Why so grumpy?

*might be delayed as I need to go hop in the shower real quick so I can get ready for work*

*hops in the shower with Barty*

Nothing now, babe. *snuggle* :)

*sits and watches the two interact* Woof!

What's wrong Kin? Get called in to work? :>

Actually, yes. :(

Maybe it was a premonition.

Hey Bartuc, hey Izumi. I was finishing with inventory organization. :XD Now I'm selling to get some more gold on my charity account.

I'm not grumpy, but tired and achy. I may go back to bed when he goes to work.

I'll buy all of your jan '10 CIs. (srsly)

edit: Nevermind, you sheister.

Shyster? Autobuys can be haggled.

Don't make me get out the hammer.... :XD

Mmm I'm glad I'm not out the door already. Only have to do those early starts twice a week. I love having time to wake up.

I may have to borrow the hammer. >.>

I like having time to wake up too. My mother took my nephew to school today, so I didn't have to do anything other than get up at 6:30 and get his snack/make sure he was ready. Win!

Yay I bet that was nice! :heart:

Are you getting the hang of having a kid around on a constant basis? Everything changes it seems, it no longer becomes about either of us and it's all about getting the kids taken care of first and foremost. I mean they're getting to the age where they're not totally useless, but at the same time the 8 year old will not have the wherewithall to make themselves a sandwich, his sister will get right to it. Such a big difference in only two years...

Nothing really changed. It's not a new thing for me; it's just been a while.

I just wish I weren't so cranky lately. I've been a downright bear for the past 3 days and I find my patience is thin. Maybe it'll pass soon.

Sounds like the hormones are kicking in! :gonk:

According to my husband he said watching his exwife through the stages of her pregnancy she would have unbelievable mood swings she'd go through and blamed it on the hormonal shit that happens when you're pregnant.

I think part of him doesn't want to see what I'd be like like that...not to mention my dad told me once my mother was 'normal' until she got pregnant with my brother and then that was like the crux to change. Listing to my parents bitch about one another was always awkward but interesting.

I think on my end it's a combination of being tired, being physically ill, wanting to sleep all the time... it just makes me cranky. I imagine some of it is hormones, but I'm definitely not being a bitch when everything "should" be okay. I usually am grumpy when I feel like I've had no sleep.

I guess I need to start going to bed earlier. 10:30-11:00pm is too late I think. I wake up feeling unrested.

Yah I know that feeling too well, but then again it isn't hormonal and usually it's because I forgot a dose of my medicine. The name brand, extended release capsules were one a day and if I missed a dose I felt like I have the hangover from hell. These generic knock offs I have to take twice a day and when I forget, I tend to get pretty agitated and emotional without any rational reason. Last time I was watching a documentary on the boy who was taken to south america once his parents split up, his mom died, and his dad (David Goldman...I think is his name) was fighting a horrible custody battle to get him back. When he said the words of "biological right" it triggered an influx of emotions and I felt incredibly saddened. I switched the TV off and came out into the livingroom, and was on the computer surfing. Aaron tried to ask me what was wrong, and I knew that he would tell me I was being irrational and to 'knock it off', so I just told him we talked about it and I'm getting bent out of shape for no reason. Well I was watching the documentary in the bedroom and I shut it off shortly after I heard that statement, and well Aaron flipped the television over to it for me (cause he knows I love watching crap like that) and I started to clam up again and get really moody. I finally buckled and told him what my issue was, and I said it wasn't anything else I could really do but wait for the meds to kick in and give me time to settle down.

