When I was going home today I feel an extraordinary feelings, all the negative things about myself is starting to engulf within my mind at once. I really don't know what kind of feeling is this or is it just a depression. I feel I wanna go out for awhile and see the world and see myself in a far distance but I couldn't do so. There are so many things that hinders me to express myself fully to others. I don't know how to express things inside my head. When I talk, I am like a server who always buffer. I have a low level of self confidence, yet I wanna go out from the shell I created long before, but even how hard I try, there's nothing, it's useless. For this reason, sometimes I just wanna be alone and not talk too much. I am really deeply sorry about myself alone. How can I improve? IS there some one who could give me a good advice to work things done with this kind of problem:feesh:?

I've felt that way before, myself. Like no matter what you try to do, you just can't do it because you aren't good enough, don't have enough potential, or resources, etc.
I think that is considered a mild form of depression.

Prayer and faith helped me a lot. And another thing that I found beneficial was breaking my routines. Instead of going through the same old hum-drum stuff everyday I'd go out of my way to take care of all my responsibilities as soon as I could that day, and then spend the rest of the day doing whatever I wanted. Sometimes those little changes in your daily grind will help shift your mindset.

Gaining self confidence could be done by participating in community events, or going out with friends one night and just having fun. Or stepping out of your comfort zone in a social situation...

I don't know if that helps at all, but I certainly hope it does! :(

It's normal. Everyone feels that way now and again. Just try and be positive and tell it to go suck it's self. If it last for more than a month I would go talk to professional. There i underlying issue nagging at you that you need weed out and confront.

That's happened to me before. I think it's because I am sensitive to the feelings of people around me and I pick up on it. That could be what it is.

You seem like a wonderful and deep person, I suggest that you break out of that shell once in awhile and let people see that about you. You don't have to become exceedingly outgoing overnight, just take it one step at a time. Try to speak up when you would normally be silent. Really listen to what people around you are saying and eventually you'll figure out things to respond with.

You're definitely doing the right thing in seeking help to better yourself and you are very brave to have such courage to do so. Far too many people in this world would let such things stir in their mind, forever suppressed.

On those days when you feel like being alone, please try not to be alone. Personally I find that at those times all you really need is one good friend to hang out with at home. It's not your mind telling you to be alone, it's your mind telling you that you need some one on one time with somebody. We all need a little extra attention sometimes, just don't overdo it alright?

Well I hope that wasn't too confusing for you and if I was nearby I would totally give you a hug right now. Hang in there trouper! You're just starting on a fabulous journey towards an even more fabulous you!

To Ms. bethedmundsguthrie, Runes, Miserine, and especially Ms. Silenttiger43, I am deeply wanna say thank you for the words and advice you have shared to me. I'll try the best as I can to do things you have suggested. To ms. silenttiger43, i am really moved by the things you have said to me. For that, I am so thankful.

I do really wanted to change those kind of feelings and to have more confidence within myself, but every time I would likely to ask some few people who knows me well about things I need to improve, they just listen to what I am saying and never gave their feed back. I don't know the reason why. For this reason, I could not know what are the things I should polish within me. This makes me sad cause no one is there to say the things I shouldn't and the things I should improve. Sometimes, I just evaluate myself on my own, which leads sometimes on feeding my thoughts some negative aspect of my own self.

I totally see where you're coming from. It can be very difficult to find out what you need to when it comes to bettering yourself. Try to talk to your friends again and encourage them that it's alright for them to critique you anytime. As long as you're conscientious about what they're saying and are able to take it without being insulted then everything should work out.

Don't be afraid of arguments, I certainly got into a few of those along my own similar journey. The important thing is to keep lines of communication open, and to know when either of you needs time to cool down before you can discuss the problem again.

It sounds like you have a little problem with self confidence, I would suggest working on that first and see where life leads you next. Sometimes it's really difficult for people to tell you anything when you haven't expressed yourself enough.

One more thing, if your friends say that they can't think of anything that they would want change about you, I want you to know it's OK to leave it at that. Sometimes there really isn't anything wrong at the time and you should embrace that and have fun just being who you are now.

That's my problem, too ...
And I'm tying my best to get myself out of that awful feeling of depression as well ...

I just try to make some more friends to gain more self-confidence ...
They help me out so much .