You'll have to let me know if your program (either before you get your Associate's or whenever you go for your Bachelor's) asks a lot of papers in the Psych courses. Mine did.

I'm glad you had a good time hanging out even if not much got done in the end. :XD Sometimes just hanging out is more important.

Oh god yah. I love a little girly gossip. I use to have my pal up north to go swap our stories with. I miss her and wish she didn't live so darn far away.

It's nice having another person who can be really forward and honest when it comes to relationships and sex. It's fun to swap stories and really to get a fresh perspective.

You know I feel so bad for her though cause she is such an attractive girl, yet feels so insecure about her looks. She has the perfect curvy body I would KILL for! I just kinda told myself it's kinda stupid to beat myself up over something like that because Aaron loves me the way I am, even if I am on the heavy side.

I still think I would be pretty damn hot if I could loose like 80 pounds though. And I'd be so much cooler and down to earth than any of these fake chicks in the media.

I think I'll have a goal to lose 35lbs in the next 12 months. I'd feel a lot better.

Did I tell you that I've just dropped a lot of weight throughout this pregnancy? It's not due to a lack of eating, either. Nor a lack of vitamins or anything else nutritionally-related. I'm not really sure how much I've really lost, because I don't know how much in me right now is baby, extra blood, fluid, etc.

According to the scale I'm about 20lbs less than what I was before getting pregnant. o.O I'll be interested to see what my weight will be once I recover from delivery. Weird!

Edit: I forgot to mention that I don't even look pregnant and I'm 5 1/2 months along now. I know because I've seen my belly lift, but people who don't know I'm pregnant wouldn't have a clue. :XD

Oh my gosh that's weird...usually people complain they put ON weight. :o

Maybe that's what I need to loose weight...I'm not willing to find out though. :XP

I'm annoying Aaron tonight by listening to cheesy lovesongs on Youtube. Right now it's Extreme's More than Words...I love this song though!!

Yeah, it shocks me too. :XD If being pregnant is what's going to eventually get all the excess off of me, well... I'm out of luck! Can't stay in a constant cycle of creating babies!

I like that song too. >.> ... <.<

Oh he got SO annoyed with me listening to love songs last night. I just was truly in the mood to listen to mush, which I get every now and then. I was the weird child who loved to listen to Delilah and other dedication shows. I use to love sappy love songs. <3

Same here. I always listened to Delilah when I was a kid. xD

Aww I don't feel like such a goof anymore. I thought I was weird for doing it, but I loved listening to letters of people going through tough times and how wonderful and powerful love was for getting through it. I'm a sucker for a good love song, and I've hinted at Aaron a few times I wish he'd serenade me. I'd just melt in his arms. :heart:

Unfortunately, though, he's not a real romantic. He's really loyal and trustworthy but he doesn't really do romance very well. Of course I probably don't either. :XP

Mine doesn't do romance much either. I am a lover of romance though. :XD He has far too many other redeeming qualities for me to complain though, like you say.

I think I liked Delilah so much because it kept me somewhat connected by knowing the world sucks all around.

Yah same here. I wouldn't trade Aaron for anything. I love the bastard too much. (I say bastard as he called me a crazy bitch last night when we were having a little 'pillow-talk' and he's like but I'd not have you any other way. I tried to pry it out of him as he has to have a reason for thinking this way, but he really couldn't tell me. I honestly think it's because he really didn't give it thought as to WHY, just flat out said it... And yes this is a guy who will openly admit he looks at porn, when he does it and I know where his stash is and what he looks at. I know all the women he slept with, he's gone through the quirks of the relationships, I've read his own personal journal and found love letters tucked inside there...I honestly feel like I know the most about him and if I ever *did* wonder he'd flat out tell me. I love that about him though. My parents were WAY the hell opposite and put on this really mysterious aura about them. I didn't find out until after I left the house they were people who partied hard, did drugs and probably lots of promiscuous stuff that I'm happy it just stays mysterious...*shudder*)

I can't imagine being in a relationship with someone without knowing all that stuff. Many do though and make it work... but it's not for me.

I have a pretty general idea of my parents, but I learned it as I grew up, most of it being when I was close to 18. Everything else was assumed. :XD

Not sure what I wanna do with my daughter. I don't think I have anything to hide. No oddities, no hidden secrets..

That's how I try to approach Pam. I tell her how I feel and I know that whether she wants to or not she has my opinion on how things should be, and I flat out tell her if she asked. I feel she's at that age where she's young enough to still listen, yet old enough to start thinking about complex issues and thoughts. She's seen some of the nasty things life has to offer even if she is only 10 years old, and I remember my parents and grandparents trying to pass little nuggets of information onto me. It didn't all sink in, but thinking back I can be "Oh yaaah I remember grandma TOLD me never to start shaving my legs, and dammit I wish I would of listened!".

Now when it came to Tristan, he flat out asked me "Tara, do you believe in God?" He's 7, just starting to grasp basic math and reading...he's still not ready to hear my explanation. I told him when he gets older I will talk to him about how I think and feel and left it at that. Besides, I find that harder to talk to Aaron's kids about because our views differ. Sex, drugs, and all the other 'big' issues outside of religion we seem to have very similar ideas so it's easier and I feel more confident approaching. I think that's part of my hesitation. I did tell Aaron that he asked, and my intentions and he was fine with it.

I'm nearly positive we'll have to have the basics of sex talked about before Kindergarten. I learned from friends, and I'd rather my kid learn from me. And yes, Kindergarten was when I learned. I think it's because this area is so small... but I don't know.

I figure anything else I'll answer with how understanding the kid is at her age.

Well I try to tailor it within reason for Pam too, but at the same time if she asks me about making mistakes I'll be honest with her and I do want her to feel comfortable coming to me with problems.

