So this entry isn't as emotional as my other ones but it's interesting... I don't remember exactly what I was thinking but nonetheless it's interesting... Here it goes.

4/14/09

I wish I could remember about this diary. It'll never be filled. It's like a time capsule, though. It hold lots of memories. But I never know what to put inside of it and I ramble about irrelevant things. I also noticed that whenever I start writing in it again, it's when I've had a fight with my parents or something depressing has happened. Something extremely depressing. Writing relieves me, if only momentarily of my stresses and pressures. It feels good once in a while. It's really cold right now. Well, it's not could but I'm getting shivers as if it's 20 degrees below or something. I don't even know... I wonder if anyone will ever read this after I'm gone. I wonder what they'll think of me when they're done. I'll never know that. I just thought about how in movies and tv shows little boys always steal their older sister's diaries to read and then tell their parents everything written in them. That would be bad since I always talked about how much I hated them. Now it's hard to stop writing. I should get "started" on my math homework. ;) Maybe I'll make an entry l8er~

5:58 PM

I lost my notebook, most likely at school

kill me now.

I usually write when I'm angry, or have a poem idea that I try to somehow portay my feelings in. Some are just little experiments to see what a poem, or a story line could turn out with just writing the first thing that came to mind. xD

I haven't shown this poem to anyone before because it was an experiment mostly:

I wrote my real life name for ownage purposes. If that made any sense. I'm new to writing poetry, and the punctuation I'm unsure of it, but I took a wing at it either way. My other journal entries are experiments for story ideas. I love creative writing.

dear diary,
damn i hate that fact that once you fall in love it takes forever to forget. I finally understand that quote. It sucks being around him because i cant help but like him a little once more. *sigh* More than that i get jealous of his gf but i hate that because one she doesn't know what happened, and two she doesn't have any thing to do with it *sigh* i really hate life sometimes.....
From,
Akuma-hime

I haven't done this in a longg time.

Dear diary,
My day was pretty fun. I woke up around 11 and went job hunting around the boynton mall with my roomate. subway food is the best. <3
Then after that came back home and took a shower.
I was pretty exausted and thought about going to bed but was too lazy.
My friend eric came and picked me up then we went out to the hooka bar for a couple hours.
Met up with shiela and alex there.
we got bored and played truth or dare their.
Boy was that funny. hahahahaha.
two guys and two girls.
some gay stuffffff.
Just got back not that long ago.

I miss kyle.
I hope he picks me up tomorrow.
=D


Nightttt.

dear diary,
so now i have a boyfriend and its with my really good friend ...
i told him we could try it out but im not sure any more.
I dont feel any thing around him and i know im hurting him but i can't even force myself to you know like him that way. I dont know what to do because either way im going to hurt him this im certain of

wow I havent had a diary for like 8+ years now.... I like this idea.... im going to subscribe to this!


Tuesday December, 29th, 2009:
Dear Diary,

Today was my last day of work it feels so nice to close down the kiosk and know I will be heading home tomorrow, but at the same time I know as soon as I get home I will be sad to see his face and feel my heartbreak all over again... It seems like every relationship around me is crumbling right now.... I have decided even though he told me theres still hope for us i'm not going to just wait around who knows how long it will take for him to get his life back together.... I just keep looking at the calendar and it makes me sad because the day he broke it off was just 41 days from a year long relationship.... I still am very confused... well anyways I'm going to look at all the rental houses I found online this weekend with my future roomys I think we will have a place within two weeks and then i can start moving my stuff out.... I'm sure it will be easier for him to focus on his own damn self when all of my stuff is out.... ugh im getting bitter from this.... i want to be with him but i dont even know... I need to stop thinking about him so much... Its time for me to get some sleep. <3 Syn

I should really keep a diary again. It really helped me overcome my depression and express any great emotion I have had. (maybe I should keep an online journal to save paper and go green xD)

Dear Diary,

It's been awhile, hasn't it? I wonder if it's finally time to clean up the dust you've been collecting all these years. I guess maybe life has been better since the last time I wrote in you. I have a boyfriend now and I love him to pieces. I'm still in school, majoring in biology. Several close friendships have turned frigid and new ones arose from those ashes. All in all, I'm growing up diary, and I have to say that I'm really happy about that. I'm also happy that it'll be a new year soon, but I'm still deciding whether or not I should spend it with my family or friends. I've never been away from my family on new years eve only because it's been regarded as a family holiday. But I'm all grown up now, as they say, so shouldn't I be allowed to make that decision? I do feel some guilt...after all, my parents have always been there for me.

