Ugh, I feel like I could blow my fucking brains out right now. :/

Anyone around? I need a distraction.

BOO!

here's your distraction!

*iz ttly disstrrackted*

Thanks. 8)

you still look sad, I failed at booping people! *pouts away*

STOCKURZ!11ONE! :gonk:

ees okai, Hayne. Wasssup? 8)

I decided to do some more sketching. I still don't consider myself an artist, since I'm just learning. But I'm trying to figure out a style to call my own.

I hate drawing heads. It's like, the worst part. And arms, darn arms! I'm just mostly trying some chibi styles right now. So that perhaps I'll be able to draw here on Menewsha and make a bit more gold.

Once I can get to the scanner, I'll upload my current crappy doodle.

DARN GIANT FLOOZY WONT LET ME ON THE OTHER COMPUTER TO SCAN IT! :illgetu: I am like so fricken' pissed. I'm gonna have a bitch fit. D<

My scanner isn't exactly good to me. It's one of those stupid HP 3 in 1 things. Scanner, printer, copy thingymabob. It only works half the time, the scanner option won't even work! I have to go through MS Paint and then scan it. With that, when it uploads it, it looks like crap. :/

*pokes Jen*

Hello. Once again I'm up past my bedtime. :)

How are you Jen? I'm feeling better. I spoke to Steel on FB and I'm feeling better than I did the other day. :)

Hey there! Good timing! I clicked your username on the bottom of the forum, was going to leave you a visitor message. Then I noticed in your current activity that you were browsing my exchange thread! :XD

I'm up past bedtime, too. 11pm here and I most likely won't go to bed til about 3am. Right now I'm doing okay-ish. I am just so glad that I am alone right now. I don't like being around people for too long. And I've pretty much been pissy the whole day. I need some time to just relax now. Ya know, before I strangle someone with my shoelace...heh.

I do not know who Steel is, but I'm glad that you are doing better. :hug:

I know those days, Jen...I think I had one the other day. I just get really irritable as hell and stupid things can really rub at me the wrong way. Not PMS...not even near time for it. Just rolled out on the wrong side of the bed or something.

Luckily it's just a day kinda thing and I usually feel better after it's over. :P

Haha, Kat. 8)

Izumi - Exactly! People think my ranting is just me over-reacting. But really, there was a reason for everyone pissing me off today. First my step-mother eats all the food in the house. It's getting late, the general store already closed, I still hadn't' eaten anything. My stomach is kicking me and I start crying because I thought I was going to have an attack. I start coughing up saliva and nearly had a heat stroke. I tell her I need food NOW. And she wouldn't share her stash of food that she keeps in her room, because she inhales that herself. And all I needed was some saltine's or something! I ended up going next door and raiding my step-grandmothers cupboard. But not before I nearly drown in my own tears. I walked out to the field behind our house and just threw myself on the grass and cried silently. Bugs crawling on me, sun hitting my sunburn. You'd think that would be enough for one bad day.

But no, a few hours later I come back in the house to scan some doodles and my stepmother is "cleaning" her room (where the computer with the scanner is). She throws a fit that I am in there, which I apologized for. But instead of letting me leave, she mumbles some sick stuff under her breath about me. So I tell her that I should just take my scanner and everything else that is mine in her room, that I have let them borrowed.

AND THEN, my stupid seventeen year old sister comes homes (for once) and starts telling me about how she's tricked some girl into meeting her so she can beat the crap out of her. I rolled my eyes and told her that she is stupid for doing it; and that she's going to go to jail. And she got mad at me because she told me that she already had an alibi. I remarked, "It only takes one person to rat you out." I was implying that I would tell the cops. Firstly, because she's stupid and has been annoying me to the point where I don't even want to claim her as my sister sometimes. And secondly, because it's just stupid to beat someone up. I mean, why not just leave them alone, not hang out, never talk to them again...

And then, before she leaves, I told her to get her shit out of my room. I HATE A dirty house. And she seems to just come into my room and throw MY clothes on the floor (she wears my clothes instead of her own! ...and they don't even fit her, because she's bigger than me.) I told her that if she didn't take them out, I was going to scoop them up and throw them on her own damn floor. And then GUESS FRICKEN WHAT! I open my top dresser drawer (which I use to store beauty products I don't really use too often) and I find THREE tampon inserter tubes WITH FRICKEN BLOOD ON THEM. It's like she changed her tampon in my room or something and then threw the cartridges in my dresser. It totally made me sick, I couldn't stop gagging!

I won't even go into the BS my dad put me through today.

Sorry for the rant. It's just...ugh.

Big post. o_O;;
Too sleepy right now to read it. @[email protected];;

Don't read the last part at all if you do. You might gag just reading it. >___>

And just got around to eating it.
I'm so sorry that you've had such a rough day, Nifer. :'( Wish that we could help.

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And yeah, I agree that that is really disgusting. If I were you, I'd get a lock for my door and keep her the hell out. >_>

I had a lot of other things on my mind, too. I've been struggling with a lot of things. Sometimes I just have to go out to the field and just sleep it off. Other time I'll go into my room and play my guitar for a little while. And other times I'll just listen to good music like Lucy Schwartz.

Yeah, already plan on going to the store tomorrow and buying a lock. I cannot believe how immature my little sister is. She's almost eighteen and she acts like a dumb bimbo. D<

So how are you doing, Suona? :)

@ Nifer - Yeah, sounds like you've been dealing with a lot. Its good that you have some ways to come down, though. I also tend to find reading to help. Allows me to not think about my own problems and just go into a different world. :]

She does sound pretty stupid. And i'm glad you'll be getting a lock. Do you think that your step mom will get pissed about it, though?

And i've been so-so. I have been house sitting for my dad's friends, so been kind of bored. And I missed my baby bird, so I drove home the other day and found him dead. Turns out my mom accidently didn't shut the door all the way when she went to work that morning and the fan had been on high. I was so devistated. But in other news, my sister in law just had her baby today, so i'm an auntie now. :] She's positively adorable, too.

Kaitlin! I just saw your siggy. XD
THAT IS BEAUTIFUL.

I WAS PAYING ATTENTION.
I JUST DIDN'T THINK YOU WERE GOING TO DO IT.