YOU ARE OFFICIALLY MY IDEAL MOTHER.
;-; <3

What's a good age to start wondering about it? @[email protected]
I'm freshly-turned 17, but I feel bad whenever I feel curious about it. D:
And my friends somehow know a lot, so I never get their jokes.

*laughs* You're normal, if that's what you're worried about Windy. I bet they don't know nearly as much as they joke on about, either.

I wasn't 'active' until I was 19, but definitely about 16-17 that kinda stuff was on my mind.

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I'd strongly suggest waiting until you find someone special though. Don't rush into that kinda stuff just to fit in. You'll have plenty of time in your life to have those experiences that I don't regret waiting until I was out of high school.

Oh I know. ^___^
I'm just kind of curious. I feel like a bad person whenever I think about it.
xD

Also, is it normal not to freak out about porn? o-o"
I'm pretty sure my boyfriend has none, but I'm not particularly bothered about it though. I mean...they're pictures. xD

You know my feelings on porn are this. (And this is EXACTLY what I told Aaron.) I haven't a problem with it as long as you're honest about it and don't try to hide or deny the fact that you do. I would be more pissed off if after he swore up and down he didn't do it and I found some on his computer, rather than he was upfront and honest with me from the get go.

It's not the same as cheating, and Aaron has said that he doesn't enjoy it as much as actual intimacy between us and that he doesn't compare me to any of the women in the videos either. I really don't have any problems as it isn't actual cheating...he's never going to meet these women anyways.

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And the whole awkwardness of sex goes away once you get older. That is perfectly normal at your age to feel a bit sensitive about the whole subject. It's all kinda new and taboo when you're a teen.

Ohkay, so I'm normal.
xD

You have no idea how relieved I am right now. I thought I was just a crazy person.

haha, that's very true. Thank you! >w< <3

*laughs* You're too cute, Windy. ^_^ You know normal is a relative term, right? :XP

Yea, that's true, I was comparing myself to what I thought was the socially-correct response.

yay. xD
IS THAT A DELCATTy?!

It is not ANY Delcatty. It is a SHINY Delcatty on GPX+. ^_^ I was pretty chuffed when it hatched.

Speaking of which, I haven't really played GPX+ in a few weeks now. Have so many other things to occupy my time with that I'm glutted for choice. :XD

What the heck is GPX+?
o-o"

It's one of those clicky websites. You click them so many times to get them to hatch. Kind of like the whole dragon caves/unicreatures thing but I think more fun...somehow.

Oooh, I see.
xD

I like Delcatty/Skitty more than Glameow/Purugly though.

I hate the new generation ones, they're so ugly.
T_T

I was fast asleep last night. >>;

I agree with Izumi about the intimacy curiosities. You're normal. I was experimenting when I was your age (I had an odd relationship with my first ex), but I didn't have sex until 21. I was waiting, and I'm really glad I did. By the time I finally did it, there wasn't a sense of "OMGWTFBBQ *anxiety death*", probably because I was older.

Regarding your relationship with Gary, I'd also feel sort of obligated to stay with him because of his loss. I'd feel like giving him another wouldn't be at all healthy for him. However, even knowing this, I'd also feel that I deserve time to grow and develop on my own.

I can't imagine not being with Kin, and it took a long while to get where we are. I could have settled for someone who was REALLY nice, but why settle? Settling means just that. Sometimes just taking what's there means less fulfillment later on in life, and that's when it gets difficult.

Kin and I have similar interests in about 90% of the things we do. Like Izumi, there are days we're quiet, but it's because we've been in the same room for probably more than 24 consecutive hours! But, they say that tolerating silence is a good thing. But, seriously. He is my best friend, and we can be in each other's space for weeks at a time and not be bothered. I'd rather go shopping and socializing with him than anyone else. It doesn't feel the same without him now. >_>; (And yes, I am EXTREMELY LUCKY to be with someone who loves to take women clothes and shoes shopping, and really doesn't care what we do so long as we can geek out on occasion with the stuff he wants to do. Fine by me, I say!)

If you choose to end it with Gary, try not to feel guilty. You didn't cause the situation of his mother's suicide, and you certainly have no control over how people act. You can only have control over yourself. I'd feel in such a bind, but it IS okay and reasonable to look at the relationship as how you put it. If you feel you want to explore your options, that's normal, healthy and... I'd do it too! If you're not genuinely happy, it's a signal that you need to change.

If you're not comfortable with ending it first, I'd take Izumi's suggestion and see if there might be SOMETHING out there you two connect with. If you guys can build with that, there may be something to make it work. :3 Good luck Windy.

Well put Chi with the 'why just settle for 'someone'. I think you nailed it on the head.

Oh and Windy...when you finally DO decide to get intimate, don't think that it means he is definitely the one. I have a friend (well I thought she was a friend...I haven't heard from her in awhile) who lost her virginity to this guy who by all accounts sounds like a giant asshole. She's come to me really upset and told me some of the things he's said to her and I told her point blank I wouldn't put up with that.

Well several months later on Facebook she's gotten engaged to him, and while I'm happy for her for finally getting over her marriage jitters I worry that she's just settling for him as he was her first. :/

Yeah, I also agree to that, too. Sex doesn't equal permanent relationship. It's just better when your first time is with someone you trust and care about, and who trusts and cares about you back.

Yes exactly. Especially since you are taking the risk of getting pregnant and the possibility of contracting STIs. Not any form of protection is fool proof. :/

Pretty much!

Man, I'm motivational-ly challenged today. I just ate, so I'm hoping that perks me up. >_>

I'm not all that motivated, either.

Not to mention Aaron isn't feeling well now. He thinks he gave himself food poisoning from eating macaroni salad he made for the picnic. It sat outside for a good hour before he took it back to our house and put it in the fridge. I told him I would of just pitched it. :(

Ack. That's not good. I hope it's not that. x_x;

Me too. He called in sick today. :/

I'm hoping he feels better soon. Food poisoning SUCKS. I seriously felt like dying the last time I had it. Really screwed me up and had me bed ridden for 2 days. :o

I've had two or three stomach bugs this pregnancy, which I assume is linked to the higher sensitivity to older food while pregnant. I wouldn't wish it on anyone either. It sucks the complete life out of you. Not to mention it freakin' hurts the stomach!

Though even saying this, macaroni salad sounds REALLY GOOD right now. *facepalm*

Ewww...I don't think I want to look at it right now. Equating that with food poisoning really puts me off. :o

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I might go rummage and make myself a sandwich...

Sandwich sounds good, too!! :drool:

I'd kill for a deli turkey sandwich topped with tons of lettuce.

Nope Ham, Salami, and Swiss with mustard. :drool:

That sounds good too. :XD

I'm not sure what to do for dinner. I took out a packet of stew meat from the freezer, but we're reaaaally low on groceries. I'm too tired to bother going to class with Cole (I'd be sitting for 3 hours doing homework or something while he was in class) and grocery shop after. I'm headachy and I've been really ravenous for the past day. o_o

Sounds like us kinda. We have some things but we could use a major shopping trip to stock up. We're still waiting to hear about whether or not unemployment gets extended. My hopes it does, and at that point we will be going then.

We will need to figure out something quick if it doesn't. I didn't pay our ex-landlord this month, and if he calls or tries to chase up on it I'm going to be like look I no longer have ANY income coming in and we're scraping by as it stands. :/

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Anyways my psych homework is calling me. I gotta keep my nose to the grindstone as this week and next are all that's left and I need to go out with a bang. I'll talk to you later, Chi. :)