I can't cope anymore. I end up crying and hurting every day. I just want out, I want to be somewhere where there isn't pain. I don't know what to do or how to cope. It just gets harder every day. And it doesn't help being stuck in the same place everyday.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't expect anymore to be able to help. I just needed a different release of all this.

:( I don't know your circumstances so I'm afraid I can't say much but..


*hugs*

the only suggestions I have would be for you is to find a hobby, one that gets you out of the house. Or maybe a job if your old enough. Hold on to the fact that you will get out and you can get yourself out.
I could say more, but I'm going off of that maybe where you're living has some kind of turmoil.
just don't give up hope, life is too good.

I would suggest hanging out with people that love and care about you. Try venting through drawing and writing. And, possibly talk to a trusted friend as well.

I've been trying to find a job since I left school and there's nothing in the area. The people who were supposed to help didn't help at all when it comes to finding a job.

It sounds like your going throuhg some harsh depression. I've been there, but knowing that others have been there or are there doesn't help much. I found that writing it all down helped.
Personally I recommend hanging out with friends, whether their facing this as well or not. If you have any out of town friends, and if you have the money, going to visit them for a week might help. Sometimes a change of scene for a week or so helps a lot.
As for the job thing, keep trying. Just hand out resumes every week. Get your relatives and friends to look over your resume and get them to change things they think need to be changed. Also, cover letters are good, just make sure to customize them for each place you decide to drop one off. Like if your dropping one off at Sell-Mart (I'm making up the name) mention Sell-Mart in it. Managers like that sort of stuff. My current job I had a three sentence cover letter, just the stuff saying why I want to work there. I got a call back in less then an hour, and I was told unofficially, that I was hired before the interview was over. If you need any help with your resume or anything else getting a job I'll help. I may only be some random person online, but I would gladly help you. I hated it when I was going through depression because most of my friends avoided me and it seemed like no one wanted to help. So I'll help if you want me to. It also sounds as if you've been left with no one to help on that front, so a random person online might just be able to provide the help they didn't.

You know you only have yourself to rely on. I feel that way now and then. And I realize to myself no matter what I say to people they'll never tell me what I want to hear. Or help me do what I want to do. SO tell yourself what you want to change what you want better.

And if you need help leaving the place that keeps you in this horrible pit of darkness. Find the one friend you know will turn on a flashlight, throw down a rope and lower their hand to you. Keep that one friend because that one friend is not afraid of maybe being pulled down with you because they want to be there for you.

I can't say much or offer much because I'm not where near you or know you relaly. BUT *hugs* This is all I can and hope and pray for you.

Place resumes in as many places as possible, then wait for them to call you. Keep trying with that until you get a job.

I'm going to the place where they're going to try and help me find a job on Friday. So I'll get help from them but there isn't anywhere to work unless you have a nasty boss who messes you about all the time.

Depression went away for a while but is back with a vegance. It's got to a point where I don't see any reason for living anymore.

Well if you stuck in the same place start going other places regardless of what your told. Live and experience. Remember that Suicide is the cowards way out. There is always a better out that death. You just haven't found it yet. Just take and see what you are doing wrong and fix it.

Well there's not alot of other places to go seeing as the transport links are crap round here. So there is no escape from here no matter where I go there are always the severaly common people there.

My whole life is one big failure, everything I do goes wrong. So there isn't any point of trying anymore. I took help when it was offored and it just made me feel worse. I go to the doctors to get help they send me to a therapist which just makes me feel even worse than before.

It just keeps going round in one big circle where I'm not getting any help what so ever.

Originally Posted by HIM_ROCK

Well there's not alot of other places to go seeing as the transport links are crap round here. So there is no escape from here no matter where I go there are always the severaly common people there.

My whole life is one big failure, everything I do goes wrong. So there isn't any point of trying anymore. I took help when it was offored and it just made me feel worse. I go to the doctors to get help they send me to a therapist which just makes me feel even worse than before.

It just keeps going round in one big circle where I'm not getting any help what so ever.

There's always an escape. The more you get stuck in a cycle that propagates itself, the more trapped you will feel. As other people have said before, find a hobby that could translate into a real job. Or get a bicycle and ride to workplaces (I do, I still don't have a car, and I've had a license for 3 years now).
There's never not a point to life. That took me 5 years to figure out.
Life is full of beauty and wonder, and even being able to see the colors present in nature is a gift unto itself. There are some people who can't see colors, let alone the flowers and sunsets. Others are unable to hear the melodies of a beautiful orchestra, and some cannot speak at all.
Don't ever give up on experiencing life. It only happens once, and then it's slipped from your grasp forever.

P.S. Sometimes when people let you down, it means that you have to take matters into your own hands and help yourself first. If you are co-dependent on others, that might be how you feel you got stuck in this circle in the first place.

I don't have friends anymore. I gave up one having friends when they let me down when I needed them most. I don't depend on people because I can't trust them.

I don't have a job, looking for one but not having very good people skills won't help me get one and neither will having anxiety, which causes me to have a panic attack and to nearly pass out when put in an interview situation.


Depression is just getting worse and worse to the point where I hurt myself because doing that makes everything stop and makes me feel numb for a while.

I can almost feel your pain :( Please, don't hurt yourself. It could become a vicious cycle [if it hasn't yet]. Why is this depression exactly? Not having company, not feeling the least bit important, feeling socially incompetent, you feel wrong with yourself or all of these?

