Basically I can't move to this phone company, but am staying with the videogame company. It has it's ups and downs. I know the videogame company's customer support like the back of my hand.

It all boils down to the phone company wanting to pass a drug test, and with me smoking marijuana it isn't going to happen. If I stay put, there's no penalty...but there's also that uncertainty for how long the gravy train will last. It will however at least guarantee me some more pay and worst case scenario mean that I'm back on unemployment, again.

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And in all honesty the video game company has been the most fun I've been able to have while at work. I mean I can sit and chit chat about video games with customers and not make them feel weird.

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I've been kinda emotionally up and down the past couple of days. I think it's a combination of medication withdrawal and PMS. I'm so happy that the worst of it is over. I felt extremely bi polar today - for the first couple hours I was an emotionally weepy state, then the rest of it I was kinda really tired, felt like head was being squished like a gummy bear, weepy sad, and now that work is done I'm like ecstatically happy. Hoping like hell to stabilize a bit. I think right now I'm missing a normal button.

The meds are gone. I slammed them on the table and told my MIL that I no longer wanted them and if they disappeared I would not bat an eyelash. I don't know if husband chucked them or she took them (she's on the same stuff now) and yes I know it's unethically sound and illegal to be giving meds out like that...I didn't technically give them. I told them to 'disappear'. Heh.

Anyways it sounds like you're slowly getting things turned around. I bet it will feel wonderful once you're all done with the transition and now don't have that hell of a commute to worry about.

Keep monitoring yourself... and seek out help should you need it. It doesn't sound like the PMS is helping, seeing as that's an emotional and hormonal time for many--with or without medication!

It sounds like you're happier staying with the video game support. Might as well take it day by day, right? If they outsource, they outsource. You're good at finding other options, more so when pressured. You always have been.

We've got a lot unpacked. The downstairs TV and TV stand have been assembled. Cable transfers tomorrow, but who can complain with Netflix in the meantime? Our couch is set to be delivered today or tomorrow. Hoping today. I'm home until noontime. I should be interning today but one of us needs to house sit for deliveries. Cole will swap places with me at noontime so that I can go finish out the day interning and then head to class.

I'll show you photos once everything is completely put together. It'll take another week or two, as we're waiting for a curtain delivery, and the photo prints I ordered aren't even shipped yet. It's coming together nicely and we spent the night here last night. It's absolutely awesome here.

Ohhh pictures!! ^_^ Yay!

It sounds like everything is coming together rather smoothly, or as smooth as possible given the fact you're moving! I bet it feels good to be so far in now, and able to see the end of it. I eventually got sick of unpacking and there's a couple of boxes of stuff I never got to. I couldn't tell you what is in there now, as I have completely forgot. I think one has a bunch of tacky knick knacks of my husband's late father. I agreed to keep them, but tucked away. Pam was all hurt because she wanted to decorate the whole house with them. There were a lot of painted mallard ducks, and other artsy fartsy manly stuff he did. I didn't want to disrespect, but at the same time I didn't want my house looking like some hunter's house or something. It isn't me, you know? I let pam pick out something from the box to put in her room and I offered the same for my husband. I'm even OK with him mounting his dad's guitar on the wall, even though it is a beat up and very much a franken guitar...it had a lot of love poured into it, and I have a respect and love for music, much more than ducks...

I'm finicky with decor. And storage too, for that matter. There isn't much storage here, but I am thinking of ordering some additional closet shelving or something. I'm not too worried just yet. We still have one trip back to Mom's worth making, to collect our miscellaneous stuff.

The couch was supposed to arrive today, but it didn't. Amazon gave us a $200 credit which was nice, though I told them it's frustrating as I already took half the day off awaiting its arrival. Tracking said it was out for delivery. I stayed home half the day, then Cole came home and I then went to work while he waited. Now we'll have to do it all over again. Grr.

Anyway...

I intern tomorrow from 8-4, then I have class from 4-7. I am pretty well MIA, so I hope Cole can take the time off tomorrow. I don't think he can though. He mentioned being the only one in the office at work, so no one could cover for him...