But whether or not I spend it with family or friends, I'll still treasure every single one of them. After all, they have made me who I am today. But I want to change diary...I want to become a better person for all my loved ones. I want to be tougher and more sincere. I want to reach for the stars and not cower away. But will this change actually occur? I mean I've always talked about change, but it never falls through. Maybe...2010 will be different. Maybe...I'll finally be that person I've always wanted to be. But only my willingness and time could only tell...here's hoping...

I had REALLY stupid and short entries, they're super embarassing but i'll post one. XD

"today I saw ethan, he is so hot"

Sadly Ethan is a Douce-bag now-a-days but I can't believe I wrote that. XD

@morgankgoodwi, it is pretty funny if you think about it, but i used to write down EVERY guy I thought was handsome, I sort of feel sorry for my diary, I wouldn't be able to deal with that many pathetic entries. XD

Wednesday December, 30th, 2009:
Dear Diary,

I can't believe this year is almost over.... I got home today at 1pm, I once again got that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach... He isnt home of course but it still hurts to walk into this house... I no longer have to drive two hours to work every week, the promotion is finally done with, its kind of bittersweet... I am so happy its over with but at the same time i'm going to miss the pay I got from there.... so I will still have to drive an hour to work everyday but its only temporary untill I find a closer job...

So I packed up another box today.... well its the only box I had so I cant do much else right now... I cant put it anywhere either untill I get a new place which will hopefully be soon, saturday is the official day to look at houses now... I am going to miss this house... this is so depressing...

I still cant eat much without feeling nausious....I have been forcing myself to eat at least one meal a day and doing my best not to let the toilet have it... I've lost wieght which isnt good... im going to start looking anorexic if this keeps up but im sure I will have my appetite back pretty soon... hopefully

Well I will have more to write in this entry later since i'm going to try to talk with him a little after he gets off work and try to figure things out a little better... I still dont know if I should be trying to fall out of love or if I should keep my hopes... so i'll be back later or maybe it will be in the next entry... <3 Syn

*cough* ermm.. I'll edit this one.

June 30th, 0001 B.C.
Dear Diary,
Yes, I know the year isn't right. Who gives a fuck? Time is meaningless, years will pass and all we will have are memories.
Holy crap, that sounds kinda. . . weird. Anywho, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY. You should buy me stuff. Everyone else did. Including Derrick. He got me a stuffed animal, and I named it after him. Weird, because he's afraid of stuffed animals, like the way I am with sunflowers. Don't ask.. we're weird.
Derrick is my bestiee <3 Because we roll like bread and butter, ya dig? And then he effed ya mother, gave you another brother, and another, blue covers, with the pink all around cus he's gay, any day, roll my way, you feel mee?
Well.. you can't feel me.. I wouldn't let you. Plus, you're a book anyways, you have no handss D;
One of these days I'm going to be a rapper. Not like Lil Kim, she's a slutty whore. But like ME, RAIN. And Derrick can be the gay guitar guy. :]
I'm going to go eat my cake. ITS VANILLA WITH CHOCOLATE FILLING INSIDE ;D

~Rain

*cough* I edited out this one part. And I used to break out in random raps. =:]

Dear diary,
I thought yesterday was National Chocolate Day and Tick Tock day...sorry diary...but it's ok I still luv you :)

~stephstar101

I've always wanted to have a dairy that I updated in daily...

I could never do it.

I may have done it for one week, but that was it.

Same goes for blogs.

It's just better keeping my thougts in my head, I don't like pouring my head out onto paper.

I don't have a dairy and never will cause that's just alot of work to me and I know some very nosey people, so yeh >.<
If I did though, it'd go something like:
Dear Diary,
My day is boring as always so I guess it's kind of an eh day for me. I've been trying to find something to do the entire day but no luck so far since I only stuck with something for like an hour or so. I tried writing with my left hand (and I can too just slower), I tried playing a new piece on my piano (Kiss the rain by yiruma), and I've even tried to write in Be Safe font. So I spent most of my day just watching '1 Litre of Tears' and chatting my day away. So, yeh, that's basically it for today.

If I wrote a diary entry it would be something like this:

Dear Diary,

I got gum stuck in my hair again. I know what your thinking..how?!?! Let's just say, I shouldn't chew gum while I'm sleeping. Of course because I sleep with my mouth OPEN!! And don't forget that I roll around in the bed every 10 minutes or so. Man, I will never chew another gum again! Well, for now that is..

Sincerely,
Your favorite weirdo..