Worst case, a door opens. Working something that makes you miserable isn't a good thing at all, but maybe it will give you a push in a new direction. Either way, good luck with it. <33

Thanks, Chi!

Ugh it was pretty much another day drudging it through. Yesterday was the official announcement, and then today we had our team meeting where the rest of the group was notified of the changes. A lot of people were shocked and feeling negative. There's a handful of us trying to put a positive spin and encourage the others come with us as a group (as they will do, and keep us in our same teams with same pay) rather than go to the phones working with the games company. While I'd rather work with that product, with that group of people...I don't really want to be stuck on a sinking ship that in say a couple months time the company who outsources to us decide to pull altogether. I don't know if phone support is based outside of the US much. I think that this company in the phillipines also has US centers and takes a handful of the calls from their US centers. Since chat support it is much easier to hide where you're from, there is no real push to hire in country staff.

Hell, I was taking chats from around the world. I'm going to miss that as it was a lot of fun making small talk about the cultural differences when helping overseas customers. :<

---------- Post added 03-26-2013 at 10:24 PM ----------

***Additional Rant from today.

Sorry I wanted to post that before I continued on about today and what happened on the phone with the pharmacy and doctor. Alright, well I've been taking some form of Venelefaxine, also known as Effexor. Well when I could get it free I would get the name brand. When I got married to Aaron and on his insurance (so about 4 years now) I've been on the generic as it was much cheaper to be. Well I had been getting it filled at Walmart, and instead of taking 75mg twice a day I take the one tablet once a day. I had been trying to work with the Nurse to ween off of it, but a couple of failed attempts I just stuck at that dosage. I found myself fairly stable on it.

Fast forward to last month. I got it refilled again. I've gone through 2/3rds of the bottle just fine. Now since 3 days ago I started feeling adverse effects. When I take it I feel like my nervous system is shutting down, kind of like when you take a Valium, and I just want to lay down and pass out. Shortly before I feel like my body feels nauseous and I want to physically bring it back up.

The first day I thought for sure I had accidentally gotten a Valium out as his doctor prescribes him it. I made very sure that there was no way I took a pill from the right bottle, same feelings. Then on Saturday I halved it as I knew I had to take it but didn't want to spend the day feeling ill while my body adjusted. Still felt the same side effects, maybe not as much. After that I scrounged up my couple other bottles and found a couple of the extended release capsules I had gotten when we had insurance and have been taking those. No effects.

So today I call the pharmacy and explain it to them. I told them I'd been taking the dosage like that for like the past 4-5 months which I had. The pharmacist says that he would have to send me to the dr as I'm not taking them as it is prescribed, and also he says it is some sort of reaction to my medication I've started developing. I tried to explain to him that nothing profound has changed and I'm more concerned it is a bad batch of medication, or that they have changed to a different manufacturer of the drug and the non-active ingredients must not be agreeing with me. He says I will have to talk to the head pharmacist tomorrow, but says that they would not exchange it regardless.

I call up the Nurse later in the day who says first off on the notes the office has that I am to get no more refills until I see the doctor (for a follow up...not that much has changed), and furthermore says for this issue I would have to come in. That's 80+ dollars I have to pay to have the Dr's assistant weigh me, take my blood pressure and just make some notes on a chart. You can't believe how pissed off/upset I was. I'm going through a really tough time in a job transition, plus what Aaron is going having to finish up a temp job just not panning out. (They sounded like they really wanted to hire him, just to string him along for 6 months for 2/3rds the pay and no benefits...and he was doing more of what a machinist would do and went out of his way to perform his job...!)

Thanks I'm done with my rant. I was near tears around mid afternoon with frustration. I have come to the conclusion this is the last bottle and I'm going to try to do just the half a tablet for a couple weeks then work on either 1/4 or just say to hell with it and start to go a day without, then a day with until I feel comfortable to just let it go. I really don't want to take the stuff as it hasn't been helping me, and have only been continuing it due to my fear of the side effects of coming off.

Be careful doing self weaning. It's easier said than done though. Having huge bills going to see anyone makes it frustrating for sure. It's not as simple as going to a doctor or a psychiatrist for monitoring when you can't afford the bills for it.

Just be careful as it can be dangerous to do it yourself. Have Aaron as a backup, make a safety plan in case you find yourself in a rough spot during the transition.

I really hope the job won't be too hard. Thinking about going from chat to phone, I can see where it's a huge transition. You're essentially in an office cubicle and all sounds in your home will affect what you do. It takes away a lot of the convenience, other than not having to drive to work and having the option of pajamas.

I have two weeks left of my job as a case manager. We have money saved up for a plot of land that, while we don't want to dip into, it's worth having to do so for a couple months in order to mentally survive. I don't like the idea of our nest egg being used for anything other than what will be our home purchase, but so be it.

We put an application in for an apartment. The costs of gas alone ($80/week) are cutting into the convenience of living where we live now. We may not have rent, but heat costs almost $400 a month, and taking in a month's gas, that's a rent payment right there. We might as well take the plunge and be closer to work/school/internship.

Hoping to hear back from the landlords soon.

good luck, Chi

Thank you!

you're welcome
it would be nice to find an apartment with all utilities paid
=)

I believe this apartment has heat and electric included, which is mighty fine. :)

Good lord, Chi!! $400 a month for gas? I thought that the occasional bill nearing $200 was bad in the coldest winter months. I think I'll keep our gas the way it is. That being said, our place is small. It's big enough for what we need, though.

And yes, Aaron will be here and I have my cellphone turned back on. I'm confident I can do it. I've been wanting to do it, and now I have a reason to do it.

Oil. $400 for heating oil, and $320-350 for gasoline for commuting. Yikes, huh? That's rural living I guess. xD

Keep me updated!

