Today we have accumulated one month's pay into bills. In one day. One month's pay. For both of us. I have no choice but to be positive, because what's the point in dwelling? The car is going to be at least $3000 in repairs, and the dental (for me) was close to $800. It looks like Cole needs a root canal judging from what symptoms I see, but he won't go. Going to have to "force" him (yeah, right). O_o I really hope this is it for a while. We're not going to get the credit card paid off any time soon, that much is clear.

I... hated high school. Truly. I despised every last aspect of it because I was dealing with enough stuff at home that I couldn't connect with anyone. I did indeed try to, but I couldn't. I just had my 10 year reunion, and I miss nothing. I DID love college, however, so I know it's not me being negative. Pam may hate high school and love any other thing she pursues later. I was very much the way you describe Pam. I am not now, of course.

I don't feel your issues are much more complicated. I feel that you, too, are hesitating to pursue anything other than what you're currently doing because change is frightening. Maybe I'm wrong though. There is only so long you can postpone driving out of fear. I don't say it nonchalantly, mind. I am frightened (seriously frightened) of driving in the city. I had to do it last week and I'm still frightened by it. I'm at the point where it's now annoying me, and the way I work, it means I'll practice it more soon.

Some day you'll hit a threshold point where you won't let yourself be in your way anymore. It doesn't matter if it hits now or when your'e 50. When it hits, don't hesitate. Remember, I went to school with 50 year olds going into the same exact field. Age isn't an indicator for anything. We try life from any particular angle until it no longer works, and then we figure out a new direction. Right?

I guess that's how I should approach it. I'm getting better as I age, not being so impatient and also not seeing things quite so negatively. I'm hoping eventually to come out of my shell and pass that driving test.

I heard on Facebook that your total was pretty high. That sucks. It makes you feel like you're just that much further from getting back on track. You're right -- there's not anything you can really do so complaining will just make it worse. I'm sure Cole is only dragging his fear due to finances and possibly fear. Aaron had a really nasty diving accident when he was 18 and shattered the majority of his teeth, nearly died too. They said if he were to be 5 pounds heavier he would of been dead...the doctors did. He is still dealing with the shattered teeth that his mom's insurance/medicaid didn't pay back then. He's got a broken tooth that has been abscessing on and off. We're trying to wait until better circumstances before he finally gets it taken care of.

I've also got to see the doctor about a problem I've been having for months. Nothing that is life threatening. It's uncomfortable, and embarrassing quite frankly...I'm actually too embarrassed to mention it publicly. You know me...that takes some doing. I'm getting in as soon as we're insured if it hasn't cleared up by then. Aaron has a formal interview this week...when the ink dries he will have another 3 months before he would be eligible. Crossing my ts and dotting my is nothing catastrophic happens in the meantime.

I'm also another round pissed with the exwife. Aaron had the papers sent to her house for child support and she got them Monday. He mentioned it to her today and she got defensive and said that she doesn't have to do anything. Aaron tried to tell her if she doesn't return them that they will have to publicly make a court date to settle it, and be inconvenienced. He then quickly changed the subject as she shot a dirty look in response. It looks like instead of doing things amicably we will have to pay $60 in court fees, have him miss a day of work unpaid to get this whole thing taken care of. I guess I shouldn't of expected anything less. I told Aaron he better damn well backdate as far as he can go with Pam living with us. He says for the month of September for sure, but she's been living here since mid-to-late July, and we've still been paying full child support for two kids.

Then like I said Aaron couldn't bring himself to take gas money from her, given the circumstances. Then top it off with the fact she's been hounding to pay off the $3k in medical bills she's racked up right now. Really?

Bah...Sorry I REALLY needed that off my chest. Aaron won't really listen to me rant about her anymore, and I'm kind of at a lack of people to talk about it with. My mom just gets annoyed with me, and my friends....well lets not go there.

Feel free to PM me or FB it. It must be pretty bad if you don't want to say it publicly.

Money is always going to suck, I've come to the conclusion. Seriously. I thought we had a plan to get ahead, and you saw the FB post. What's the point in stressing? There is always going to be an unforeseen bill or need. It's... not worth the stress it causes.

You can't control her crappy behavior. It's money. Eventually the child support will be turned back around, and hopefully it'll help. When will you know for sure if Aaron gets more stable work and the medical?

I'm thinking within the next week or two. That will help significantly as his pay will shoot up by a couple of bucks at the very least. My fingers are crossed. His old supervisor, his friend (who is very high up on the QA train there), and others who work there have all said if his boss didn't want him there he would of been long gone. He's done 600+ hours at the job he's been and it's just having to clear another background check, a drug test and a formal interview. Fingers crossed. I think with that life would be so much less stressful. Once the child support gets taken care of I think we will finally be living decently. Not like we're going to financially have it made, but we won't be nearly as hard up as we are now.

