i was so upset
i met this guy
we became good friends
though i was struggling to cope up with him
and along the way,,, i realized...
he must have feelings for me
and i pushed him away...
i cant take the thought to falling in love
after what i've been through...
i dont know,,,
i pushed him away because i dont want him to get hurt but i end up hurting him more!!!!!!!!!!!

wow that was so poetic and prettty


but sweet how are you ever going to find love if you always push people away? i was there not to long ago. i didnt let any boy even come over to hang out cause ive been crushed and hurt all the time. then i let one boy come over and watch a movie and now were engaged bout to be married...

that is.. if your not looking for anyone, more power to ya for being as strong as you are.

but look out, there are nice boys out there you just gotta wait for 'em

Yikes. You have a phobia on love and intimacy? Where did THAT stem from? My fiance has been trying to help me with my three phobias... it is working somewhat. I'll relay what he told me, find whatever the phobia stemmed from, what was the reason you felt this way and TRY to remind yourself that that person, place, or thing won't hurt you like that one time it did. The world itself is a dangerous place, if we live in fear all the time we won't live at all.

Atleast I got over my fear of ovens and churches; now I realized that I misplaced the phobia and mine is on heat and worship ~_~;; As for my other phobia on punishment/criticism ..well I'm still working on that but hey -- I tried. It's very difficult in your situation, but try to take it slow. Write letters or text.... I found out that you're often braver on the other side of the computer screen lol.