I'm trying to get through to her that her education is important and that just because we don't go to parent teacher conferences doesn't mean we don't care. Also, she *has* to start developing her own initiative too. She apparently has a friend who does really well in math and I said to her you should sit down with her and ask her to help you. It'll help her friend cement her knowledge while hopefully giving her a different perspective to approach it. We just simply are not in the position where we can sit over Pam's shoulder and make her do her homework. Unfortunately, her mother isn't pushing the subject either. What do you expect from a woman who drops out at 10th grade though...*sighs*

If I hope for one thing, it's that our daughter can watch us finish up our careers at a young age and see that it's important. She may be a little too young to remember by the time it's over with, though.

I just know that one of the great ways of teaching is through observation. I'm sure it will work out for Pam either way. She has time to find her footing. :yes:

On that note, I'm gonna go for a bit. I'm going to clean out the freezers. The little one won't take any effort, but the big one will be horrible. :gonk: See you later!

Ok! Take care and it was nice chatting.

Man I'm really struggling with these papers. I need to bite the bullet and just do the damn thing...even though it's irking the hell out of me I don't have statistics of how many gay/lesbian families have kids.

I think I need to take some of my gluten-free tortillas to my aunt. In early pregnancy I bought a ton of them from my local co-op. With foods like that costing so much money, getting them in bulk saves a TON. The downside? Sometimes you can only purchase these things in an extreme quantity, so unless you have someone willing to go halves with you, it's a risk of everything just spoiling.

Unfortunately, after I bought them, I started my morning sickness and couldn't stomach the thought of eating them. (Grr.) There's no way I'll finish them up before they get freezer-burned, so unless Cole is up for eating quesadillas all summer long I think it's best I just share them. :XD I'm up for trying to make things with them now that I'm over all the nausea.

I ended up moving all the "bread" and "prepared" food stuffs to the fridge freezer, so that all of our meat stays in the chest freezer. The past two years we've gotten our beef at a lower cost by buying a quarter or half a cow from a local farm. The meat is far superior in taste than what's in the stores. (But hey... farm fresh!)

We need to sort through what's left so that we can make room for this year's lot. We have a couple roasts and some ground beef left (and let me tell you, that stuff is so convenient), but I think that's it.

I just wish I cared for game meats. We have deer and moose in the freezer, but I've just lost my taste for a lot of it. ;_;

Heh ground beef is a STAPLE in this house. It is SO versatile that as soon as the Angus Certified Ground Round goes on sale I pick up several packets of it. If we had the money to buy a portion of a cow like that, I'd even be for that. I'm sure buying it from a local farm is far better tasting and they hopefully take much better care of their cows as well. I know that Chickens and Eggs taste so much better farm fresh...my parents raise some.

Speaking of dinner, I have no idea what to cook...and my kitchen looks like a bomb hit it. I made a DELICIOUS fried chicken meal with jalapeno cornbread and redbeans and rice. Aaron loved it. :3 (He said he just wished I picked a better day to cook it -- spicy food is prone to giving sleeping problems. :( )

Today he said just make something that is more mild and savory...no more hotstuff until a day he has off. lol.

MMM quesidilas sound SO good. Wish I could take some freebies!

We've been lucky in that we save up money beforehand or we take it out of the student loans (the food budget portion). With all the meat purchased in one go, the actual weekly grocery bills are far less. It evens out cost-wise, but only over several months. You can't get T-Bones in the store for about $2.50 a pop. :drool:

Tonight I'm going to make chicken, spinach and pesto pizzas with salad on the side. I need to do dishes first though. The counters are a mess..

Come do my dishes too, Chi? :gonk:

I have a dishwasher now, but I still don't enjoy doing dishes. I blame my parents as that became my 'chore' around the house. Laundry I love doing, but I can't because Aaron has to check out our washer and make sure we aren't leaking. The carpet was soaked yesterday after I did a couple loads. I'm wonder if there's a leak in the hose maybe? I don't know much when it comes to house stuff...That's what I love about Aaron...he's My Mr. Fix-it. ;)

I think once we have a little extra money and we make for damn sure the chest freezer works we will be doing a LOT more bulk buying. I love being well stocked up as I hate running out of anything...

No way. :XD I think I have two loads of my own to do. *smites the kitchen*

We were lucky with our chest freezer. Our friends had a family member wanting to get rid of theirs for $100. We jumped on it. It's been in perfect working condition since we got it a couple years ago. I love that thing. ;-; <3

I love being well stocked up, too. If I had more cupboards I'd also get canned things in bulk. Hell, if I had my way I'd never grocery shop again, save for fresh produce. (I like fresh fruits more than canned, and salad is made of win, plus there's always the need of soy milk and stuff...)

I hope the washer gets fixed soon. Hopefully it's a quick fix!

I'm gonna go get that first load of dishes done. I'll be back soon. Shouldn't take me long. I can't clean the cupboards until all the dishes are out of the way, and I know there are two loads. :XD

*runs through with a ray gun* Imma chargin my lazers. PEW PEW PEW PEW

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OK have fun! (Heh, heh...)

I think I might go get mine out of the way...Ohhh and I need to call MIL. I'll do that first.

Don't make me call Jelly to ban you. :XD I can't do it anymore Juru!! :hug: How is the weekend treating you, lovely?

Izumi, I have the first load done, but the second is going to suck. I have to clean the fridge out too. *wails*

As if. PFFT. She gave me the code for god mode and I got unlimited ammo too so there!

Weekend is a case of having no money to go anywhere so we're sitting at home doing nothing and the kids are annoying each other because they can't exist in the same space for very long but it hasn't been the whole day, just in spurts so not bad. I might drag them off outside for a walk or something just to get them out of the house.

Clean the fridge later. It'll still be there.

How are you?