
06-29-2009, 04:19 PM
...annoying, unobservant, fat, lazy, self-centered,... UGH
Every. Single. Day.
I pick up his clothes, I put away his dirty dishes, I pull napkins out of his dirty cups, I log him off the computer, I have to ask him to turn town the tv more than a couple bars so I don't hear it while I sleep,I put up with his trainwreck snoring when he's spending the night in the living room, I bring him drinks, I move his things so I can sit down.
I scream and cry for him to stop doing something that's angering me.
He simply laughs at me, and keeps doing it.
EVERY TIME.
It's been 16 years and some months since I was born.
And he STILL doesn't know...
that I don't like spaghetti. I don't like UFC. I dont want to learn martial arts. I do NOT want to learn Spanish, I don't want kids, I don't like bounty hunting, I don't like the show Cops, I don't like country music. I don't like mexican food, I don't like warts, I won't take his shoes or socks off for him. I don't want to learn guitar, I don't want to go to church, I dont want to go to car shows,My food is not his food, and for pete's sake my sweety's name IS NOT HOMEBOY and i DO NOT like it when he calls him that!
It's been 2 years since mom got a cellphone. My dad STILL doesn't know her number, and can't be bothered to look it up.
It's been almost 7 months since I started dating my sweety. and I DO NOT APPRECIANTE WHEN....
My dad sits less than an inch from us on the couch. When my dad threatens Sweety when I'm out of the room. When I'm holding hands with my sweety, and my dad yells at us to "stop hanging all over each other". When my dad watches us while he DRIVES. When my dad lies about me not being home when sweety calls. When my dad talks down about him infront of ME. When my dad says that I'm "dressed like a whore" when its a short sleeved t-shirt and jeans, when i'm about to go somewhere with my sweety.
I can go ON AND ON with this.
He's the most annoying person ever.
I hate living with him so much. And my mom, too. Neither of my parents like my boyfriend. I don't see why. In their opinion he "needs to grow up", "he's immature", "needs to stop crying about everything","needs to listen to his parents", "needs to appreciate his parents more"
His mom has cancer and his stepfather blames him for it, gets drunk every night and tends to yell at him for nothing at all. He hits him sometimes. My sweety is not a happy person and he has every right not to be.
My mom said that it was "good" that my sweety doesn't like that my parents are forcing me to go to Colorado with relatives I dont remember/don't know/never heard of. Then told me that I liked it very much. I hate the idea. I hate everything about it.
My parents don't like that I like the theatre, and that I love doing shows and being with my friends who also like theatre. They told me, "you dont really like that stuff, you just think you do".
I'm a theater kid at heart. It's where I can be myself, and where i can be someone else as the same time. It's my home, whether they like or not. They're trying to keep me away from it, because they dont like it.
I hate living with them.
Not to mention, they will not hesitate to hit me when they're mad at me. Thus, I've gotten to the point where touching them makes me cringe, and being hit, wether it hurts me or not, sends me into a panic for nearly the entire day.
Then they get mad at me for "overreacting". Yeah. Thanks.
they also told me one day, "it's impossible to have problems that aren't problems with your parents, so you're just doing everything for attention"
Sorry for being upset about being bullied in school in my early years, sorry for coming home crying after my first boyfriend of a year and a month dumped me, sorry for falling into a depression because of him.
Ugh.
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