Consider your life. Nobody is ever eternally stranded. There's always a way out, and you'll eventually find it. Just start autoanalysing yourself. Why is that you feel such anxiety? Maybe you have a phobia for loss? You fear you might give off the wrong impression? Or your own moves? The people around you?

The first step is the diagnosis, and what you have here [not having any friends, not being able to get a job, having panic attacks] seem to be mere symptoms. You need the cause. What's causing all of this? You must know what's stopping you from everything. It's not the lack of transportation, or the lack of friendships, to me it seems the lack of self-steem, because, if you loved yourself, you wouldn't be worried about everything going wrong. Instead, you would be asking how to start, how to overcome this anxiety, a med, a site that could help with this.

About life being meaningless: It is and it is not. It is not because nobody put you on this Earth and told you "you must do this, this is your mission", yet, it is, because even a homeless has an effect on the people around them, be it positively or negatively, there's a purpose.

Now, this is just my opinion. The opinion of a minor who lives 8 countries away. If you don't find help in my words, ask someone else. Just don't give up. At least, don't without giving a tremendous fight before.

PS: Good luck with finding the path to self-improvement. Remember there's always a way, even if it means waiting for the opportunity. Take care of yourself, and don't hold grudges [<< this does more damage to your internal peace than you would think].

Oh no, you're making me sad HIM. D:

*hugs HIM* Aww. Are you ok? Whats wrong?

Originally Posted by HIM_ROCK

I don't have friends anymore. I gave up one having friends when they let me down when I needed them most. I don't depend on people because I can't trust them.

I don't have a job, looking for one but not having very good people skills won't help me get one and neither will having anxiety, which causes me to have a panic attack and to nearly pass out when put in an interview situation.


Depression is just getting worse and worse to the point where I hurt myself because doing that makes everything stop and makes me feel numb for a while.

It may not seem like it right now, but you have the power to bring yourself out of this. You have to remember that you don't do everything wrong, even if it feels like it. I'm sure you have some very good qualities that you and others appreciate. If you can't rely on others because you don't trust them, try relying on yourself. It's either that or open up to someone. It may be hard, but sometimes it's better to open up to a friendly stranger who will listen than to keep everything bottled up inside. You don't have to trust everyone you talk to. Find someone who understands that you need to let it all out, just like you're doing here.

What helps me when I get in a funk is doing something that is only for me, like a hobby. It distracts me and keeps me occupied until I feel at least a little better. If you can't handle interview situations, maybe it's best to try to find a place where the interviews aren't so...formal? You also don't have to work face to face with people in every job out there. You could answer phones, for example.

Him, you know from talking to me i'll always do my best to be here for you.

Time and time again i've seen you sad or upset, I do my best to take care of you. I will continue to do that. You are one of my greatest friends and you do deserve me as your friend, and you do deserve to get help.

I'll always be here every step of the way to help you threw things as best I can.

I promise.

I'm not going to be all overly cheerful and say- "well, things are never as bad as they seem," because when you're in them, they are. I suppose they're learning experiences, but they're also things you need to get through to reach better times.
I was really depressed when I was 12 and my parents were divorcing. It was a while ago, so I'm afraid I can't help much.
Whenever I get sad I read one of my favorite books or movies, cuddle up with one of my cats, and eat chocolate.
monster.com, craigslist and other sites are a good start. You might want to try yoga or meditation to help with your job anxiety. A good method is to imagine every muscle in your body relaxing. You could also take up a martial art.
This is probably just what people have been saying all along, but I hope it helps to know that we all care.

I've fully gone back to self harming...again...

I assume I know how you're feeling, if you feel like there's not much else you can turn to, or look forward to, or fall onto, or depend on in your life. I've thought a lot about giving up completely. But, I can't turn to that for some reason. I'll only be making others hurt too, and I can't do that.

But there is something I strive to do. Since I'm nearly willing to give up, then I should atleast give up my fears, my problems, my things I can't stand. And maybe, things will get better. Worst comes to worst, I stay depressed. But maybe It can be a way to release myself from things that are dragging me down in life. Even my little social inhibitions. My tiny, long listed quirks.

I hope you find something. Just, something.

Hey, self-harming isnt worth your time. We all get into rough times. It happens to the best of everyone. As long as you pull yourself through it you will do so much better. Surround yourself with good people and keep moving forward each step at a time. =)

five years of trying to cope with this is my limit it seems. dissapearing and never comming back is seeming more and more tempting.

You seem like you might possibly have a depressional problem from what I think. I dont want to be offensive because its very normal, but maybe you just need to talk to someone and start more conversations. Therapists and even doctors are there to always help you. They will never hurt you and they are very honest about what they think. I think for now its the best you can do. Hurting yourself wont help your problems go away, it never will. Don't do that stuff to yourself, it will make you even more unhappy. Trust me. People have off days a lot of times but if its becoming a big cycle of them, you just need help from someone who can sort out the puzzles you cant solve at the moment.

lots of people will always be willing to be your friend, and when you reach out on here, people always help you back. You can consider this community on mene, friends of yours. No body wants to see you hurt even me, things will get better but you just need to take smarter actions then hurting yourself.

You're obviously in deep throes of depression if you're at this point. Please, find a therapist on the outside that cares about his patients rather then being a pill dispenser- had many old therapists like that and they literally ruined my life and health.
Don't scar yourself... you will regret it so badly later. I have had friends like that. Get the help you need now... before you do something to permanently damage yourself.

It's got to a point where I'm not sure if I've ever been happy or if there's any point trying to be happy anymore.