Well that sounds a lot better than what I had originally thought. That is still alot. I'm so glad I work from home as it cuts out that second car and needing to keep up insurance/repairs and also gassing the car. I would wager we spend about $200 a month in gas for the car alone.

Yep, it adds up very quickly. And this is with us carpooling any day we possibly can. I wager our bill gets cut down to $100 a month if we move.

I'm tired today. Been cooking since 8am, but it's done now. I need to hop in the shower and get going to my friend's house, then to class. I want a nap! :B

I feel like I could climb into bed and take a nap too. zzz.

Got work until 7pm, then probably will crash. Try to enjoy your day, even though it sounds like it's pretty much run of the mill kind of stuff.

It wasn't a bad day. Got to visit a friend, and class (this class) is truly enjoyable. We get to talk about the field in general and our concerns for the community and stuff.

I need to call the potential landlords tomorrow to see if they think we can be tenants and if so, when. Cole needs to know whether or not to work his break (next week), and needs to give an answer by Friday.

Wow sounds like crunch time for you guys again. Moving always sounds so daunting.

I'm really wanting the next month to just wiz on by. Want to start training, and wanting to know what happens with Aaron as far as work.

It won't be too bad. We'd be moving into somewhere furnished if we do it, so it's a case of getting our clothing and the baby's stuff for the most part. If it were a full house move we couldn't do it. Right now we can keep our extra junk right here at Mom's.

I want the next two weeks to go by quickly.

I hear you about fastfowarding time. I'd like to go a little further than that, though.

Thank goodness you can leave your stuff at your mom's, otherwise it would be quite the nightmare. Moving just plain sucks.

I don't think we're moving. I spoke with the landlord today and it looks like he'll ask for more money than originally advertised if he's to furnish it. This is understandable of course. The concern is that it's a husband-wife duo and the wife seemed very enthusiastic about making the furnishing happen and whatnot.

I'm not completely ruling it out yet, but I'm losing hope of it happening. It is what it is though.

Yuck. Sorry about that. Perhaps you could just move over the essential furniture needed? A bed, a couch, your beds...and just leave the rest of the stuff until you're able to move over?

I personally would be hesitant on moving into an already furnished place having a young child. Children and pets are not the nicest to furniture and usually landlords equal assholes. It sounds like a good reason for him not returning your downpayment/bond (whatever you call it) over it.

I've had a rough day today. Last night I didn't get to sleep until like 5:30am then was out of bed at 10am. That's just not enough sleep for me, but I've been so anxious feeling lately over stuff it's hard to sleep. Not necessarily depressed or thinking negative thoughts all night, just feeling pretty wired.

The dosage issue so far is going good. I'm going to continue taking half a tablet a little longer before dumbing it down to a fourth. Then nothing. I'm going to do it this time, dammit.

The problem is that we don't have any furniture. But if the rent raises, for example, $100-200 a month to cover their costs of furnishing it, then we might as well pay it ourselves and pick out what we want. You are right in that the furniture would have "wear and tear", BUT if the yearly cost of us even having their furniture is $2400, you can see where my concern is less there.

I'll speak with him today and see how it goes. We'll likely furnish it ourselves or just hold off...

I hope today is a better day for you! <333

Yeah...that better be some furniture at that price!!

Fingers crossed that you guys figure it out though. If the weather was nicer, garage sales can be a good place to pick up some cheap stuff. Not ideal, but one way to cut corners. Also places like goodwill or a habitat for humanity store are good places too. That's usually the route we go.

Aaron texts me if I want to pick up my birthday present early since I got paid. 573....290 lot rent, 200 house payment. Er yah. I think we had like 60 bucks left over. 140 for gas groceries? :/ Aaron will get paid Tuesday, but I don't know. Plus I still have a couple of weeks.

Well, we're taking the plunge and just furnishing it ourselves. Fingers crossed it goes well. We could sign the lease as early as tomorrow, though we won't move until we get furniture obviously.

What type of birthday present would you like if you could get it?

Oh that's awesome! I'm glad you've got it figured out. Here's hoping that it is a smooth transition!

Birthday present for me? I just wish there was money for me to do something spur at the moment. If I had gotten anything from tax returns I was thinking either of getting the new iPod and letting Aaron have my old iPod. If he didn't want it, I know Tristan has been hankering for a new iPod. The other idea was the Pikachu 3DS XL. I have a 3DS XL, but Aaron has been playing a lot lately and it would be nice if I could give him the other one and we'd both have one. We still have the original 3DS that he can play on, but he's been playing DLC on mine which if I want to play at the same time I have to use the original and the screen is quite smaller on it. Just stupid, unneeded stuff that would be nice as a treat.

Now I'm kinda hoping to have enough money I might pick up Luigi's Mansion: Dark Moon closer to my birthday. We'll see, though. Right now I don't think it's the best idea.

Fingers crossed we get the keys today. Not ordering stuff 'till we know it's 100%. Right now it's 99%. :B

I hear you on the "stupid unneeded stuff". I haven't been able to get that for roughly two years. I've been itching for a 3DS XL. I sold my DS Lite ages ago, but Cole and I share. Where neither of us has the time to do anything, sharing works. I think I will get a 3DS XL as a graduation present, if we can swing it. I THINK Cole will be licensed by then.

I don't remember what we did for my last birthday. I think Cole cooked a nice meal. No gifts, but we've been scraping for a while. I don't mind, knowing better things will come. It's all about the love anyway. :p

The past few holidays have been pretty sparce. We've been kind of just trying to make ends meet as well for awhile. I hope one day better things will come. Aaron says he may be able to still jump on TAA from his old job that foreclosed. Perhaps he will be able to go back to school using money from the government to do so. We'll see. For now, still no emails or phone calls on the applications he filled out for a couple other jobs. :/

Something will show... <3