XD; *bows down to Deilens determination* STILL have homework to do, but cant unlazy my self... I will rpobbaly get move active after dinner, since I am getting sleepy... again... x.x;; |
No bowing, I'm not the most determined person there is, and I certainly have been bad about putting assignments off. I can tell you all about that, in fact, and it's never pretty. I've been fortunate though that even writing assignments done within the last available night, have been completed without too much pain. All this I must attribute to the fact that writing has always been my strongest point, in school. |
A German test tomorrow is what is pressuring me and I cannot ignore it. XD
Especially since I have already neglected it for too long and I should pay more attention to languages, if I do want to follow my path, as you put it. The problem is, I lived for far too long in a manner of "I am floating down the river of life and dont really care if I keep on floating or drown or about where I end up". its actually hard to just gather up my courage and strength (since my health is more often horrible than not) to actually change something, but I am already starting to struggle on on my own. I know I can do it, because I simply must. x3 I might not do well at first, but as time will go and I believe in this all more my self, I will do better. *nods* And I know you can as well. <3 As long as you believe it, for one reason or another, everything will be allright. I do believe in you as well. <3 And you are still determined, in my eyes, because you keep on doing things, even if it is not easy, that your "I cant do this anymore so I am giving up" point is still far away, or you stubbornly refuse to go past it and keep on this struggle side. |
Aw, you can do it! I only took two years but I am sure if you enjoy the language you will do just fine. |
Yes, thats aprt of it, too, cause of my vegetativ dystonia and such. But tis not only stess. Its also my old problems and low blood pressure and gastritis, asthma and bunch of other things. Dx I am slowly getting better, though, I know that with determination, positive thoughts (I cant believe I said that o3o;; ) and believing in my self, I can do it.
I dont think I need much more breaking. I am not one to change rapidly and I am already walking to the "light side", hehe. I came to realization that I can change my life, and that there is point in doing that slowly, but steadily and now I always try to remember that. It really does help, especially the fact I now know I have actual reason to change, that if I do something, I wont be forever stuck in this hopeless little corner of world and my own mind as well. I suppose letting go of guilt is the hardest part still, but I am getting over it as well. I just wish I hadnt let my self be stomped in ground - 2 years I have practically thrown to waste in some ways. But when I and mom talk about it, we also do come to conclusion I gained some things, like life experience in ways of friendship and just communicating. And I found out more about my self and my opinions, especially in this "waking" time. |
Okay...you also need to knock those health issues off the list :lol: seriously, don't claim that stuff. Sit down and start rebuking it from your body, you en't got TIIIME to be dealing with all that. Amen. <3 |
Ah lets see ^^ hope i make it on the fiftieth page 8D (its never gonna happen xD)
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Ahaha, Deilen, if I could, I would do it. XD I am going to doctor regularly, drinking medicine (that has made me worse more often than not) and I am left with only hoping for the best and that I will grow out of these problems. Some, like gastritis, will remain, but with those I can deal. As long as my blood pressure, asthma and vegetativ dystonia eases up, it should be fine.
Well, maybe I had my breaking point, I dont know. I think I have multiple small ones, over the time. One day, something just happens that makes me decide to change something more about my attitude. I think my biggest "break" of sorts has occured, but it wasnt really that... noticeable, I think? Maybe. I know I can change my health a bit with my mind. I could "defeat" my dystonia if I really beat up and kicked out all, or at least, all currently important demons, but its hard work, especially since I am maybe working with it seriously for about... two or three months, even if pre-works have been going on for the last year. Its a slow process, darn. Dx Andd good luck with that, Deletris. <3 |
Oh you can, all you need to is believe that you can, I don't say it to be cruel or stupid. I promise. ^^ I'll rebuke it for you if not, and pray. |
Well, I cant with just a "bang", but I am slowly working towards it. <3
Ahaha, that made me sounds like mentally ill. XD; But in some way, I suppose its really a recovery. Well, whatever it is, as long as it works, I am fine with it. Okay, lets move to another theme now. Like me going to sleep cause its soon 3:30 am and sleep is also required for my body to feel well. ^^; Good night, have a great day/night, Deilen. <3 Thank you for the talk. <3 |
Well...we ARE mentally ill - ill from all the poo we live through, everyone one of us (those that are awake enough to see the facts). So we all need to break free, but you go to sleep. ;) |
I'm such a lame and slow person, I can never reply.
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Don't be so hard on yourself. |
I agree with Deilen. >: You are not lame, just busy. >: Its hard to keep up with these threads sometimes, too, especially if sometimes you feel like a private talk is going on. I know how that feels. ^^;
Now, better tell me how cookie can be gothic! o: Is it made of gothicness and looks fitting that? o: Is it black chocolate with spikes and some vintage? O: Maybe some chains in place of arms and legs? |
cookie can be gothic when you cover it with teh whole dark chocolate xD
i love cookies very much! esp chocolate chips >w< i think is it black with spikes on it o.o;; |
Hey, everyone.
Going to an anime Convention for the weekend. It's going to be sweet!!! >\/< |
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