Lately, nothing feels right. Everyone pisses me off, and my patience is nearly 0. I can't sleep (which isn't new but it's worse now). I'm just so sick of everything. Everyone wants to fight with me, and then tell me they had a bad day and I just made it worse even if I don't do anything but defend myself. Everyone feels like it's okay to tell me about their problems, demand sympathy, and then not listen to me when I want to talk about something or give advice. I don't mind listening to my friends, but frankly if you're telling everyone about your parents divorce just so they feel bad for you, I don't want to hear it. My parents are divorced and have been for the last 8 years, and I've hated every second of it, but I don't use it for attention.

I'm slowly realizing that I'm not good at anything. I mean, I have really good grades, but that's it. I'm not pretty, athletic, friendly, or talented in any area. I spend a lot of time sitting on my bed staring at the wall (no lie).

I feel like I'm losing friends, and I guess I am. And even if they're people I know I'm better off without, it hurts. Over the summer, I decided I never wanted to talk to a formerly very good (and very old) friend again because she criticized most of my decisions and actions and I couldn't handle it anymore. Another good friend randomly decided that he hated me, and after a long and insulting conversation (I swear he ripped apart every part of my personality).

I've always been the one that can take a joke, and nothing ever bothered me. All of a sudden, though, I don't find my friend's teasing as funny. I don't know why-I know they're only kidding, and they only do it because they know it doesn't bug me. I just don't know.

I feel like I'm a mess. A failure. I can't do anything right and I"m sure no one wants to talk to me because of how I've been acting. I just don't know what to do.

Oh wow, I feel your pain D:, basically everything you listed I have/ are gone/going through. For your friends insisting on you listening to your problems, and then they don't do the same in return. My solution to that is - don't listen to their problems. If they are so self absorbed in everything that is happening to them, and they cannot even bother listening to anyone else's problems. Let alone a friend's problem, then don't bother. Seek out the friends that WILL listen to you. They are truly the only friends that you should care about really. I have some friends who don't care about listening to my problems, so I don't tell them about 'em. And I don't bother listening to their problems. Or if I do, I won't say anything about it. But it sounds to me that you need better friends than the ones that you have. (Also my parents got divorced as well, and it was a really hard time for me too. I know how you feel on that one. And having it happen to other people, and trying to make everyone feel bad for you is wrong).

As for you not being that pretty or talented, welcome to my world @[email protected] I'm not good at anything, and I don't think that I'll amount to anything. But if you enjoy doing something as a hobby, even though it may not seem good. Just do it, it's something that you should enjoy yourself. You shouldn't have to worry about the criticism that other's give. Also you shouldn't care if you aren't all that pretty, as long as you like who you are, appearances shouldn't matter. No one can/ should judge you based on your appearance.

All in all, I'd say, get better friends, enjoy the things that YOU like to do, and don't take any shit from anyone =3

I can't think of any activities I like though...I mean, I like duct tape things, but I only have so much patience for it.

I think your not doing anything wrong. It just that you want also want to be heard. I know the feeling. I usually listen to my friends problems and everything they want in life. However, when its my turn? they never bother to listen. I think they are already used on how I act. I usually act happy in front of them and kinda put things in a stupid way, and they never bother to understand how I feel. I, sometimes think if I become part of them? But I don't want that to get in my way. Now that we already stepped up in the new level. I act on my own as far as I can, i want to do things on my own. After all, its only me in the end.

Originally Posted by Queen Fool

Lately, nothing feels right. Everyone pisses me off, and my patience is nearly 0. I can't sleep (which isn't new but it's worse now). I'm just so sick of everything. Everyone wants to fight with me, and then tell me they had a bad day and I just made it worse even if I don't do anything but defend myself. Everyone feels like it's okay to tell me about their problems, demand sympathy, and then not listen to me when I want to talk about something or give advice. I don't mind listening to my friends, but frankly if you're telling everyone about your parents divorce just so they feel bad for you, I don't want to hear it. My parents are divorced and have been for the last 8 years, and I've hated every second of it, but I don't use it for attention.

I'm slowly realizing that I'm not good at anything. I mean, I have really good grades, but that's it. I'm not pretty, athletic, friendly, or talented in any area. I spend a lot of time sitting on my bed staring at the wall (no lie).

I feel like I'm losing friends, and I guess I am. And even if they're people I know I'm better off without, it hurts. Over the summer, I decided I never wanted to talk to a formerly very good (and very old) friend again because she criticized most of my decisions and actions and I couldn't handle it anymore. Another good friend randomly decided that he hated me, and after a long and insulting conversation (I swear he ripped apart every part of my personality).

I've always been the one that can take a joke, and nothing ever bothered me. All of a sudden, though, I don't find my friend's teasing as funny. I don't know why-I know they're only kidding, and they only do it because they know it doesn't bug me. I just don't know.

I feel like I'm a mess. A failure. I can't do anything right and I"m sure no one wants to talk to me because of how I've been acting. I just don't know what to do.

