OMG! I do too! I even wake up crying. I don't know how not to worry. I don't even have to be really close to someone to worry about them. I remember reading about a guy who was gay in like I don't remember the country I want to say Sweden Switzerland someplace like that and he wanted permission to kill himself you know be euthanized. And I could and still can't get that out of my head. That he felt so unloved that he prefer to be put down like an injured animal.