At the end of the night, he approached me very carefully and asked me if I ever been told if I couldn't have children and I'm like uhh no, but at the same time you've made it painfully obvious it isn't what you want...if we are to have children it will be an 'oops baby' and it won't be planned or wanted (by him). I also told him I really don't want to feel like the only reason we're having it is because it was a mistake, or because it's 'all for me' as I knew that would be potential argument fodder and could end up use both resenting one another. I can't expect him to want to have another kid just to make myself happy, and at the same time I can't really bring another child willingly into the world without first straightening out my shit. (For instance...we don't have enough bedrooms for the two kids to have their own, which we'll eventually need to straighten out, but once again at least they have a bedroom! (They sleep in the livingroom of their mother's boyfriend's house... :( )

Kin and I are fortunate in that we're not suffering for space. Our apartment is very good, and cheap considering the heat is included. I just hope the building stays open for the next 5 years. More would be ideal, but the upper apartments are in rotten condition (black mold due to leaking that can't be fixed).

What did he say about having a baby? Did he agree that he still doesn't want one? Maybe he'll change his mind later, when your finances improve and there's more room. :hug:

Possibly...but that's after I finish my schooling, and then he wants to go to school. So you're talking a few years out before that happens. By the time we're financially sound and ready I might have missed my chance.

But you know...I would seriously consider adopting. I think there are so many kids out there that deserve a chance and I think that would make me feel rather selfless. I feel selfless at times for how much I love my step kids, irregardless of the situation, and I would take them in my care in a heartbeat. I told them they are both more than welcome to come live with us.

I think adoption's a good idea. Maybe that will be the ultimate road in the end. :)

If we have a boy, maybe we can go get him a little asian sister. :)

Aww that'd be so cool Kin! Goodluck though, as I heard that those kind of adoptions involve a lot of paperwork, money and time.

I'm back from school. Kitty already jumped in my lap to love on me and purr. I have some reading to do for tomorrow. Nothing too heavy and I've only got 10 pages (which it has a lot of pictures and example papers...it's my writing book for English...).

I've got some Psych to do to prep for Monday, but yah that's for Monday. I'd like to get started on it little by little though.

I've also picked up the paperwork for one girl in English class to petition her decision on Pell. She's a girl who went through Michigan Works because she was turned down for Pell. If she can bring documentation to back up her reduction in finances (she should, because she's a displaced worker) she should be able to get the decision overturned.

I've also told another girl in math class I'm coming in early so I can help her with her math. She's a sweet lady, a little younger than my mom, who has signed up for technical drafting because she told the school counselor she'd like to make greeting cards. Now she seems to be having trouble with Elementary Algebra, and I had a glance at her schedule and like next year she's suppose to be in Trig?!? (I wouldn't even DREAM of going in Trig class...just thinking of it hurts my brain.) I'm hoping that if she does struggle through this class she re-evaluates her schedule and thinks about something more suitable for her. In the meantime, I'll do my best to help her.

So how are your days going?

I'm glad that my program didn't require anything beyond Algebra or Statistics, and I didn't have to take Algebra. My SATs were high enough so that it was excused.

I'm gonna get ready to fill out the rest of my MaineCare application so I can get on insurance to cover my pregnancy. Then I need to get my nephew and hopefully start on laundry. At least one load. /fail ;-;

I've got it all washed...I just have to fold and put it away.... /fail

Eventually I want to get to it. Well before the kids come over, so we don't get clothes mixed up.

I just hate laundry. I always have. Most times I wait until I have no clothes left, whichever goes first. :XD And then at that point I'll break down and do it.

In this case, I need pants. I've been wearing pajamas to work. I have a clean pair of jeans in my backpack (from our flight to Wisconsin), but I know it's stale with cigarette smoke, and thus a dry heave fest waiting to happen. :XD

Bleh I hate cigarettes all around. They're smelly, dirty, expensive, and they do a lot of damage. I wouldn't touch them with a 40 ft pole. Igh.

My vice is dishes. I wait until they pile up and are unbelievably a pain in the ass to wash. I hate hate hate sticking my hands in dirty water.

Laundry I love. I love fresh laundry. I just don't have the gumption to fold it and put it away right now. I never let the basket get too over full before doing it, having it pile up irks me. (not only that but I don't have enough bras to last a week...eww.)

I have tons of bras and whatnot, so I never run out over the course of a week. Maybe that's the way to get me to do laundry more often. I need fewer clothes. :o

I've said that for a long time now. :)