First of all, if you ever need to talk or whatever, you can always PM me, regardless of the problem and I will listen.

Secondly, not being able to sleep is going to make you a million times more cranky and you have to keep this in mind. Because you're going to feel more depressed and have less patience with people just because of that fact. I always feel completely miserable when I haven't gotten sleep. And if your bad feelings and experiences are the things that are causing you not to be able to sleep, then you're stuck in a vicious cycle right there. Sleeping pills can help you out if you get really desperate about it. I know that I've gotten insomnia myself from stress and things and it is not fun at all.

Thirdly, how old are you? I wish I knew people's ages in this section because it's easier to give advice to people when you know how old they are. Some advice only applies to certain age groups and I tend to assume everyone on here is high school age, so I'm going to give you the next advice based on that assumption.

People in high school and junior high and stuff are really immature. My Dad says those years of his life was the worst years of his life and I'd have to agree for myself as well. I was suicidal, I had horrible experiences all the time at that age, and there was just so much stupid drama all the time. People are really immature at that age. They don't really understand themselves and they're just trying to fit in and they do stupid things because of it and hurt other people.

You sound really burnt out from it. I can tell you're burnt out from trying to be something special and also from all the drama. Don't worry about being something special. Just try to be you and that special thing about you will eventually come out because you ARE special. It's not something you have to earn the status of, you just have to be you. You're putting too much pressure on yourself when it's not the time to. You need to recuperate instead. Learn to have some fun and relax and take care of yourself so you can start sleeping and stop feeling miserable all the time. Not to beat yourself up because you feel like a horrible person and like you're worth nothing. It's easier to be successful and a nice person to other people when you're feeling good about yourself and about life, so worry about that first before you worry about anything else.

Also, if you are in high school, don't worry about the fact that you don't know what you are going to do with your life or what is special about you. You have lots of time to figure that out and there's a lot of people much older than you who have no idea what they want to do either. I'm 24 and I think I finally know what I want to do, but it took me a long time to figure it out. I kept changing my mind about what majors I wanted to be in college and so did my boyfriend, who is 22 years old himself. He just changed his major again this year. Life is a process of figuring out who you are and what you should do every day. You're young. You don't have to have it all figured out now. I'd be more surprised if you DID have it all figured out and had your whole self figured out.

And I just want to add this . . . .

There are some self-centered people in the world, people who genuinely only think of themselves, but those people are very few.

People usually treat others according to how they have been treated. People didn't listen to you talk a bunch about how much your parents' divorce hurt you and therefore, you're upset that someone else is getting away with it and accusing them of just doing it for attention. What's wrong with attention? People should want to be ignored and alone and not sympathized with all the time so they can be bitter and cold? I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting sympathy, but since you haven't received sympathy, it hurts you when someone else gets it.

The solution here is not to tell that girl to shut-up or be angry with her. Maybe you can't take listening to her being upset right now because you're not strong enough to and that's fine, but I don't agree that she's a bad person for talking about herself. The real solution here is that you need to surround yourself with more people who will sympathize with you and talk to you about things that have hurt you. You mentioned that you've been in a lot of pain over your parents' divorce, so why don't you find someone to talk about those kinds of things to. There's no such thing as a problem needing to be "worthy" of complaint. If something hurts someone then it's fine to complain about it and if you need to complain about anything like that, then don't be afraid to PM me or make more similar posts on here about this issue in the future.

Also, remember that most people are going to treat you the same way that you are treating them. You mentioned that you are feeling cranky and being angry a lot right now. That's part of the reason you've been around so much hostility lately. It's hard because you're tired, I know, and you should never let people walk all over you (people can tell when someone is going to let them do that and will walk all over that person), but being sympathetic towards people like that girl will help them be more sympathetic towards people like you. Whenever I start yelling at someone, I know they're probably going to yell at me back because that's just the way it works. People respond in kind to how they are treated. That's also part of the reason you are so cranky and angry right now. You feel mistreated and you're responding in kind as well.

Also, I've noticed that people who get sympathized the most and treated the best (although no one gets treated perfectly or really well) are the people who feel that they have something important to say and that people SHOULD listen to them. I know the people in your life are being crappy, but keep reaching out to new friends and new people whenever you need to. And start believing that your problems are worthy of being complained about and don't accept it when people don't listen. You just sound really insecure about yourself and that's why I'm not sure that you're actually doing that. It doesn't mean you have to get angry and argue with people (like I said, people tend to be mean to you if you are mean to them), you just need to expect and feel you are worthy of other people listening to you. People can sense that in others, how confident they feel about themselves and it affects how other people treat them.

its OK to rant, my dear. this is what you're doing exactly.

no, there is nothing wrong with you. you just needed an outlet for expression. which is what you are doing now.

i understand your situation completely, because i know the pain of having your parents getting divorced and the stigma it brings upon the children of the broken union.

if you need people to talk to,i guess you can PM me. and the others above. we are all willing to listen to you, and will try NOT to be soo prude about it.. :D

Hang in there!