We'll figure something out. Hoping it comes tomorrow so that we can figure out what size dining table to get after the fact. :p

That sucks about the whole couch thing. Cool they gave you the credit, but if you can't get someone to let them in when they try to deliver it it won't do you much good. D:

We're not so finicky around here about furniture. If we had more money, I would love to do some upgrading. I believe we paid $100 for the bed, which was used but very gently and came with the box springs and the frame. The frame is broken, so the bed has been for a few years on the box springs on the floor. The couch we have is about 2-3 years old and very ratty. We paid 5 bucks for it...So I guess I can't complain. It was better than the couch before that had been given to us but had been rained on outside prior. The couch before that was really nasty and peed on by the old cat. I'm keeping my eye out this summer though and if I find something decent I will snatch it up. It sucks my neighbor next door wanted $300 for her loveseat and matching wingback type chair. If I could of talked her down in price a bit I may of bit. I would of been willing to pay $100. She's probably still paying to keep it in storage, and her house has still not yet sold. They're an older couple and the guy she married I believe was in the military plus had a good job with GE for 20+ years. They're well off. They ended up buying their new place and redecorating with all new furniture even though they had perfectly good furniture in their house. They had a GORGEOUS bed set that I would of loved if a.)I had the room and b.)I had the $800 asking price. I tell you, they weren't very cheap in selling off their used stuff. :/

Today went by a lot better. Still fairly tired and exhausted. Didn't sleep well at all last night. A lot of fidgeting and getting up for one thing or the other. I tried to lay down, clear my mind. It wasn't working. Finally after fighting it until 4am I went in the bathroom and smoked a little. Now typically this makes it harder for me to sleep as I want to stay up and enjoy the feeling, but this was JUST what I needed. I was able to detach myself from my thoughts and drift off into a sleep. Aaron woke me up briefly at 6am to say a couple things, and then I nodded off until 10am. Not nearly enough sleep, but it did.

I did some reading online and someone who was coming off the same antidepressents highly recommended Omega 3 capsules and Vitamin B. I started taking some late last night and this morning. It may be a bit early to feel the effects, and this may of been a 'placebo effect' but I didn't feel the nausea and for once I felt pretty damn normal...well other than feeling pretty doggone tired. I also have been dealing with a head cold I think Aaron passed to me. It isn't plesant, but I'll take the head cold over the withdrawal symptoms any day.

After work I ran up to the grocery store and bought another bottle of Omega 3 capsules and also a bottle of Vitamin D3 (something my parents were pushing me to buy as they said a difiency could cause depression...with the cold weather and me not being outside much, not to mention not much in the way of sun...I'm probably fairly deficient.) Luckily they were buy one get one free. I may go back and get another bottle of B Vitamins while the sale is going, but I don't know what I would get for the other bottle. I'm pretty stocked up on everything else. Well maybe some Niacin. Another thing that can really help boost your emotional state apparently.

Oh I spoke to Jess late the other night. She was telling me be careful what brands I buy as they are not regulated like the pharmaceutical drugs. I'm wondering if you take any, and if so do you have a particular brand you swear by? I like this Nature Made brand as there is not any nasty fillers in it like soy for instance. (My mom swears up and down that there is no such thing as organic soy these days due to the GMO crops and how easily soy is cross polinated I think she was saying? I dunno...my parents say a lot of things.)

The flax, B12, and omegas I take are ridiculously expensive. My mother actually bought them for me, as she noticed I was sluggish and I refused to pay $100 combined for supplements. :s

I'll have to check the fridge to get you the brands of flax and omega I take. I try my best to compare qualities online. It's hard to guess...

Holy cow! Per month $100? I would like to get back on tangy tangerine, but even so that would be like $35-40 for a 6 week supply.

I guess if it is quality?....

I try to view it as "isn't your health worth that?" but to be honest we don't HAVE $100 a month. It may last longer. Sometimes I miss doses. If we had the money for it, I sure would buy it. It's nice.

By any chance do you have the April Fools 2008 EI set? Or if not just the GIANT Spork?

Miss you, Chi. I know it's been pretty busy for you but you've been pretty quiet the past several days. Hope all is well.

Izumi, I posted last. XDD

@zig
I do have the set, yep!

