It doesn't matter if she's short and snappy with you but if you give her a short answer she gets upset.

[lol] People like that are so strange...

At the moment I just feel well trapped and lost

*gives HIM a map* Where ya lost at? Trying to decide where to go in life?

II just don't really know wheee i want to go in life

Well neither did I. I honestly stumbled over my future on accident and found i liked it.

Feeling like I should just crawl into a hole and die

Well I need to lose weight or have contraceptive pill changed and because gaining weight has got me down

The pill has a lot of health problems linked to it... unless you are using it for period relief, honestly I'd say the alternatives are better. It can reduce lifespan slightly (as do most pills) and weight gain.

It's probibly going to be change of pill, from microgynon to the mini pill, as I can't do any of the alternatives as they cause heavier periods which is why I'm on the pill.

Weight gain wasn't really a problem but then when I was at the lowest point I wasn't eating at all and since I've got better I put on weight.

Bit of an update. Since having my other upper wisdome tooth removed I've stopped grinding my teeth.

Just feeling a it down because...well feeling fat and ugly

Naw HIM isn't ugly. HIM is far from ugly. xP
As for "fat"... I highly doubt that... >.>" been to America lately?

:c Hey. I'm American and my fat gives me nice curves.

Hang in there, HIM. And don't be down about weight gain- Fat is not put on your body for the sole purpose of making you miserable.

I am a freaking idiot.

I highly doubt that HIM... I've met lots of idiots and HIM is not one of them.

@ Dystopia - That isn't the "fat" I was referring to... that's "fluffy" [lol] fluffy is good, fat is to the point of impending heart failure.

Well just fuced up what I was making

HIM, the great thing about fucking up, is that you learn from it, move on, and make it better. How else were there other great inventions, even the PlayStation (or XBox, or Nintendo... What ever you prefer) went through plenty of revisions. The point is, dont get frustrated, and don't give up. Just breath, take some time to look it over, and try again.

It was supposed to be a present

It still can be a present. I just messed up making a playpen :p, my wife might not be too happy, but I'm sure my baby won't mind. So again, don't give up. I'm here with you.

I see you have a lot of posts about this already, I'm chiming in to. To start off, I know the feeling. Not wanting to get up and bother. Wanting to hide away from the world. Not sure if this is you, but I wanted to die. I never wanted to kill myself, but I wanted to die. From what little I read you push yourself to hard. There is a time when to push and when to release the reins. It's hard to find a balance between the two. Now I honestly believe this. The nicest people always have the hardest relationships. I believe this is so because the nice person is always there for everybody, making sure everyone is happy. It's impossible for this person to be otherwise. Yet life happens and this person can get upset and angry at times. The people, not used to the person having an emotional side take offense. You lose friend after friend. I've learned to be able to accept that friends come and go, and not be upset about it. Because of this my relationships with my friends have drastically improved. I believe this is because I'm not always on edge ready for them to leave me. People can feel this, even without realizing it. Knowing this does not fix anything. How do you except this? It's to painful. Like many people have said before, and many after. "Anything worth having is something you have to work for." Yet knowing that as well doesn't help with actually doing it. What you have to do, at least what I had to do, was think about every relationship that had the worst departure. I thought about every important detail that happened. What they said what I said. I thought over what I said and how the reaction was. Doing this I learned how to say things without causing to much offense. Knowing that I can talk to people better about problems helped me understand something. I know in my heart that I can try as hard as I can to keep any relationship. Knowing that I tried my hardest to keep it, yet it didn't happen, eased the pain of knowing I'm going to lose friends. When that happens it's just a matter of time before the pain eases as you learn more. Then one day you notice that it's completely gone!!!! Another thing before I end this book. When you are trying to reach a goal there is no straight way to do anything. You have to take steps back and turn around. Sometimes you chose the wrong path and have to backtrack. With that goal in mind, knowing that you will make it even with backtracking, you will reach it. Never decide you aren't good enough for something. By doing so you have made yourself not good enough. Who cares if someone isn't smart or not quick. Learn what needs to be done and you will succeed. Just because it takes longer, or the way is different. If you can do it, then you did it. Good luck... Good luck... I believe in you.

Not wanting to be me at the moemnt

What happened?

If you don't want to be you, who do you want to be?
I think HIM is worth wanting to be. You have problems, but think about it, life could be far worse.
While your depression makes you feel like you've hit rock bottom, you're still quite far from it ^^ believe me, depression is an illusion that makes you feel worse than you really should.

Great start to 2013 feeling craptastic

What happened?