
04-12-2010, 05:50 AM
I don’t know what I am thinking right now. I usually have lot of issue running around my head. I am a 22 years old, a woman (oh gosh! I hate to say the matured words here)…whose life started too early. I am a conservative type; I am so thankful that even though I am like this, I still got the work I needed in order for me to sustain my needs without asking my parents so much. This was all thanks to that person, because of her; she made a new start in my career. Day by day, I have been working as much as I can, but sometimes I thought of, is this right for me? I finished a BS-International Studies during my college days and now I have been working way out of my field. But I am not complaining just because of this, it is just that I find it amusing how did I came to this work. It is more on accounting thing, and I hate numbers of all the subject during school days. All day during weekdays, all that I could think of is work and work, I always say yes on every thing she wants me to accomplish to do. I, sometimes, do complain about it to myself, but later on, it becomes my habit, and I am usually not so fine when she don’t ask me to complete this and that. Though she gave me a lot of work, yet I am enjoying it so much. Until such time that I reach the point of loving my own work even though it’s not that much. However, as I start doing so, it was so sudden that there was some changes happen a few months ago. There was a reshuffling thing coming from their head office, and she was reshuffled to other agency. At first I thought that this issue will not be pursued, but fate turns its wheel without any notice. I don’t have a choice but to accept this, because I am just a subordinate and an assigned employee in this agency I work at. At present, I work under a four bosses. Well, they are nice to me and I find them as fine bosses. But somehow, I feel that my existence is going dried up. My work previously was already lessening now, which is good. But in someway or another, I feel guilty and so pessimist about everything, thinking that “Do they need me in here”. I feel that I am like a flower vase here waiting for them to come and answer all the calls they needed, since they are usually going to other offices they were assigned to. Just as this moment, I don’t have any work to do. I feel bored and anxious to work on something that I usually do. The truth is I miss my previews boss.
If some one who read this, could you tell me, what’s the best thing for me to do? Do I need to find another job? But I like it here, in some way or another. Do they need me? IS their anything that I must do? Maybe, I am just in an adjusting period but I do want to seek for your advice and suggestion.
|