Fingers crossed for you guys! I hope all goes well.

I'm hoping our car is finished by Saturday. It's a pain to get rides to and from work. >.> It's likely not going to be done until next week though. I kinda pushed him a bit to try and get a move on with it as Bangor isn't a quick trip for us.

Bumming rides does feel very uncomfortable. Aaron was doing that when he first got hired in to help defray some of the costs. It helped a bit but eventually his friends stopped driving him as his new position he had to be at work 15 minutes earlier. His friends didn't want to be inconvenienced. I wasn't thrilled at that, but then again they were doing us a favor.

I gave my mom some gas money, not because I had to but because I didn't want to inconvenience her. At this rate I'll be bumming more rides. :P

It's cool she's helping you out like that. I think my mom put in a similar situation would too if she could, but she'd make sure to make it known how much of an inconvenience I was. Knowing that would more than likely cause me not to ask unless she was the last alternative.

Luckily mine isn't doing that. I think she's happy I'm filling in at the family business as she gets to see me more often. It's been dodgy for a while (relationship-wise) but we're good, and we're working excellently together, which helps.

That's awesome to hear that you two are getting along better, and that you're also working well together in a business setting. I know that if I were to do something similar with my mother she would micro manage it and we would butt heads. We did a lot back when I was growing up, and even when I moved back in.

I think this time around is different because I'm different. The old stuff isn't getting to me right now, and I hope it stays that way.

Happy news! Aaron got a call saying he has a potential job offer pending his drug test and background check. Same place he's at, same position he's been doing -- $2.50 more an hour. 3 months from his official hire date he will have health insurance. HEALTH INSURANCE FOR CHRISTMAS!! RAAAAH~~~

Also...In very surprising news. The exwife mailed the paperwork off so now we won't have to pay $60 in filing fees, take a day off of work and drive to the courthouse AND it will be processed faster. I'm hoping within a month's time we will finally get that much needed financial relief.

...Then it's on to catching up on bills.

Anyways, Pam wants me to help her make crab ragoons. I'll pop in later. :3

Sounds like things are lookin up for you Izu! About time ! :)

I know!!! I'm soooo relieved. I just hope the time goes by fast. I can't wait to finally get caught up and actually have money for other non-essential stuff.

I haven't gotten to go into town and just have a fun day of it in a long long time.

Wouldn't that be awesome! I so know how it feels to be so burdened with bills. :(
Im happy i have a bit extra to donate to mene these days. Was pretty tight for awhile there.

Awesome news!! ^___^ Yay!!

Thanks for the Bloom, Roachi. <3

Man, I'm sick. I assume I'm actually sick and not having some prolonged allergic reaction to the dental work I had on Tuesday. I tend to get sick with chemicals and whatnot, usually with swelling and overall nastiness. Buuuut, Terra also has a mild case of the sniffles. I think she gave me her "mild" and now it's gone full-blown in me.

Drinking lots of tea and honey today. x_x

Hey Chi, how do you feel about the Poor Bertie Bear? I have one I can sell/trade and I am really interested in the Oriental Fan..

I already have one. I'm really only interested in items on my buy list or art right now. (: Sorry to be a pain!

Ewww about the sick thing. :( I'm surprised I'm not in the same bandwagon with the stress and lack of sleep.

Hope you start feeling better soon.

Originally Posted by Chi

Awesome news!! ^___^ Yay!!

Originally Posted by Chi

Thanks for the Bloom, Roachi. <3

Man, I'm sick. I assume I'm actually sick and not having some prolonged allergic reaction to the dental work I had on Tuesday. I tend to get sick with chemicals and whatnot, usually with swelling and overall nastiness. Buuuut, Terra also has a mild case of the sniffles. I think she gave me her "mild" and now it's gone full-blown in me.

Drinking lots of tea and honey today. x_x

Haha i thought that was you.
I really need funds for my GCP. How much did you want for yours? Would you take 150k?

I won Zombie Pixies auction for the GCP for 145k. But it looks like she might not want to go through with the trade. Because she's been online but hasn't responded in her exchange thread, which is unusal for her lol.
So maybe she changed her mind, or wants to give it to Linnea.

I'm still gonna hold out for items on my buy list or art, I think. If it changes I'll let you know. :3

Thanks Izumi. I hope it passes. Earlier was kinda worrisome when I floated in and out of consciousness in the bathroom. xD That was a one time thing though..

No probs <3

Ooh, okay. That's fine. :3 I was just curious.

Thanks guys. <3