Stupid!
 

I'm not really one for putting my problems out there but I don't really have anyone to talk to here, so let me tell you guys whats going on...

My first love, real boyfriend, and fiancee messaged me while he's with another chick. I didn't respond and got a message from her. Well, I had to go through some tough things involving a kid of his that is no longer here, and he was not there for me. She brought this up, letting me know that at the time of the surgery, they were together. In bed. Please post and join me in my complaints...

No, he's with this other chick now, like we were broken up, and he messaged me.

Woah, woah, woah... I didn't quite catch all of what you said because the sentence structure was a little off but from what I did pick up... woah! What the heck are these people thinking?

My first love, real boyfriend, and fiancee= all three of them?

This sounds to familiar. Did you get brain surgery?

No not brain surgery...I had gotten pregnant by him, but the baby died in me, and my body didn't expel in....I didn't have a miscarriage like I should have, so I had to go into surgery to have it removed. It drives me crazy.

What I hate most about it is how strong I used to be. I didn't have to rely on anyone, but I trusted him. I handed him the tools to create my downfall, if I really want to be dramatic, lol. I basically let him hurt me...Handed him the knife and said, "Hey Pookie, stab this in my back, okay?"

I feel like so much has gone wrong, especially after my surgery. Like, why me, ya know? I know other people have problems too, and many of them are probably worse...So maybe I'm just a bad, selfish person for wanting to just scream and throw my problems on other people. And I feel bad for hoping she hurts him as bad as he hurt me.