Oh you're waiting for me to post? I didn't know that! I was thinking you were busy or something. I know you were dealing with moving and something about a couch. I saw from Kin's Facebook that the couch is there, and Terra has already been making the place her home. :P

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I missed you too. Been wandering around aimlessly trying to find someone to talk to...and have like intelligent, longwinded conversations.

These new whippersnappers and their inability to post longer than a tweet! *grabs back and hobbles with her cane*

I wanted to make some pithy reply that was akin to a tweet, but then realized I couldn't think of one. :(

Yeah, we're mostly moved now. The bedroom is the biggest piece left, and I suppose some of the kitchen. The dresser and night stand are in the kitchen in their boxes, and without those put together, I can't get the bedroom sorted. Not huge deals though!

How's stuff there?

Eh trying to hang in there. Aaron starts a 3 week stint at Walmart here in town working 11pm-7ams. I'm still working my 10:30am-7pms. Kinda sucky, but at the same time I don't want to give up my day shift. I may play hell getting it back.

Hoping really soon Aaron finds permanent employment. This taking things day to day stuff is pretty stressful. :>

Been feeling kinda up and down about it. I was feeling pretty good most of the day at work but now I feel drained and kinda depressed. Don't want to fall asleep yet as Aaron is wanting to go to the store and take me with him. I want to spend some time with him too.

Day to day is ridiculously stressful, for sure.

Hang in there. Things will hopefully get better, and hopefully you will both have some job security in the upcoming months. It sounds like it's anything for a paycheck right now, which doesn't leave a lot of room for fulfilling work. At least it sounds like with the gaming company you get some form of interaction you like, more so when you can talk to customers about games of interest.

I'd talk more, but it's 11 and my eyes are burning. Plus it sounds like you'll head out soon to get to the store. Have a good evening. <3

Originally Posted by Chi

Izumi, I posted last. XDD

@zig
I do have the set, yep!

How much for the set?

I sure as hell hope so, Chi. Kind of sick of this kind of existence. We bought 6 months of stability, and it felt wonderful. I was hoping it was going to last, but the HR department and the place Aaron was working drug their feet and now the contract is up. They still need a machinist, and deep down I'm hoping he gets called in for that interview. At the same time I'm not expecting anything to come from it. He says he's putting out more applications and calling around...nothing has come back yet.

I just hope I don't lose my sanity being along for so long now that we're on different shifts. I really hate the idea of it...a lot. It's just that the temp agency will deny his unemployment claims if he turns it down, and it's not worth risking changing my hours for a couple weeks. By the time scheduling CHANGES my hours he will only have a week or two left. It sucks.

I'm about ready to say fuck it and go to bed. I don't want to go out...just Aaron thinks it would be good. Who WANTS to go out to the grocery store when there really isn't any money we can spend anyways?

@Zig
I use the highest MP sale. :)

@Izumi
I really hope the transition to this schedule creates something more positive in the long run. :(

Okay, I'll take it. Should I start the trade or would you like to? It should be 6,700 right?

Yep, that's right. I can send you a trade. Thanks a bunch! :)

Great, thanks!

Enjoy it!

Chi!!

Just had a glimmer of hope today. Aaron went to the temp agency for his drug test and screening again and he spoke with his caseworker (whom he has known for several years now and she apparently has a 'thing' for him from before...but hey that's another story.) The bad news is they didn't get the background for Walmart done in time for him to work tonight. That makes 4 days this week with no pay. HOWEVER, she says a place that is literally not even 15 minutes away from our house is looking for a replacement for a worker who is retiring. It would be mostly clerical work with the ocassional hopping on a highlo to check stock. She said that the lowest they have ever paid is $10 and he would likely have a long term temp contract between $10-12, but they only hire through this temp agency and the last 4 people she has sent over there to work have gotten permanent jobs. She says she thinks that this place would end up hiring him on a permanent basis, and said she has only sent two job applications for this position, but Aaron had more qualifications and they seemed to have a preference for him. We won't know for a few weeks as they are looking to hire someone in around May 10th, but still it's a lead!!!

Oh and that machinist position may still pan through... not banking on it.

That's awesome news!! Keep me posted!

I'd write more but I overslept and need to GTF ready and out the door.

That's cool. I kinda tumbled out of bed at the last minute, so I have very little time. Today is my friday though!!! Woot!